The Final Surrender

As I stood outside the door, to the room ,that could change
my life forever my courage deserted me.
Turning to walk away, the door was suddenly opened and there you were.
The moment I saw you I knew, in my heart , that I was totaly lost.
You quickly reached for my hand and guided me into the room.
You told me that I was more beautiful than you remembered.
As you gently reached up to carress my cheek I took a tentative step backwards.
You looked at me with a wounded look in your eyes.
I told you the reason I had come was to tell you that I could’nt go through with this
and that things were moving to rapidly and the future was too uncertain.
You placed your hand under my chin, and longingly gazed into my eyes.
As a solitary tear slid slowly downwards, you reached towards it with your hand,
and with a tenderness that shook me, you lovingly wiped
it away with the tip of your thumb.
You told me I was lying to myself, telling myself I felt nothing,
when all the while you could feel my body trembling.
You asked me what I would feel , if you were to slowly lower your lips to mine.
As our lips met, in a kiss I could only descibe as incredible,
my mind and my heart were involved in a bitter struggle for truth.
Still uncertain of my surrender you asked how I would feel
if your lips were to slowly trace a path from my lips to my throat.
Again lying to myself, with every fiber of my being, I told you I would feel nothing.
The touch of your soft lips against my skin was almost more than I could bear
and with a strength born of desperation I kept my arms immobile by my side.
As your lips reached my ears, in a whisper so soft
I thought i’d imagined it, you told me you loved me.
Suddenly all my defences crumbled around me.
In my mind, I knew what my heart had always known, I was empty without you.
Entwining my fingers through your hair I desperately captured your waiting lips.
Locked in an embrace,that brought us so close,we were almost one,
I surrendered to the emotions raging through my whole being.
I could feel the evidence of your arousal as our kiss intensified.
Lifting me gently in your arms you carried me effortlessly into the bedroom,
where with a tenderness born of loving we slowly and launguishly undressed each other.
As our naked bodies touched, the heat so intensive i thought i would ignite,
you gently entered me and made us one.
The words of love you whispered heating me almost as much as your touch.
When our final release came, no words were adequate enough to describe the
experience you had so beautifully made me a part of.
Every fibre of my being was alive with a wonder I had never felt
and never would feel again with anyone but you.
We lay, still locked together in unity, as we both tried to
return to the reality that had to be faced.
We’d taken an obsession and turned it into a love so pure
I was frightened by its intensity.
And as I gazed into your passion filled eyes,
one question demended to be answered,
oh my Darling where do we go from here?

By: Sue