| Well, where to begin. I guess through this page you will learn a lot about me. Most of my time thinking is spent philosophizing, trying to figure out the ways of the world, by nature I am a people watcher, and have learned a lot about my self in being so. The people I find most amusing are those who like to point out the painfully obvious, like your mother has done this to you.. for example she's asked you to do the dishes and a few hours later comes to you and says "You haven't done the dishes yet!". Like for some reason you didn't know this. I found that in people there are different levels of this type of personality, one type is the one who likes to point out the imperfections in other people, as if we are all perfect and any imperfections are shocking to anyone else looking upon that person. The majority of the time I find these people have a very high level of insecurity, and usually desire a quality in the person they are 'bashing'. Jealousy if you will. In my opinion most of our undesirable qualities as people stem from some kind of insecurity. But, that topic in itself could be a thesis all on it's own. I see that alot of people walk through life only worried about their immediate surroundings. Which is great, but for me it's not right. I make sure that my immediate surroundings are taken care of, but think of myself in relation to the world. And remind myself that I'm just "A little fish in a very big pond" and try my best to make every day great. I see life as a gift and every moment should be cherished. I personally try to let everyone who is special to me let them know what they mean to me. I learned this lesson when my grandfather died, and I lost my chance to let him know how very special he is to me. Take the moment at any time to let them know you care and cherish them. We spend too much of our life sweating the little things, whining about the things that don't really matter. Missing or forgetting to cherish the moments that really count. I have so many personal philosophies on life this could be a very long page, so I will just touch a few. One of my motto's is "Honesty is the only policy" be honest always, no matter the cost. Dishonesty is only hurtful and only belittles your character. I spent far to many years of my youth being dishonest, and learned a very hard lesson being hurt by the dishonesty of close friends and family. The lesson was this; by being dishonest to the people around you, you show them no respect and most of all you dis-respect yourself. I decided along time ago about my life that when I'm old and retired, sitting in the rocker on the front porch, looking back on my life, I don't want any regrets, I don't want to tell myself, "if only I had taken the chance...." or "I really regret...". I want to be sitting on that porch knowing I lived my life the best I could.. cherishing and enjoying as much as I possibly could in this short life. I refuse to muddle through in some job that I don't enjoy, but pays the bills with enough for extras. I want to dance in the fields, feel the wind blow through my hair, love my friends and family dearly, smell the flowers until I've smelled the scent of them away, I want to run my hands along the stones of the ancient ruins of the world. See the smiles of the world. Watch a million sunsets. And try to enhance the lives of those around me. Somehow make anothers life a little better for me have being there for them. To me, this is the true happiness in life. To inspire and be inspired... everyone I meet, and call friend, is an inspiration to me in one way or another. I see in people the beauty that inspires, each person holds a quality unique and individual that should never go un-noticed. And it upsets me when someone is down on them selves, not seeing the beauty that is there inside of them. |
| This time I�ll touch a subject that has been
on my mind a lot lately. I just may wander off track� but I always seem
to let my thoughts stray from a subject, but always find a way back. Hehehe.
Well I�ll start on the subject of love. In my eyes love is the grandest
of �things� to find in life. Something not to be taken for granted nor
abused. A single emotion that can bring you to your highest peak and to
your lowest. Love can inspire all other emotions. To me, love is more than
just mere words, it�s actions, reactions, friendship, trust, romance, fun,
loyalty, and intimacy at it�s deepest. Love is NOT belittling, abusive,
uncomfortable, jealous, controlling, annoying, frivolous, or fearful. I
obviously haven�t figured what it�s all about yet; as I have loved and
lost. But with every loss, there comes a lesson. A chance to learn a little
more about yourself and about others. I have learned that if a relationship
doesn�t work� it is not always your fault. In my years of people watching
I have found that we (people) tend to blame ourselves for broken relationships
more often than not. Blaming our own weaknesses, looking for our faults
to find that self blame. We�re not always blameless either; I am just focusing
on the times we are not right now. A question I ask myself� is there supposed
to be a certain period of time in which you�re supposed to mourn the loss
of a relationship before you move on to the next? I say no, but in my views�
why do people seem to frown on a person for finding love again within a
certain time period? To me I find it funny, as I do not judge another persons
heart or actions. If it feels right to you, then do it I say. How can we
go wrong if we follow what�s in our hearts? Perhaps I am just a romantic
with idealist tendencies. But this is just me rambling� spewing thoughts
out into words. I hope you can follow my thoughts. Hahaha! I ponder on
a great deal of subjects, but love seems to be the main subject on my mind
as of late. And I hope you don�t mind my long winded �spewing of thoughts�.
And just want to take a quick moment to say thank you for taking the time
to read this. Anyway, back to love. Let me broach the subject of Internet
romances. A possibly scary thing, but I know a few couples who have met
on-line and are completely happy. Which brings me to a personal philosophy�
�Love has a way of finding you where ever you are, and we should not judge
in the means it was found, and rejoice in the fact that it was found�.
I know people who mock the thought of people meeting and falling in love
on-line; as I see it the Internet is our modern version of a pen pal. Reminds
me of my family (straying for a second) a cousin of mine had a pen pal,
she had never met him, they wrote back and forth for a very long time.
After awhile emotions became involved, and they found themselves in love.
He proposed to her� in a letter. My family was very happy for her and her
engagement. Now they scoff and belittle on-line romances. Don�t you see
them as the same thing as I do? Anyway, enough about that. I truly could
go on and on and on about this subject, but fear I may have bored you in
my meandering. LOL! Perhaps not, so if you�d like to hear more, feel free
to e-mail me or leave a comment in my guest book.�
Even if it�s to just philosophize for a bit or send me your thoughts. *Smile*� |