Was walking down the sidewalk tonight and noticed the
homeless people gathered in the park.  they were 
playing kickball. i don't understand the whole 
"homeless movement".  for people who seem so 
miserable - a Kickball game? i don't get it.

i don't have much to say.  something is really fucked-up 
with my meds because i'm irratible (sp?) all the time. 
i don't have any patience and i want to just cry all 
the time.  Also, i puke all the time and just don't 
feel like eating......

right now i could just take this computer and fucking 
throw it out the window i'm so angry.... nothing is 
working.

NOTHING IS WORKING!

wait another 2 weeks for your meds to work, Gdog. 
NO WAY. i can't wait.... this is hell. Doesn't anyone 
fucking care to understand that what i go through right 
now on a daily basis is FUCKING HELL?  why don't they 
fucking listen to me? 

i can't go on like this.... it's unbearable and no one 
listens.... no one - the doctors who can control 
this.... i can't wait it out. it's going to kill me. 
why don't they see that? i can't keep taking ativan... 

THEY DON'T WORK. 

LISTEN TO ME DAMMIT!

meanwhile, the homeless ppl are playing kickball in 
the park tonight................ 

me






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