I don't know if this is true of everyone who has a small child at home (and works full-time), but I am weary down to my finger tips.  I even cut down a tree in my front yard because, along the lines of Feng Shui principles, I thought it was blocking the flow of energy into my house.  And I do think it was.  But I don't live near relatives or many friends, so I don't have the benefit of a local, trustworthy babysitter -- or at least another set of eyes to watch over my child.  Maybe that's where the exhaustion comes from -- knowing that you don't have an immediate safety net to fall into.

It is not easy living so far away from relatives and close friends.  I can feel very isolated, and always have the feeling that I have to struggle for everything I need.  But I know that there is enough in the world for everyone to meet their needs -- but after a lifetime of believing that struggle was the norm -- it is difficult to believe that I CAN have anything I want/need.  I still feel selfish or out-of-sorts when I visualize myself in a nice house with time to spend with my child, to travel, to do the things that I enjoy.  It's a weird feeling that's been holding me back that I don't DESERVE something better, that what I got is what I'm getting.

I'll visualize myself as an energetic, youthful person with all the support and me-time that I need, and it will become who I am.