A Rage I Can't Control

Fury and rage engage me,
Taking over depression and sadness.
I try not to let anyone see
My life of chaos and madness.

I hade my feelings
Until nightfall.
Then befor I sleep
I bury it all.

I'm like a volcanoe
About to explode.
Who I'll attack
Nobody knows.

I yell and scream;
And hit and kick.
You better shut up,
Or you'll be my next pick.

I live my life of chaos,
Fighting my fam'ly and friends.
This hell I've been born into,
It never seems to end.

Everyday Struggle

I cry myself to sleep each night,
And wake next day with mornings light.

Although it is a brand new day
I still look at myself in the mirror and say:

"Oh my god you ugly bitch,
You're such a stupid little witch.

You ugly, abusive stupid whore.
What are you doing? Don't shut that door."

'Too late,' I thought as I shut the door.
'I'll end this now you dumbass whore.'

I pulled the razor from my pocket,
But stopped a moment and stared at my locket.

Around my neck for almost a year,
My mom had given it to show she cared.

I threw the razor against the wall.
Then opened the dorr and walked down the hall.

Back to my room, I went then,
To cry myself to sleep again.

The Fight

As night falls
And the day comes to an end,
She cries out loud;
Realizing she's lost her best friend.

The things she said,
She wishes she didn't.
The things she did,
She thought that she couldn't.

But now its too late,
She can't turn around.
Continuing to cry,
She falls to the ground.

Oh what have I done?
I've hurt you so bad.
I'm sorry my friend.
Please dont stay mad.

The Fighting

Again tonight
I hear the fight,
As I lie in bed
Wishing I were dead.

The yelling and screaming.
The sound of him leaving.
She starts to cry
As I let out a sigh.

Each night it's the same,
This usual pain.
The same fear each night,
From this ongoing fight.