| Scribbles |
| Assorted Crap Written By RalGash |
| What I Wanted Most My lot in life, so very unfair. But never once did I even care. I prevailed and survived each near perilous end, coming back from the dead again and again. I was poor, I was violated, I was injured, I was sick, I was victimized, and I suffered great losses. I endured, I overcame each time when I suffered. An example to all I was to become. I would not allow myself to succumb. I bloomed late in life, yet knew what I wanted most. Years went by and one by one the people I knew became two and two and two. A simple thing really, what I wanted most. I did not want wealth, nor did I want things, nothing much really did I want at all. I was the one that always did care, always giving to others what little I could spare. My time, my words, money or even just a hand. I gave of these freely without worry for myself. Couples so happy wherever I looked, even the nastiest of them had someone to call their own. I was just someone growing old all alone. I tried and I cried, then tried again. Why do I have to be so alone while everyone else, even the meanest who never did give, have the very thing that I want most? I met my equal, a friend, someone I felt could make me two to the end. So I opened myself up and tried once again. I tried even harder then ever before. He made me so happy for one short while. He was so much like me I could not resist. It's not his fault, it never was. I was the one that tried ever so hard, so very hard that he drifted away. I should not have tried, I know this now, deep inside. What did I do so long ago that cursed me to make this mistake again and again? What have I done to earn me this fate, the sorrow of learning when it's far too late? I'll never have what I want most, someone to love me and hold me so close. Each time I've tried I've hurt myself deeply, deep down inside. I cried and I cried, until inside I died. Three times I've tried and three times I've cried. Never again will it happen to me, I will no longer try to get what I wanted most. It hurts too much, deep down inside... |
| Coming Soon: RalGash Attempts To Explain Women. |