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| �What's amazing is when you can feel your life going somewhere. Like your life just figured out how to get good. Like, that second.� ~Angela �It's so weird when you see someone you just dreamed about. Like it's gonna show.� ~Angela �There's something about Sunday night that really makes you want to kill yourself.� ~Angela �Mom, I'm not having sex, alright. Really. I'm not even close. To an embarrassing degree.� ~Angela �It's such a lie that you should do what's in your heart. If we all did what was in our heart, the world would grind to a halt.� ~Angela "Hatred can become, like, food. It gives you this energy. You can, like, live off it." ~Angela �Sometimes it seems like we're all living in, like, some kind of prison. And the crime is how much we hate ourselves. It's good to get really dressed up, once in a while. And admit the truth. That when you really look closely, people are so strange and so complicated that they're actually . . . beautiful. Possibly even me.� ~Angela �I'm just really, like, low. I'll just find any excuse to touch him.� ~Angela �Have you ever just, like, completely given up on someone, and then something happens, and you go, �Oh my God. There's so much more to this person than I ever dreamed!�� ~Angela �The cafeteria is the embarrassment capital of the world. It's like a prison movie.� ~Angela �Love... is when you look into someone's eyes, and suddenly, you go all the way inside . . . to their soul . . ., and you both know, instantly.� ~Angela �What's always amazed me, is fishermen. How they wait there forever, when something finally tugs on their line, they like don't panic.� ~Brian �I'm just wondering... when all this happened, you know? I mean, people pairing off... into couples. It's like... I wasn't expecting it, or something, like, like, did we cover this? Was I absent that day?� ~Brian �No, look. I mean, what difference does it make? So, they happen to be, like, together. So what? SO WHAT? I mean, if you, like, analyze why certain people end up with certain other people, it'll make you want to kill yourself.� ~Brian �And you know this has nothing to do with the truth. Nobody is interested in the truth. All they care about is what they want to believe.� ~Brian "It's truly amazing. I have the power to be invisible." ~Danielle "My whole life, is waiting for something to happen." ~Danielle �Nobody should . . . hate who they are.� ~Katimski �Okay, see the Egyptians, they wore eyeliner to...ward off the evil spirits. They believed that if they outlined their eyes, that the good spirits would spot 'em easier. I read it in a book. So that's why I tried it. The eyeliner, I mean.� ~Rickie �Has there ever been someone, like, did you ever try to protect someone so much that it, like, hurt?� ~Angela �But maybe it shouldn't be. So simple. I mean, not that I know -- I know what I'm talking about, or anything, since I've never, you know, experienced this, or what have you. But even if I did meet the perfect person, I just think that it should be like a miracle, like seeing a comet -- or just feeling like you're seeing one. Seeing the other person's perfectness -- or something. And if you do it before you're ready, how are you going to see all that? Not that I would like know, or anything.� ~Angela "People always say you should be yourself. Like 'yourself' is this definite thing like a toaster or something. Like you can know what it is even. --But every so often, I'll have like a moment, where being myself, and my life right where I am, is like, enough." ~Angela "You are so beautiful, it hurts to look at you." ~Rayanne "It seems like, you agree to have this certain personality or something. For no reason. Just to make it easier for everyone. But when you think about it, I mean how do you know it's even you? And, I mean this whole thing with yearbook -- it's like, everybody's in this big hurry to make this book to supposedly remember what really happened. Because if you made a book of what really happened, it's be really upsetting." ~Angela "I'll always watch out for you. Okay? I'll always be there for you, so don't worry, okay?" ~Rayanne "When you're not sure you trust a person anymore, say a person you rally trusted, say your father, you start wishing they'd do something, like, really wrong, just so you can be right about them." ~Angela "Each card has a name: the Magician, the Empress, the Fool, the Wheel of Fortune, Strength. They represent challenges and tests, twists of fate. No card is all good or all bad. Cards can be positive or negative depending on where they fall. When you read someone's future, they must think of a question. They must hold it in their mind. The cards are read in sequence; each card leads to the next. We move from terror and loss, to unexpected good fortune, and out of darkness, hope is born." ~Tarot Card Directions "What I, like, dread is when people who know you in completely different ways end up in the same area. You have to develop this, like, combination you on the spot." ~Angela "Sometimes it seems like we��re all living in some kind of prison, and the crime is how much we hate ourselves. It's good to get really dressed up once in a while and admit the truth -- that when you really look closely, people are so strange and so complicated that they're actually beautiful . . . Possibly even me." ~Angela "School is a battlefield for your heart. So when Rayanne Graff told me my hair was holding me back, I had to listen. 'Cause she wasn't just talking about my hair. She was talking about my life." ~Angela "She is so innocent, that, like, she doesn't know she's innocent." ~Rayanne "Sometimes someone says something really small, and it just fits into this empty place in your heart." ~Angela "See it's this diary of her life. The Nazis were gonna kill her, so whatever she'd been like with her friends or her teachers that was over. She was hiding. But in this other way she wasn't. She, like stopped hiding. She was free." ~Angela "You know how sometimes the last sentence you said, like, echoes in your brain? And it just keeps sounding stupider? And you have to say something else just to make it stop?" ~Angela "It's weird how something has to happen sometimes to see how you actually feel about something." ~Angela "This life is a test. If it had been an actual life, you would have received actual instructions on where to go and what to do." ~Angela "There's something about my life. It's just automatically true that nothing actually happens." ~Brian "You know you like her. Would it kill you to admit it? Maybe treat her halfway decent? Because you know, she deserves it. And she's not gonna wait around for you forever." ~Rayanne to Jordan "I bet people can actually die of embarrassment. I bet it's been medically proven." ~Angela Katimsky: �My mistress's eyes are nothing like the sun/ Coral is far more red than her lips' red/ If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun/ If hair be wires, black wires grow on her head/I have seen roses damasked, red and white/ But no such roses see I in her cheeks/ And in some perfumes there is more delight/ Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks/ I love to hear her speak, yet well I know/ That music hath a far more pleasing sound/ I grant I never saw a goddess go/ My mistress when she walks treads on the ground/ And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare/ As any she belied with false compare. What kind of girl is Shakespeare describing here? Is she, is she the most beautiful girl?� Brian: �No.� Katimsky: �Is she a goddess? Physically perfect? The kind of girl who -- uh -- stops traffic? When she walks down the street?� Brian: �No.� Katimsky: �So he's -- not in love with her?� Jordan: �Yeah. He is.� Katimsky: �Well, why is that? Why is he in love with her?� Brian: �She's not just a fantasy. She's got like flaws. She's real.� "When you call someone's name, like, kind of loud, and they don't hear you, it makes you feel really lonely." ~Angela "There are so many different ways to be connected to people. here are the people you feel this unspoken connection to, even though there's not even a word for it. There's the people who have known you forever, who know you in this way that other people can't because they have seen you change. They have let you change." ~Angela "So I started hanging out with Rayanne Graff. Just for fun. Just cause it seemed like if I didn't, I would die or something. Things were getting to me. Just how people are. How they always expect you to be a certain way, even your best friend." ~Angela "Dear Angela, I know in the past I've caused you pain, and I'm sorry. And I'll always be sorry, 'til the day I die. And I hate this pen I'm holding, because I should be holding you. I hate this paper under my hand, because it isn't you. I even hate this letter, because it's not the whole truth. Because the whole truth is . . . so much more than a letter can even say. If you wanna hate me, go ahead. If you wanna burn this letter, do it. You could burn the whole world down. You could tell me to go to hell . . . I'd go, if you wanted me to. And I'd send you a letter from there. Sincerely, Jordan Catalano" ~Brian "I became a yearbook photographer because I liked the idea that I could sort of watch life without having to be a part of it. But when you're yearbook photographer, you're like, never in the picture." ~Brian "Sometimes it's like I really think I know her. And then it'll be like, like we're total strangers." ~Jordan "Everybody's an act. Including you." ~Angela "What's amazing is when you can feel your life going somewhere, l ke your life just figured out how to get good, like, that second." ~Angela "Anything causes a scar -- living causes a scar. My mother has a humongous scar from having me, does that mean that I should never have been born?" ~Rayanne "You don't know, you don't understand, not for one second. You think you understand, but you don't. You just analyze everything until it barely even exists." ~Angela to Brian "Love is when you look into someone' eyes and suddenly you're inside." ~Angela �Things were getting to me. Just how people are. How they always expect you to be a certain way. Even your best friend.� ~Angela �I couldn't stop thinking about it. The, like, fact that -- that people -- had sex. That they just had it, like sex was this thing people -- had, like a rash. Or a -- a rottweiler. Everything started to seem like, pornographic or something. Like, Mrs. Krysanowski has sex. So does Mr. Katimsky. They both have sex. They could -- have sex together. Like right now. I am, like, the sickest person.� ~Angela �The worst feeling is suddenly realizing that you don't measure up. And that, in the past, when you thought you did, you were a fool.� ~Angela "Lately, I can't even look at my mother without wanting to stab her repeatedly." ~Angela |
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