You Talking To Me?
Ha! You really are ignorant
of the truth: you seek to relate
to a person, when what you really
have before you is
Matter - untenanted by Spirit
Mind - unfrequented by Tranquility
Soul - unescorted by Joy.
~slyfox
On having Borderline Personality Disorder:
My life's a mess
it's plain to see
and more out of control
I couldn't be...
I try so hard
to help you see
that less of a Self
there couldn't be...
And here you are
forcing me
when I'm helpless -
hopeless -
can't you see?
My tears, they fall
all over me, but
"it's your own fault...,"
is your response to me
It's no day at the beach
loving me...
so I hide inside
when you're near
pushing back that
hell-bent tear
And when you take
your leave of me
only then I'm
finally free
to cry
but mostly
numbness sets in
on me
Yet when I can cry
let it be
for that is when
my soul is freed
So, please try harder
to stay with me...
...when I'm in this shit
It's a dirty job
but I hoped you could do it.
~slyfox
Hell's Invitation
Pain ....ah, that is nothing
Some of us are predisposed
You fight and survive Your way
Here, accept my invitation
Come, explore hell with me
There is no ticket seller
The entrance fee is free
The only difference
is you go home
And I am never free
It's short-term;
with a pill it sometimes goes away
Anguish...now, that's forever
All-encompassing, it's
The Guest Whose Welcome
it tends to Overstay
to continue to fight and Live
Others of us seem not,
...although we really try,
...we, too, FIGHT
Until it's Eternal Peace
into which we give.
My way, I too, fight
And When We Each Choose
Our Best Path
Who's to say who's Right?
~slyfox, Decmber 16 1999
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