I awake in a haze i cannot fathom,
Be it lies or greed or bliss
Realizing that's another day lost.

If i could supsend the cosmos i would,
For another hour, day, or week with my Love;
Because it's ending.

I'll be leaving this possibility soon
Because i can't stand the pain
And the hinted destruction.

It's been a collapse of my dreams
To hear her speak those words,
Or roll away in bed.

Suddenly it comes to me
my long insomniac nights
Are a blessing in disguise...

Laying awake as she slumbers,
When she can slumber
It's all i can do not to seize her
Wake her
Hold her close and love her
As i have never loved before...
And fear never will again.

She is my fairyland, my nirvana.
Her smile is the rainbow
From my life's thunderstorms

I regret my birth, I regret her,
I regret our meeting,
And i sing the praise of it.

One man should not bear such pain
Especially not alone.
But my freshly returned lonliness
Is the reason for the pain, afterall.
So alone i self destruct.

In her arms, the clock ticks like satan's laughter,
And i feel her dissapearing.
Running with her wind,
Until she's gone...
My tears my only comfort.
And sad company at that.