Spent mostly all weekend playing Baldur's Gate with Rich via modem...very cool game...of course now I'll spoikled though--won't be able to play it w/o him now...we just amek two awesome a team. I play a Paladin (str 18/97, int 03 hehe) he plays a multiclass mage/cleric/fighter...The amount of healing power and weight allowance between us is so great it's fucking funny.

Tracy came over for a bit sat and sun...Every time i hang out with her she seems to unload on me all her problems...i guess I should feel flattered, that she's alwasy opening up to me...but sometimes I can't help but fell she is being so trite.  She speaks sometimes about how she is so good at writing now becasue she had such a terrible life...but I really see neither evidenced.  She talks about how her father abused her a bit physically...but from what I've heard, it doesn't really seem like it was abuse really...She speaks of herself like she is this realy phenomenol writer, like groundbreaking stuff...but that's laughable.  I think she's so full of herself becasue who've never really tried to write read things and think it's good...just becasue they have no true reference point.  She wrote this poem about her 10 mile run up in DC  that is so immensely proud of being published in her company newsletter (and an article she wrote also), but i read it...it's not complete crap, but any decent poet would scoff at calling it good.  Some ppl today pump themselves just becasue they write *any* poetry, no matter how effective or good it is--Tracy is as such.  The article she wrote isn't too much to speak of either...
But I said nothing, i say nothing.  She hasn't gotten too worked up about it as of yet--at least to me, so i won;t step in and bust her down.  There is nothing wrong of being proud of something but one begins to think they are the shit becasue of it...that's a problem.  Most of my bad poetry has more merit than hers...BUT, as I've said, I say nothing.  I am no great poet myself so I am not one to be so harsh to her...I am trying to not be pompous.
A large part of her problem, I think, is that she is simply a weak person.  She does not have moral fortitude and people take advantage of that.  Then she cries that people abuse her kindness, but the reason for it is becasue she simply can't take a stand for herself.  I've tried to be diplomatic about it but she is constantly telling me the same woes over and over. It's beginning to seem a waste of my time every tiem she comes over.
And of course I feel bad even thinking this but I can't help myself when she tells me about all these "earthshattering woes" of hers like she's the only one who's ever had problems...She came into the army straight from High School, and not to be on a soapbox, but she doesn't know dick about real world problems. I am the wrong person to be crying to.

Apparently Warren is getting chaptered out of the army--he's putting in for a chapter 6 (hardship - sole parent)...which leaves me to wonder who is going to manage the supply room and armory...If it comes down to it, I may just volunteer...not like I really do anything for my MOS anyways...The more positions and opportunities I can get from the army, the more I enjoy myself/get out of it.  My dad wanted me to be sure I got life training out of the army--something I can carry over to my civilian life...I just want to do a bunch of different things I'd probably never get the chance to do in civilian life...things like combat lifesaver or tractor-trailer-semi/bus driving...

I feel weird putting a tori amos background on this page whilst "blasting"soundgarden on my tiny cpu speakers...I'll rectify that when I write a bit more substantially l8r today...

right now is just a little teaser...hafta leave for work in about twenty mikes...

oh, and btw, if I use a term you don't know and it isn't in the glossary, let me know...I have a habit of forgetting what is and isn't in there...take for example "mikes" = minutes.  "Mike" is the "M" in the phonetic military alphabet.

I should just put the whole alphabet up shouldn't I?  make a whole seperate military page altogether...showcase "all" my awards and patches and shit. Not tonight though I think...

Jumping Wednesday morning. Will be the first day light jump I've been manifested for since I've gotten here (out of a whole six manifests)  Dan had a drop friday night..one of the Sergeants burned in...his chute didn't open and for whatever reason his reserve didn't deploy...i don't know any of the details, didn't get a chance to call him back.  Shit happens--that's why we get paid hazardous duty pay for jumping...not to say I am calous about it...the man probably had a family and children, now widowed and fatherless.  The army has a bad impact on family life and the chance of death is only the greatest of them.  I feel for them all.

"I woke the same, as any other day,
Except a voice was in my head
Said seize the day, pull the trigger
Drop the blade
And watch the rolling heads..."

"The Day I tried to Live"

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