TITLE: Silent Tears
AUTHOR: Rainie
EMAIL: [email protected]
DISCLAIMER: Joss, not I.
DISTRIBUTION: Please ask first
CATEGORY: A
RATING: PG
PART: 1/1
Silent Tears
It's not like I like being lonely.
Matter of fact the demon me's never been lonely.
Or anything close to sexually frustrated or mentally starved due to lack of challenge.
It's just me, the soulful wuss, as Spike likes to put it nicely.
I couldn't even explain myself to her.
Buffy.
My love.
My soul.
I so much needed her to understand.
To actually approve of what I assumed to be best for us.
Best for her.
She didn't, of course.
Anyway, who would have?
Instead she's ticked. Ticked in the really bad seriously ticked way.
Doesn't she know, how hard this was on me? Still is? Always will be?
I might be Mr.-Cryptic-Vamp to most of the world, but shouldn't she of all people know better? I do have feelings. Like I do love Buffy.
She's my everything. My one true love.
And nothing's gonna change this.
Absolutely nothing.
One day she might be able to listen...
One day she might be able to accept...
One day she might even be able to understand...
That's what I hope for.
That's what I'm sure of.
My beautiful golden girl.
Eventually she'll grow up.
And eventually she'll understand...
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