TITLE: Second Thoughts
AUTHOR: Rainie
EMAIL: [email protected]
DISCLAIMER: Joss, not I.
DISTRIBUTION: Please ask first
CATEGORY: A
RATING: PG
PART: 1/1
Second Thoughts
I never wanted it to end.
Not like this. Not in a bad way.
It happened. Why did it happen?
Why have we become strangers?
Awkward strangers.
Awkward lovers.
Ex lovers?
Even my brat of a childe is closer to you than I am.
It hurts. It hurts so very, very much.
Tell me again, why did I go?
Was it the right decision?
Has it been worth it?
Has it been necessary?
My heart tells me no. My conscience, however…
Believe me, I never wanted it to end like this.
I always hoped for us to re… whatever.
I know its illogical.
A hope born out of desperation.
How could you forget about me so quickly?
How could you move on so easily?
I know it was me who told you to do so.
I told you to move on.
I told you to be happy.
I insisted you go and find somebody normal.
But didn't you realize I was lying?
Didn't you realize I always wanted it to be me?
Do you love him? Do you love him the way you loved me?
I hope you are - well, at least a small part of me does.
I know its my fault.
I know, I intentionally ruined the best think I ever had.
I am so sorry. So very, very sorry.
I love you. Always will.
No matter what I said.
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