TITLE: Dead-End Street
AUTHOR: Rainie
EMAIL: [email protected]
DISCLAIMER: Joss, not I.
DISTRIBUTION: Please ask first
CATEGORY: A
RATING: PG
PART: 1/1
Dead-end Street
When did it happen?
It wasn't like he hadn't been hanging around for some centuries already.
So why now? Why this all of a sudden?
Buffy...
One of the two people he truely loved.
Sometimes he wondered, what happened to her.
Did she ever live past the average slayer age?
Did she have the life he'd wanted her to have?
Angel himself surely hadn't.
He was hurting.
Still.
Even now, after years of being on his own.
Sometimes he just wished to give in.
Allow the demon to take over.
Wouldn't it be all that much easier without the soul?
But then again - wouldn't he just jump out of the fire into... never mind.
Where his soul was craving for a love unavailable, the demon wasn't less demanding for his mate. A mate far less unavailable.
Spike...
He really wondered why Angelus felt that hard for the annoying little pest.
Not that he'd ever shown any of this affection to the boy.
For one moment he tried to look at the peroxide blonde through the eyes of his demon - but all he would come up were pictures of Buffy.
His beautiful golden girl.
With a haunted groan he buried his face in his hand.
No matter how hard he tried, there was nothing he could do about the facts.
Where the demon was incapable of loving the slayer, his soul was just as incapable of loving his childe.
A vicious circle.
Or not?
Wouldn't Angelus at least have a chance...
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