Portrait of An Artist
As a Young She-Man
The sun does, through the clouds, free
A world of too many shrouds
Inside the blue whale…
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"This is how it always begins," Stephen says to himself inside the Digital Cathedral.eternumpace:
Here is where he will unravel the yarn of his own death and resurrection. "But first, " he says aloud and on the occasion of his emancipation from the rogues that have seen fit to unburden their shoulder chips and call them religions.eternumpace:
"Only the soul can heal itself." "Everything else is the wailing and piercing grief we call the loss of God" Stephen Dedalus stands erect, hurling but one golden wing of an epithet at the spired halls which are his present home in eternity...eternumpace:
But wait, the Master is in, cries the Sunset Raven.eternumpace:
And echoes thrill the man, cloaked in red and black, standing at the axis mundi.dr--evil:
here by yourself , talking to whom?eternumpace:
i decided to start my next novel :-)dr--evil:
fair enougheternumpace:
want to hear. or name some other topic if you likejagged_little_thrill:
MM alleternumpace:
i will take the red jagged little thrill, please.dr--evil:
stay in wonderlandjagged_little_thrill:
i can hold my breath and turn red if you wisheternumpace:
loljagged_little_thrill:
personally i would go for the ferget everything pill. wake up and can't remember your troublesdr--evil:
god you read my mindeternumpace:
i think they call that mescalinejagged_little_thrill:
try booz. it works just as welljagged_little_thrill:
(or is that what makes you feel your troubles even worse??? well lets try and find out)eternumpace:
sorry. what was that about staying in wonderland, dr evil?eternumpace:
omg. i wish they made a forget the fuckin angry freaks pill lmaoeternumpace:
Already forgotten, cries the Raven. Gone before its time.eternumpace:
And nevermore.eternumpace:
Stephen raises the staff of Mercury and one sapphire stem twinkles in the morning light.eternumpace:
"Once,...Twice....Three times I beseech the Heathen. Come to me, quickened by my pulse, through the path of that unholy beast which is the fate of all mankind.eternumpace:
In sickness. And in health. Make me to imbibe the sweet elixir of mine own heart..."eternumpace:
Three crashing reverbs shudder through the stained glass hall before Stephen Dedalus, child mother of the man, even realizes what he has done.eternumpace:
Summoned into dream by a waking he has never known, drums and the thick stench of poison beckon him with a thirst uncommon to the recollection of madmen, thieves, or men who murder hope.
x0x-silly-x0x:
how was everyones day?woekkie:
good and you ?o0-----bc-----0o:
longsteelsheen7:
a fine nite was had herex0x-silly-x0x:
it was good i guesssteelsheen7:
mm eterneternumpace:
mm steelx0x-silly-x0x:
mm eterneternumpace:
hiya sillyx0x-silly-x0x:
histeelsheen7:
how goes it with you eterneternumpace:
good goodx0x-silly-x0x:
mm silver and corspesilverhawk112:
greetingssilverhawk112:
hey bco0-----bc-----0o:
hugz silversilverhawk112:
how are you tonitesilverhawk112:
hugz back at yao0-----bc-----0o:
am ok............chillin after a long daysilverhawk112:
me toox0x-silly-x0x:
it was long wasn't itsilverhawk112:
been up since 6:30o0-----bc-----0o:
me tooo0-----bc-----0o:
an is now 00:25amsilverhawk112:
thats whati just gonna sayo0-----bc-----0o:
had a weee catnap earlier, felt better fer that, had me dinner an then snoozedx0x-silly-x0x:
i think i will do the same shortlyeternumpace:
is not the question: to be or not to be equal to the question: to regard or not to regard? and, if so. do we not then hold in our purview the ground of all being?silverhawk112:
so what u have up for the weekendo0-----bc-----0o:
not much, am off ta me mates house tommorow, he cookin dinner fer a few o us, apart from that, not muchx0x-silly-x0x:
work work and workx0x-silly-x0x:
thats my weekendx0x-silly-x0x:
yuk!o0-----bc-----0o:
bleho0-----bc-----0o:
glad i dunt have ta work weekendsx0x-silly-x0x:
you got that straight-blehsilverhawk112:
i have no plansx0x-silly-x0x:
come on and chat silversilverhawk112:
i have no life..........x0x-silly-x0x:
it should be busier here this weekendo0-----bc-----0o:
so when i get back from me mates place i be back herex0x-silly-x0x:
sometimes this is a good thingsilverhawk112:
i heear yaeternumpace:
there is , to quote one sager sort, a judgement to all art, akin to poetry , that being that which is known being ever propitious to that which is unknown, the dance of the Body Electric is the "tuft and applause of science" and love is just that, a science. *grinx0x-silly-x0x:
work just keeps me outta troublesilverhawk112:
i work at home now so i'm always heresilverhawk112:
i needa break from homex0x-silly-x0x:
will someone please bop the gopher...i'm too tiredo0-----bc-----0o:
loleternumpace:
therefor i hold in no sublimer regard the shadows that paint my world with the stroke of the first Artist's brusho0-----bc-----0o:
hmmm, looks like me after a hard night partyin-c0rpse:
lolsilverhawk112:
you aint right bcsilverhawk112:
lolo0-----bc-----0o:
nopeo0-----bc-----0o:
lolo0-----bc-----0o:
mm bellasilverhawk112:
mm beelasilverhawk112:
bellabelladonna1313:
greetings alleternumpace:
therefore I ascribe to joy that ignoble grief which is that loss of our Mother tongue, the world and its "sights and shapes and sounds unholy"o0-----bc-----0o:
have a few o themo0-----bc-----0o:
heyas sin, huggles lasso0-----bc-----0o:
heyas sin, huggles lasssilverhawk112:
mm inno_-innocent_sin-_:
hm hm_-innocent_sin-_:
hi all_-innocent_sin-_:
I can see.. cool stuffeternumpace:
...in stygian cave forlorn..._-innocent_sin-_:
or not.. what the heck is that? ^^belladonna1313:
love to...how?eternumpace:
necromantic songs of innocence and experience breathe in the crystalline water running down the mountain from the cave of Merlin-c0rpse:
a zombie?_-innocent_sin-_:
doesn't look gooey enough to be a zombieo0-----bc-----0o:
stick ya finger in his eye-c0rpse:
o have u seen one personaly?_-innocent_sin-_:
Oooo can I?o0-----bc-----0o:
might find him gooey theneternumpace:
one simple gesture...of a cloud...or a leaf of grass...flourishes the mind of madness in a whimper and sigh...demonic wonders in the letters of this hoary scribe *-c0rpse:
i think he just died_-innocent_sin-_:
where in the world did you get that?-c0rpse:
it was from some movie i saw along time ago_-innocent_sin-_:
tastyo0-----bc-----0o:
*is wonderin if it from resident evil*_-innocent_sin-_:
hehe. still doesn't look gooey enougho0-----bc-----0o:
i aint seen the film yet.........hence why i been wonderin
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i started a tale of two cities today...velvt.:
which two?eternumpace:
heaven and earth :-/velvt.:
BIG citieseternumpace:
but, seriously. you may like it. i'm writing in a somewhat gothic stylevelvt.:
i have to go.... but i'd like to see iteternumpace:
postmodern gothic. yeah. that sounds like a fawfublous adjectiveeternumpace:
well. go then. go be a shimmer of white light in a golden pondvelvt.:
tyvelvt.:
take careeternumpace:
you too. bye!Excite Private Messenger: velvt. has logged out. (4/19/02 at 5:59 PM)
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how are ya, mate?janiepop:
good matejaniepop:
aboout to goeternumpace:
aaah. there ya be, matee. aye aye.janiepop:
the Ferrari kid is goodjaniepop:
right on the right track noweternumpace:
ferrari kid??janiepop:
Mikeeternumpace:
aaah. yes.janiepop:
how ya beeneternumpace:
that's really great to hear.eternumpace:
i've been good.writing. having arcane visions of my purpose in lifejaniepop:
ty hun the wife is feeling a whole lot better toojaniepop:
greatjaniepop:
what is your purpose in lifeeternumpace:
i'm not sure loljaniepop:
and what does arcane mean ? loleternumpace:
its more of a gleaning than a reckoningjaniepop:
glimpsing ?janiepop:
little windoweternumpace:
arcane means mysterious or secret
janiepop:
a ha tyeternumpace:
well, yes and no. it's like i have been growing a new faculty of perception. a new sensory organjaniepop:
so what have you gleaned mysteriosoeternumpace:
like a karmic windowjaniepop:
sureeternumpace:
like even as i am living something is living meeternumpace:
that, to me, is arcanejaniepop:
mm child of the universe stuffjaniepop:
you have a right to be here deal ?eternumpace:
he he tee hee. yeah. i like that.eternumpace:
ooh. yes. i think so.janiepop:
you have a sacred contract with the Universeeternumpace:
i would agree with that for a dollahjaniepop:
read Carolyn Myss ...Sacred Contractsjaniepop:
her new booketernumpace:
she was on Oprah once.janiepop:
yepjaniepop:
she is a great guidejaniepop:
www.myss,comjaniepop:
only one problemeternumpace:
oh. theres a website. neat.janiepop:
I wanted her to 'look' more arcaneeternumpace:
how so?janiepop:
just I think the wsie hav a certain look ?eternumpace:
is her style too matter of fact. is that what you mean?janiepop:
mmmm something like thateternumpace:
ooh. i see :-)eternumpace:
she's needs a hood and a scepterjaniepop:
maybe .......thinks carefully before I say thisjaniepop:
yesjaniepop:
or at least speak in tongues from tiem to timejaniepop:
loljaniepop:
I saw an Orthodox priest oncejaniepop:
such a mysterious looking charactereternumpace:
yes. showmanship is good. i watched a movie on the glam rock scene of the 70's in britain the other day. their motto, style wins out every time.janiepop:
fascinating ...but when he spoke it killed it ...he asked for a can of cokeeternumpace:
yes. priests are into frocks and capes and such i thinkjaniepop:
they love a bit of cross dressing loleternumpace:
janie, this is beginning to sound like, ...dare I say?... a fetish loljaniepop:
dare ...sayjaniepop:
loljaniepop:
you sound in mighty good form btweternumpace:
oh. here's some news. i've had to put half a dozen folks on permanent iggy of latejaniepop:
whom ?eternumpace:
i'm doing alright. not letting thy with chip on yonder shoulder barf on me.janiepop:
good newseternumpace:
who? hmmmm i don't really recall. oh. twilight and blackwarlok are two.janiepop:
twilightjaniepop:
twilightjaniepop:
not twilight echoeseternumpace:
didn't like the way either treated those of christian faith. lil immature for my liking.janiepop:
I've met himjaniepop:
in personeternumpace:
yes. so have I. he used to seem so civil. lol. maybe i caught him on an off dayjaniepop:
he's a total deadshitjaniepop:
drug fuckedjaniepop:
excuse meeternumpace:
aaah. well, then my bat radar was working alright afteralljaniepop:
yepjaniepop:
don't ever tell himyou know mejaniepop:
please promise me thateternumpace:
no worries. we won't be chatting any time soon. that's the good thing about this excite. ignore is ignore ad infinitumjaniepop:
you can turn that offeternumpace:
well. i won't be loljaniepop:
he is a nast nasy manjaniepop:
he is a big time userjaniepop:
and he uses women big time tooeternumpace:
its so refreshing. pagan chat is the only room to go to of late and some really cool people come there, but then you have the youngins and such that are all piss and vinegar...janiepop:
sure but that piss and viengar is okjaniepop:
its the nasty boys I don;t likeeternumpace:
when i entered the other day he was amusing the clientelle with stories of his escapades/fantasies of "gang banging" please excuse.janiepop:
pendragon of britain is another foe of minejaniepop:
what I am trying to tell youeternumpace:
hmmm. yeah. pend. another squire that has two sides. one side is very knowledgable and affable. the other is rather bigotted towards monotheismjaniepop:
he's a real worryjaniepop:
I have only had two proper stouches in the roomseternumpace:
i gotcha.janiepop:
one is twilght and one is pendragonjaniepop:
the rest are monor skirmisheseternumpace:
well, no worries. i've managed to irritate both at one time or another.janiepop:
they hate meeternumpace:
twilight be a scary one, though.janiepop:
he is scaryjaniepop:
I actually met him in real lifeeternumpace:
funny. pend always seems to have a cult following.eternumpace:
yeah. you said.janiepop:
he is a narcissisteternumpace:
how 'd you come about meeting him?janiepop:
I met him in the WR roomjaniepop:
he was in Sydney at the timejaniepop:
he suggested that we meet with his g;feternumpace:
aaah. yeah. back then he seemed like a passable human witha bit of an edge.janiepop:
I bet the g'f has finally seen through himjaniepop:
he uses herjaniepop:
they moved back to the UKeternumpace:
yeah. iseem to recall him saying something like that.janiepop:
thanks be to God he moved ...200 k was way too closeeternumpace:
last time i saw him in pagan chat he was going on about "doing" his g/f and how many men she has been with blah blah blah. what also amazed me was that all i mean all the other women in the room just goaded him on.janiepop:
she was a worry as welljaniepop:
a fair bit older than himeternumpace:
i don't think a lot of chatters really catch on the the subversive immaturity of some of vp patronsjaniepop:
I gleaned that she was prepared to support him for sexjaniepop:
they were a real worryeternumpace:
well, there's a sortof sacred contract I suppose or notjaniepop:
you are quite right ...trust your radar mate ..it's working goodjaniepop:
NOTjaniepop:
NOTjaniepop:
and yea I say NOTjaniepop:
myss says at any moment we can honour our sacred contract or NOTjaniepop:
you are way too smart and wise for themjaniepop:
they hate ppl who can see through themeternumpace:
on a related note, the story i am presently pursuing, as always with the fervor and frivolity of a mountain nymph, is a tale of my own exploration of the so called positive and negative aspects of our lives and their relation to , if any, magic and incantationjaniepop:
Pen isn't in twillights leaguejaniepop:
but I don't have anything to do with either of themjaniepop:
Pen isn't debauchedjaniepop:
and drug fuckedeternumpace:
twi reminds me of what you said about the mechanists and the artists. he knows some wise knowings or two, but there seems to be some heart missing.janiepop:
he's just under exploredjaniepop:
that's actually the problem with them botheternumpace:
I read ya. I'm trying not to seem prudish, but pend says he encourages his kids to smoke marijuana with himjaniepop:
men who don't ground their smarts eventually become unstuckjaniepop:
I knowjaniepop:
mate you have to workjaniepop:
Freud said work and lovejaniepop:
that's what we needeternumpace:
yes. he did say that didn't he.eternumpace:
i did work today. i started a new story.janiepop:
Nick Cavejaniepop:
know himeternumpace:
don't know emjaniepop:
?janiepop:
he is a singer songwriterjaniepop:
he said there is only one sineternumpace:
aaah. ok.janiepop:
not living up to yourpotentialjaniepop:
we break our sacred contract thenjaniepop:
huneternumpace:
that's a good point. yet another point might be being prepared to change your expectations.janiepop:
I need to go see paulaeternumpace:
oh. right. i remember her.janiepop:
catch up again soonjaniepop:
she's nice is paulaeternumpace:
sure. thanx, mate.janiepop:
keep the radar tunedeternumpace:
yes. she seems very nice. a rare find around erejaniepop:
to the batchannel ...eternumpace:
*returns to the bat cavejaniepop:
it's right in synch with the cosmic ordereternumpace:
.oO maybe i should get a cape?janiepop:
dojaniepop:
bye xxxjaniepop:
and btweternumpace:
bye!janiepop:
ty VVVVm for your sweetness during my worriesjaniepop:
I won't forget thatjaniepop:
evereternumpace:
*hugs*janiepop:
xxxxxeternumpace:
glad i could be there a little bitty bitjaniepop:
xxxxeternumpace:
isn't your hubby going to get jealous? loljaniepop:
nopejaniepop:
loleternumpace:
that reminds me. next convo: do i nead a wify?janiepop:
sure put it on the agendajaniepop:
first itemeternumpace:
makes a check markjaniepop:
kketernumpace:
don't let the wallabees get you downeternumpace:
you are a veritable font of good tidings and perennial wisdomejaniepop:
ty cheery oneeternumpace:
you go , girlfriend. two snaps in a circle
Entering World Religion Chat Room…
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Stirring from some place neither within nor without rose a melodious cacophony of wheel on light, like silver chards of some ancient crystal cascading through a cathedral of weternumpace:
of withinness and withoutness.eternumpace:
All of a sudden the air became alive, or was already alive and has now arisen from some timeless slumber, coiling now through his ears, nostrils, neck, like only a fantasy born of archaic need only ever partially uttered (like a crescent moon frozen in a lake and hung on a wall) can do.eternumpace:
Still standing erect yet feeble, Stephen feels borne upon a ground, soft and fertile immeasurable oh my! like none other yet strangely oddly attractive to his deepest darkest memory of an ancient glen and phantoms that wave in the light mouthing, "nevermore"...."nevermore"....eternumpace:
With the twisted luminosity of train on steel, steel on backs of mortally wounded angels, Stephen Dedalus...eternumpace:
gleans a picture of a soul...
weirding_witch:
you could prolly make a tube of itdeosil:
hmmmm--0ri0n--:
im backdeosil:
wb orion--0ri0n--:
tyweirding_witch:
hiyaz eterneternumpace:
hiyaeternumpace:
the tongue is the salt o thee earth aye it is *grindeosil:
mp room seeya all latereternumpace:
there was a guy named dorsil used to come around these here parts. really smart character. heres to you dorsileternumpace:
raises one sun drenched shot of tequila and proceeds to collapse upon the schorch-ed desart oceaneternumpace:
we are growin, aye, this tree are we not, matees loleternumpace:
i can see for me self what from wrong and what real, i can see thee light, the dream too ayeeternumpace:
imagination is just as important as love, that be my contention aye aye yes siree bob's me uncle e iseternumpace:
...In Zoroastrian terms, you must go beyond Good and Evil, the intertwining serpents, to the posture of the lion-man. ...In biblical terms, the state of humankind before the Fall..." Occidental Mytholy, J. Campbell p290eternumpace:
When we lived in communion with the earth the sun the moon and all the stars and Orion sat with us at the feast.eternumpace:
The Axis Mundi of all that came before it and all that would come after, the Last Suppereternumpace:
Our faint superstitions can be recall as through a glass very darkly the apocalyptic premonitions that foreshadow the resurrection of the technology of soul in the mind light of the hearts of human kind.eternumpace:
be--> 'but'eternumpace:
"I will show you fear in a handful of dust..."eternumpace:
For the lives that live us eat when they are hungy, drink when they are thirsty and die when they bloody well like.eternumpace:
Wake up in the dawneternumpace:
Drink the blood and watereternumpace:
Say goodbye to Fathereternumpace:
Say goodbye to Mothereternumpace:
Goodbye...to the Earth and Suneternumpace:
Goodbye to each other...eternumpace:
We are waiting ineternumpace:
the stars aboveeternumpace:
To turn the blood to lighteternumpace:
To ride our serpent sunshineeternumpace:
Into the endless nighteternumpace:
We want eternal pleasureeternumpace:
IN the garden of your feareternumpace:
You sexy solar serpentseternumpace:
So it all begins right hereeternumpace:
Kiss us with your Solar Tongueeternumpace:
Of Memory and Nighteternumpace:
Kiss hell and heav'n on the lipseternumpace:
With your fucking heart of sighteternumpace:
Remember the futureeternumpace:
In waves of ecstasyeternumpace:
All our words will come to nothing buteternumpace:
The sound of fucking free...eternumpace:
All you need to see is in my bloodeternumpace:
Your bloodeternumpace:
The darkest liquid light.
TURN OVER A NEW LEAF