A Rant SessionBY: Katie Adams

december 18- christmas is so close, i cant almost taste it! yay! but you know what kinda already ruined my holidays? well, i'll tell you. my mother is under the impression that it is acceptable to get a FAKE christmas tree! seriously.....fake trees are for people who who are too old, or too lazy to go out and get a real one and clean up all the needles it drops. i dont think my family is too old or too lazy.(well.....i CAN get pritty lazy, but lets not stray too far off topic..) so anyway we go out to get our christmas tree to other day and i thought that we would just get what we always get, a real tree. i was greatly mistaken. thats right, our christmas tree arrived at my front door in a cardboard box!! (now thats what i call cardboard anger, andie!) it makes me sooo upset! its a fake tree! a plastic tree is filling up space in my living room where a real tree should have been! grr...when i grow up, im never gonna buy my family a fake tree. just watch, my mom's gonna get a big fat lump of coal in her stocking this year.

so anyway, i felt good today. i helped my best guy friend with giving a present to his girlfriend (my best friend whose a girl...ya....it can get kinda awkward.)so anyway, alex, the guy wrote a song for her and everything and it was soo cute! and so when jamie opened her locker this morning, she saw the song alex had written and a bunch of pink tulips. it was soo sweet! and i felt good that i helped. it made me wish someone would do that for me. just as a clarification, ive never had a boyfriend...ever. ive never been kissed...ever. (unless kindergarden counts, but im guessin that it doesnt). it doesnt bother me THAT much...i dont think. i cant really see myself goin out with anyone. i cant think of anyone who i know right now who i would really wanna go out with. but it would be nice to know that somebody cared about me like alex cares about jamie..

december 21- ya, so i definatly woke up at 4 this morning. i usually dont mind it so much, i mean i do it nearly every weekend, but if i dont really HAFTA get up at 4, and i do, then i get kinda cranky...ok, so i woke up at 4, got dressed, and drove to the rink (its like 45 min. away). so i got to the rink and all the lights were off and the doors were locked. i figured the crazy rink qwner just hadnt come yet to open the doors. so i waited in the parking lot in the car with my dad (who is sleeping..) for like 20 min. i finally called my mom from my dads cell phone and asked what the heck was going on. i was supposed to be on the ice practicing like 5 min ago, and the rink is still locked, set aside the fact that nobody from my team was there....it was then my mom decides to tell me that practice thismorning was at 8, not 530 like it usually is..it was all i could do to keep back the frantic screaming. so anyway, here i am still sitting in my dress at 715. ive been up for 3 hours. its a wonder i can stand up..or can i? **tries, falls over from exhaustion** eh...im never ever ever gonna let my daughter ice skate..

december 28- why are moms put on this planet? are they here to annoy, irritate, and anger? to point out whatever fault she can possibly find? or perhaps her purpose is to poke into your personal business. whatever her purpose, she does all of the above extraordinary well. my mom and i just had a huge fight. i think it was about my grades or something. i dont know. when she screams like that, i just try to zone it out. let me take this moment to point out that i am by no means a genious. but nor am i stupid. so anyway, my mom told me that i wasnt applying myself. i was going nowhere. i didnt take life seriously. i was an aimless wanderer. but is being a wanderer really all that horrible? im not sure. you know what i figured out tonight? not all who wander are aimless. ofcourse i have aims. im sure i do. i simply havnt found them yet. and how am i ever going to find them if my own mother wont let me wander?

january 3- is 2nd place really all that horrible? i mean, no, its not 1st place. but at least its better than 5th place, right? well then why am i so upset? i feel so selfish. plenty of skaters would kill for 2nd place. i think its cause i expected 1st. maybe i shouldnt expect anything anymore. i once read a book that said "if you try your absolute hardest, than you can expect the outcome to be nothing less than true happiness and satisfaction. i tried. hard. im not completely happy or satisfied. maybe i dont know what my hardest is. am i sure i tried my hardest? how do i know for sure if i did or not?does anyone really know what their hardest is? im not too sure you can ever truely reach your hardest. cause once youve reached it, doesnt your hardest become something else? maybe that doesnt make any sense....man, amanda. i REALLY wanted that perfect season. i totally expected to see our name at the top of the list. and when it wasnt there, it was like my entire body just sorta shrunk. i hate that feeling. and as horrible and selfish as this sounds, i wanted to cry. but the tears wouldnt come. maybe if i cried, i would have felt better. but i didnt cry. ugg. i still have a nast feeling in my chest. like its all tight and pushed in. god, im so mad at myself. why am i so upset? 2nd place is good, isnt it??...

january 4- i finally figured what my problem was/is with 2nd place. its like when you get a 89.99% on a test and your teacher doesnt round up. its like, well, you were pritty good, but sorry charlie, not quite good enough. its snowing now...im not really a fan of snow. i was pritty excited about the 50 degree january we were going on. snow is all fine and dandy as long as it stays white and as long as nobody walks all over it. but i hate it when it gets in your boots and it gets all brown near the side of the road and everyone walks all over it. if i were ruler of the world, if you walked on fresh snow, you'd be punished. but im not ruler of the world. and thats probly not a bad thing. cause if i were ruler of the world, i would invent "pink, sparkly, girlie day". and everyone, including the boys would have to wear something pink or sparkly. and i fi were ruler of the world, girls would get the week of her period off of school. and if i were ruler of the world, cheetos would be a major food group. so for the sake of the well being of humanity, its probly for the best that im not ruler of the world