"Self Evaluation" By Tara

Looking in the mirror,

Seeing all the pain and suffering--

Reflecting on shattered hopes, dreams &

ambitions. The future seems hopeless.

Crying tears of lost hope and faith;

Not only in myself; but in others

As well. Completely Drained....

No motivation to move foward.

Those dreams, hopes and ambitions

Have been washed away In a river of tears,

Drowning them....and myself as well.

Looking back in the mirror now--

I see heartache & sadness, it's tearing

me apart to see all of this pain within.

Reality hits hard as the sound of the

Breaking glass hits the floor---walking away,

Not looking back, The shards of glass sit there,

As a reminder of what used to be.

"Falling" By Tara

Being kept in the dark....Getting

The feeling that something is going on---

Denying it to myself all along.

The whispers swirl like an angry wind---

Tormenting myself on the inside--keeping it

A big secret....

Crumbling slowly---

Not able to pick up the pieces--

Losing it all....

Fighting against the desire to run away,

Staying there is the toughest battle

Of all...Keeping it together, is even tougher.

So childish yet so real--

Letting everything build up...

Until it Breaks.

Suffocating in the madness,

Letting it all boil to the surface..

Trying to save myself...As. I'm falling.

"Observance" By Tara

Wind whipping through the trees;

Silence takes over...The whole

Room aches with sadness.

Stopping to listen, I can hear the silent screams

Coming from the inside. Lonely all the time,

The feeling of isolation is over-powering.

Pre-Judging is over rated.

Not caring about looks or reputation,

Passing judgement is beyond thinkable.

Careful not to reveal myself, I hide more,

The silence is killing me, will we ever speak?

Searching for comfort and peace I pray.

Breathing in deeply; Clearing my

Head, I can see a vision of happiness.

I can see it so clearly, Already.