I turned 20 this year ( 30 being the new 20 ) and its wonderful.Its been mere months, and already i feel happier with my life than i have all though my actual 20s.Nothing much changed same crushes, same job, same country, more or less same social circle, same life.But the passing of my bday signified new beginnings.

I dnt have any issues with being older.i feel like i've come of age, inside, im experiencing a strange harmony of contentment and excitement.i feel braver than before, more decisive, and more determined to take charge of my life.this feeling didnt occur overnight, but just being 30 sealed the knowlegde.

And a lot of it has to do with my decision to stop flogging dead horses.to recognise futility when i see it. i feel liberated now.

We put up a lot of BS in life selfish people, unreasonable demands, mundane work, crappy circumstances, stupid system..its martyrdom that makes us continue to take it.

I've started to assess aspect of my life i've been unhappy with, and my aim this year is to know when to cut my losses on the inverterate situations and people.its admirable to embody patience, perserverance, understanding and tolerance..and its all very noble to hope for the best, to have faith in people and that god will answer prayers, to want a miracle..but all the waiting , fighting and striving for change needs to stop somewhere.life is too short for it not to.

What u can change is your attachment to the wreckage..FREE YOURSELF

Im getting there..someone broke my heart.when all i did was to love and care for him. im losing my life..i need to back up.

Its about time to be a little selfish..to forget about always doing the right thing, to sometimes disregard other expectation of me, to not to worry about convincing others to see my point of view or to understand my decision.

And thats another thing i love being 30. i find myself saying this alot...im 30 i can do whatever i want.. i dont add..and no can stop me..but i say it in my head.

There are other things on my list things that i've not done becuz of objection frm family and friends..but the thing that i dont believe others should make a big of becuz they dnt own me.,my body, my time, my heart, and mind will eventually be checked off as done. Im 30 i can do wat i want.i may not have found myself but i reckon im on the right path of getting there- one that i have chosen

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