Star Gate log #4, heh, still sounds good. God help me if Danny ever finds out I'm a trekkie. Well the verdict is in. I, Jack Oneil, am officially a fool in love. Dannyboy has me wrapped around his little finger. God I love making him happy. I love it when his whole face lights up when he smiles at me. I'd do anything for that smile. I have got the biggest grin on my face right now. My Daniel Jackson. Mine. Lover, husband, barer of my child. So many things I can call him but all equal love. He saw the stuff I did while he was gone yesterday. Anything is worth his joy. I'd do anything to make him react that way again.
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    "Jack?" Daniel opened the front door and set his keys on the table, "Jack are you home?"

    "Up here Danny Boy."

    The archeologist followed his lover's voice upstairs , "Why weren't you at work today? I. . ." He froze when he opened the guestroom door. There was Jack, standing by a huge aquarium with Daniel's fish inside! The whole room was repainted a deep green with a brown carpet and all of the old furnishings were gone, awaiting the baby bed and whatever else they'd pick out together. "Oh! Oh Jack. . ."

    "You like it Daniel? I mean we can change it if. . ."

    Daniel's mouth closed over his, effectivly shutting him up. "Don't you dare. It's perfect Jack."

    "Hmmm." He gave a dazed smile, "Oh, yeah, perfect Danny."

    Daniel blushed, "I meant the room."

    "Hi."

    The archeologist laughed and hugged Jack close, "Hi." Then he kissed him again, deep and long and full of love.

    When they pulled back for air, Daniel noticed the only piece of furniture in the room. "Jack? You bought a rocking chair?"

    The colonal blushed and nodded, "I. . . when Sarah had Charlie she was always complaining that every pregnant woman needs a rocking chair but I never had time. . ."

    "But you made time. . . for me?"

    "Of course I did Daniel! You're all that matters to me! You're more important to me than the army, the world, or even that pod child inside of you now. You're my Daniel."

    Daniel was trying not to seem too amused. "Jack. It's a baby, not a pod child."

    "It's a pod child. And you're beautiful."

    "You're beyond rational reasoning Jack."

    "Oh yeah."

    "Would a kiss help?"

    "Hell no." He grinned and caught his partner's lips, "Nope, still not rational. Try out your chair."

    "You first."

    Jack gave his lover a funny look but sat down as he was told. His confusion melted into a huge cat-who-got-the-canary smirk when Daniel sat down on his lap. "Like it?"

    "Mmm, too much cloth. Lets take care of that." He began to pull Jack's paint splattered T-shirt over his head.

    "Daniel, should we. . . I mean. . ."

    "Janet said it would be alright."

    "We're about to desecrate our baby's room."

    "Blessing it." Daniel corrected, "Nothing we have, say, or do with each other is bad or wrong. This is pure. Trust me."

    "I love you Space Monkey."

    Daniel snickered, "Call me Space Monkey again while I'm sitting on your lap, and you're sleeping on the couch."

    Jack kissed him longingly and purred in the back of his throat. "I don't think we'd both fit on the couch."

    "That's kinda the point Jack."

    "That could get kinky. Both of us out of the other's sight, hearing our name screamed while we touch ourselves. I've never spanked the monkey to an audiance before."

    "Spanked the. . . Jack, please tell me you weren't thinking about 'that' when you nicnamed me 'space monkey'."

    "Would that be a bad thing?"

    "Jack!"

    "Don't worry Space Monkey, I still love you."

    "I love you too." Daniel sighed in soft pain, "That's why this will hurt me more than it hurts you. To the couch."

    "What?!"

    "You called me space monkey again."

    "But. . ."

    "I'm on your lap."

    "But Danny. . ."

    "I can't go back on my word."

    "I didn't. . ."

    "I think we can both fit."
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    We did. Both fit I mean. Damn! Daniel can bend like. . . sorry. Anyway, now whenever I call him Space Monkey at base he gets the most adorable blush! Hammond's given up on guessing why, thank God!

    We try to act like we always have when we're on the job and at base. It isn't soooo hard since we were always together and usually touching in some 'bestest buddy' kind of way even before we were together. Still there have been a few close calls. Thank the Gods for Sam and Teal'c, they keep us in line. And stand guard when we slide.
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    "Daniel do you have those. . . Oh!"

    Jack looked up from where he was feeding Danny bites of food as the other man worked. His other hand was in a very, incriminating spot between Daniel's legs.

    The youngest man looked up and gasped, "Sam!"

    "Ah. . . I see you're . . . um. . . busy? You . . . um. . . door. . . lock. . . good?"

    "Sam. . . go. . . play." Jack mimicked her pausing voice and went right back to what he was doing.

    "Daniel!"

    He blushed, "Um. . . sorry Sam. We. . . we didn't leave base last night so Jack's kind of. . . ah. . . tense?"

    "Carter. Out!"

    "Sir yes sir!" She rushed back through the door and stood outside it as casually as possible.

    "SamanthaCarter?" Teal'c blinked at her in confusion, "What are you doing outside of DanielJackson's office area?"

    "I. . . that is. . . Jack is. . . um. . ."

    "I see." The large man walked strait inside, picked Jack up by the collar, and carried him into Daniel's private bathroom. A moment later a scream broke Sam and Daniel's shock and colonal ONeil stormed out after Teal'c, sopping wet.

    "Damn Jaffa!"

    "I have heard that cold showers aid in such frustrations."

    Jack was growling. Shit! Jack was growling at them. "Sir, we should be leaving now I. . . RUN!"

    "CARTER! TEAL'C! YOU'LL GET YOURS!!!"

    Daniel smiled and ducked his head. "You were asking for it Jack."

    "Well I can't help it sometimes Danny."

    "What about your fabled military control?"

    Jack was saved from answering that when the phone rang. Daniel picked it up with a 'look', "Hello, Daniel Jackson's office." He suddenly sat straiter, "Yes. Yes we're coming."

    When he hung up Jack nodded, "Briefing?"

    "They found a new planet. It looks promising."

    "Lets go then." Jack snatched Danny to him and caught his lips breifly, "Kiss for luck?"

    "Hmm."

    If Hammond thought Daniel was extra out of it when they arrived, he didn't press it. It could have had something to do with way the colonal was dripping water all over the briefing room.
 
 

    Shit! I can't beleive this!
    . . . oh yeah,
    Star gate fucking log #5!

    Danny thinks I'm going to let him do this he has another fucking thing coming! A couple aztec temples with Latin writing on them and he thinks he's gonna jump through the gate with my kid in him?!

    Everybody says 'calm down' and 'it'll be ok' and think it'll work?!! That's my baby in there! And no one is 100% sure the gate ride wont hurt the pod or Daniel, no way I'm letting him risk it. I could even live without the pod, I'd be sad but I'd live. But the gate literally takes you apart! What if it puts Daniel back together wrong because of the unexpected bagage? What if he died?

    The pod isn't real to me yet; the nursery and the rocking chair, the fucking 'fish' tank for crying out loud! It's all for Danny. If I lost Danny I'd give up on living. I don't want to live in a world without a Daniel Jackson.

    So he fucking well is NOT going on this mission!
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    "I am Fucking well going on this mission!"

    Sam's eyes widened as she watched the two men fighting. Daniel was swearing, never good, the occasional shit and damn maybe but the F word was heavy swearing and Daniel never used it unless he was seeing all shades of red.

    "You sure as HELL are not!"

    //Oh boy. Jack too. Less rare than Daniel but wow. The honeymoon ended fast!//

    "Samantha Carter, what is going on?"

    "Daniel wants to go through the gate. Jack doesn't want him too. And Daniel is swearing."

    Teal'c nodded and turned to his two friends, "This is unfortunate."

    "You don't know what that thing will do to you or the pod!"

    "Stop calling it a pod child!"

    "Well it damn well is one!"

    "I'm going home!"

    "Good!"

    "My home Jack. My apartment. My baby. My life. Go through your fucking gate without me, you'll never see me again!"

    Jack's eyes widened and his mouth opened and closed as he tried to respond to that.

    Daniel stormed out of the room and slammed the door.

    "He. . ."

    "Jack?"

    "ONeil."

    Sam and Teal'c both watched as all of the strength seeped from Jack and he collapse against the wall of the conference room. "I didn't want to lose him. So I lost him."

    "Sir you need to go after him! He didn't mean it."

    "Danny never says anything he doesn't mean."

    Teal'c actually snorted at that and both of the officers stared at him. "Daniel Jackson is very skilled at hiding ONeil. As are you. If you continue this you will lose him and it will be all upon your shoulders."

    "But he. . ."

    "He's hormonal." Sam smiled, "And he's Daniel. You know what a planet like this means to him. It's like Christmas! And you just told him he couldn't celebrate it with you."

    "Hormonal."

    "Pregnant sir. Pregnant people are often hormonal."

    "And Daniel. . ."

    "Is very pregnant and probably crying his eyes out in his office."  A smashing sound echoed through the halls as she opened the door and Sam winced. "Or tearing it down."

    "Danny!" Jack was gone before the echo died down.

    "They are both Alpha males despite doctor Jackson's kindness." Teal'c observed.

    Sam grinned, "At least things will never be dull."
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    Did Sam say Danny might be tearing his office down? No he wasn't tearing it down. He was laying waste to it! his books, his artifacts, nothing was safe. That ugly red pot he almost castrated me for tossing around once or twice was shattered along with almost all of his treasures. //Oh Daniel, you're going to hate yourself when you calm down.//

    Only years in combate allowed me to catch the next couple jars and ritual do-dads that he threw. I have never seen him so upset before. Probably beating himself up for our fight just like I was. My archeologist has always had such a soft heart. Being me, sometimes I forget how easy it is to bruise.

    I couldn't let him hurt himself anymore than he had. I ducked under the flying hard covers and pottery and snatched him into a hard hug.

    And my sweet archeologist with his bruisable heart and no doubt guilty concious gave me a black eye!!!
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    "OW! SHIT! DANNY!"

    "Let go."

    "No! Shit how'd you learn to punch so hard?!"

    "You taught me, against my will, if you would recall."

    "I didn't think you'd use it on me!"

    "Carpe Diem Jack."

    "Yeah well you picked a great time to seize the day." He groused but still held fast, "I'm trying to appologise here!"

    Daniel stopped struggling and sat on the edge of his desk, still in Jack's impromptue embrace. "Oh."

    "Yeah." He rubbed his eye and growled, "You really pack a punch."

    "So?"

    "Huh?"

    "Appologise."

    "Danny. . ."

    "You were an ass jack."

    "Well yeah! You knew I was an ass when we started this.  . . But I know how much this kind of jump means to you. I just. . . It isn't worth isking your life Danny I love you ok? I couldn't take it if you left me."
 
    "I don't want to leave."

    "Then don't."

    "But you have to accept that I'm a full grown man who can make his own decisions." Those wonderful eyes flashed and Jack felt his knees go week. //God Danny, As if I could ever forget.//

    The colonal nodded and took his lover's hand, "If you can accept that those decisions don't only affect you anymore."

    That made him freeze. "I. . ."

    "You aren't alone anymore. You have a husband and a baby on the way. Hell, we have fish! What would your fish do if you went away."

    That was all he could take. It started as giggles and escalated to full fledged laughter. Soon Jack had his arms full of grinning, wiggling Daniel. "Husband?"

    "Yeah?"

    "Jack did you just propose to me?"

    He thought a moment then grinned, "Yeah I guess I did."

    Blue eyes looked away a moment and white teeth teased a full lower lip. "you'll tape the site for me wont you? And bring back anything that looks important?"

    "Carter will know more than me, but I'll try." He paused, "Hey! What about marrying me?!"

    "I'll think about it."

    "WHAT?!"

    Daniel nodded cooly, "I need to go over all my options."

    "OPTIONS?!"

    "Of course." He nodded and walked out.

    Jack sat in the wreck of pottery and books for what seemed like hours before belting out, "CARTERRRRRRRR!"

    Sam smiled at Teal'c and checked her watch. "He lasted longer than I thought."

    "The colonal is a brave man." The Jaffa nodded solomnly.

    Sam shivered, "But Danny can be scarey sometimes."

    "Indeed."

~tbc~