One Mess After Another
part 6
Heero sat by Duo's bedside, his eyes never left the boy child
who lay there asleep. The sound of
the beeping monitors and the smell of sterileness surrounded him. He
almost choked on the feeling
of death. This was not where Duo should be. Duo should be with
him, out by the ocean or under
the stars or sun. "Duo. My Duo." He kissed the pale forehead and found
his eyes wet with tears.
<<A soldier never cries! Get over it, this is war, it would have happened sooner or later!>>
<But why Duo? Why not me?>
<<Why not Duo?>>
<Because I love him! You love him! He completes us.>
<<That is sentimental garbage.>>
<You are just afraid of being hurt.>
<<Well, it is better that way. No distractions.>>
<Like his death wouldn't be distracting?!>
<<Shut up.>>
<You can't make me, I love him!>
<<Damn it so do I but the war has to be fought by someone.>>
Heero glanced down at Duo and ran a shaking hand through his bangs,
"Don't leave me Duo. I
love you. Don't leave me."
Duo felt the room get suddenly colder, he was dying, he knew it.
Shinigami was dying. He prayed
for the first time in years, for the first time since the church had
been burned. . .
<I only want to say
If there is a way
Take this cup away from me
For I don't want to taste its poison.
Feel it burn me,>
He thought about Heero, he could feel his hand holding tight to his lover's, but he couldn't respond to the touch. He was getting numb, slowly, he was dying. Soon he would meet Shinigami face to face.
He saw in the space behind his eye lids, a dark cloaked figure coming toward him. Shinigami?
No Duo. It is not your name sake.
God?
<I have changed>
I know Duo.
<I'm not as sure
as when we started
Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired.>
It is ok, my son. Do not be ashamed of such things. Come now, it's time to say goodbye.
But. . .
No argument Duo. Come.
<Listen surely
I've exceeded expectations
Tried for three years
Feels like thirty>
I know it has been hard, but it's over now. You did well.
<Could you ask as much from any other man?>
No, You have been special Duo. You still are.
Then why are you making me go?!
It is time.
I can't leave Heero!
Duo. . .
<But if I die
See the saga go through and do the things you ask of me
Let them hate me hit me nail me to their tree>
Duo you are being dramatic.
<I wanna know I'd wanna know my God
I wanna know I'd wanna know my God
I'd wanna see I'd wanna see my God
I'd wanna see I'd wanna see my God>
Duo, this is necessary.
<Why I should die
would I be more noticed than I ever was before?
Would the things I've said and done matter any more?>
You are making this very hard.
Good!
Duo. . .
<I'd have to know I have to know my lord
I'd have to know I have to know my lord
I'd have to see I'd have to see my lord
I'd have to see I'd have to see my lord>
I should have made you mute.
**Tphbbbbbb ^_^**
Duo. . .
<Can you show me now that I would not be killed in vain?
Show me just a little of your omnipresent brain.>
I can't do that Duo
<Show me there's a reason for your wanting me to die
You're far too keen on where and how and not so hot on why!>
Duo stop.
<Al - right I'll die!
Just watch me die!
See how I die!
See how I die!>
Hush now and take my hand my son.
<Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired
After all I've tried for three years,
Feels like ninety>
I know, I know, come now, away from the pain
No!
Please.
<Why then am I scared to finish
what I started
What you started
I didn't start it>
Now Duo. We haven't got all day.
<God thy will is hard,
but you hold every card>
Don't sound so betrayed Duo, You knew it would happen one day.
But not now! Not so soon!
I am sorry Duo.
<I will drink your cup of poison!
Nail me to your cross and break me
bleed me beat me
kill me take me
now
before I change my mind-------->
Come then Duo. God took his hand and pulled him toward the light.
Heero! Duo cried.
He can't hear you.
I can't leave him! I promised him! I promised!!! Heero! Heero!
You promised. . .
The sounds in the room suddenly changed and Heero's eyes shot to the heart monitor, nothing! "Duo! No! Duo!" He ran into the hall, "Somebody help me here! He's flat-line!"
The doctors came rushing in and prepped the paddles, "Clear!"
Duo's body jumped but nothing changed on the monitor.
He shook his head and tried again, "Clear!"
Nothing.
"Clear!"
Nothing.
The doctor looked up at the clock, "time of death 9:15."
"No!" Heero grabbed his shirt, "Do it again! Do something!"
"There is nothing we can do son, he's gone."
"No! Duo!" Heero snatched the sheet back from Duo's face and hugged
the boy close. "You can't
go! You can't die! You promised me remember?!?! You run, you hide,
but you never lie! Don't go!
You promised!"
"Sir. . . you have to leave."
"Stay away!" Heero screamed, "You can't take him from me! He can't
be gone! Damn it he
promised!"
The doctor tried to be soothing, "Some promises aren't meant to
be kept."
"This one was! This one was! Shinigami never lies! Death can't die! He can't die!"
"Heero?" Relena ran inside, "Heero what. . .?"
"Stay back! They can't take Duo away!"
She frowned, "Heero he's gone."
"No!"
"Heero. . ."
"You never liked him! You always ignored him! Why are you even here Relena?! Go home!"
WuFei, Trowa, and Quatre rushed to their team mates side and two
held him while the third gave
him a shot of a tranquilizer. Heero collapsed into WuFei's arms and
sobbed, something no one had
ever saw him do before except for Duo. "D. . . Duo." He sobbed before
the darkness took him.
They all looked at each other as the hauled Heero out into hall
and frowned, they had never seen
Heero so out of control. He was always the perfect soldier first but
just now he bad completely
broken down.
"What will we do when he wakes up?" Quatre asked.
"I don't know." Trowa had to say.
WuFei nodded, "He's too strong for us to restrain him."
The war isn't over, he wont do anything to himself until he has
seen it through to the end will he? I
mean, he is the perfect soldier, right?"
"I hope you're right Quatre."
~tbc~