C&C, C&C, please write C&C for me.

<Part 1>
 

    Daniel Jackson. The name has more meaning to me now than ever. Daniel, the center of my world and being. Hell. did you even think Jack O'neill would be waxing poetic? 'I' never thought I'd fall for the archeologist. A 'male' Archeologist. A male archeologist who can't shut up, smiles at strangers, usually ends up targeted by said strangers, would spend his life happily digging in the dirt, can't hold his beer to save his life and gets the cutest scrunched up look when the fizz tickles his nose, and his eyes light up so they practically glow when he's telling you about one dead thing or another and his voice so soft when he's shy and that look of total devotion and concentration when we. . . , ok you get the idea.

    It took one look to tell Dannyboy was a fox and that first mission through the 'Gate to know that he was caring and brave, selfless and sweet. After that it wasn't a huge jump to wanting and from there it was only a matter of time.

    Believe it or not, it was me who said it first. Sure I never realised what those three words would bring to me, but I've never, 'ever' regretted it. Not once. So when the General Suggested we all should keep a journal after the latest 'Dan'astrophy' (Yes I have a special name for Danny's frequent disasters), I decided to write about the beginning, (and probably the end) of my existance. My lover, God I love that word, my Dannyboy first. Yes, MY Daniel. And this latest mission too, just because during this latest mission, Me and Daniel became. . . well, let me start from the beginning. It'll read smoother that way.
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    Daniel Jackson stumbled into the briefing room once again, glasses falling off of his nose and charts and whatnot piled up to his ears. The other members of SG1 were very used to it by now and all rose to help him before. . . CRASH!!!. . . too late. He stood sheepishly among the clutter he'd made and smiled, "Um. . . Hi."

    "Goodmorning Doctor Jackson." General Hammond smiled and gestured to the coffee mug at his usual seat.

    "Oh, thanks!" He began picking everything up, "I. . . ah. . . I have all of the data for the . . . ah. . ."

    "PX198-765?" Carter offered.

    "Yeah." Daniel nodded. "The markings on the wall here in the MALP picture. . ." He spread out some of the rolls of paper and pointed to what he was talking about, "They're a welcome sign."

    "You think DanielJackson," Teal'c observed, "That the people of this planet welcome people from the StarGate."

    "Yes. I think we really should check this place out, I mean if they welcome people from the gate then they must know how to keep the Goul'd contained. There's no mention or any Gods in any of the pictures just. . ."

    Jack sat back with his usual nonchalance and shrugged, "Just what?"

    "There's a lot of mention of Mothers and life."

   "Great, jus what I need, A planet full of Mothers."

    "Jack, mother could mean anything. It could be their God."

    "Even better."

    "Colonal O'Neill."

    "So are we gonna 'Gate or what?"

    Hammond nodded, "Daniel has a point. Any planet that doesn't fear the gate must have some information we can use against the Goul'd you'll leave in two days. 0900 hours. Dismissed."

    Jack caught Daniel before he could return to his rocks and grinned, "Great job Danny, we'll be on Earth for the Hockey play offs!"

    "Jack. . ."

    "Come on Space Monkey, it's a tradition. Best friends watch the playoffs together."

    Daniel gave Jack a trapped glance but finally nodded, "Alright. I'll be there."

    "I'll get the beer, you bring the corn nuts." Jack's grin couldn't have gotten any wider.

    "Regular, Ranch, or BarBQ?"

    "BarBQ! Gotta have BarBQ with hockey!"

    "I don't watch Hockey."

    Jack had been waiting to use this line on Daniel since he first found out about his total lack of interest in sports while Danny was shacking up with him those first months. "Think of this as a study of American Pop culture in action."

    "You've been sitting on that one a while haven't you."

    //Damn! Dannyboy knows me too well!// "Well Space Monkey?"

    "Alright."

    "Really? Just like that?!"

    "You owe me Jack."

    "Sure Sure, I'll save your life next time you're in trouble." He quickly left but not before Daniel huffed, "You'd do that anyway!" Oh yeah. Beer, Cornnuts, Hockey, and A doctor with a really cute butt. Life was good. Course if Danny caught him staring at said cute butt he'd probably die of shock but come on! Jack was military but he wasn't dead!
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    One thing about Daniel you can always count on is his being on time for anything that 'doesn't' have to do with work. He was at my house at exactly five minuets to game. We went through our gamely ritual of arguing over the remote and pouring all the cornnuts onto the coffee table, (For easy access) and Daniel struggling with his beer cap until finally handing it to me. I never say a word, just open it and hand it back. Amazing with all those PHDs and he can't open a bottle of brew, but it's just one more quirk to love about him. Ok getting off subject again.

    Anyway, game was boring. The final game of the year has no right being 'that' dull. No sudden death, no huge fight, no eath shaking close scores. My team was in the lead by ten points at the end of the first half. So as is my habit, I switched to Daniel watching. He looked like he was actually enjoying it! So happens he was watching the audience reactions, not the game. That's Danny for ya.

So anyway, I watched him watch the crowd and got that same achy, empty feeling that I always get when I watch him for a while. Like a piece of me is gone unless I'm with him. You know what I mean? Course you don't, your a journal. It feels like I have this overwhelming need to hold him. I be complete through him. I dreamed of doing just that. Well not 'just' that, but you know what I mean.
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    Jack stretched and yawned, laying lengthwise on the couch until his arms were over Daniel's lap and his head rested on his thigh. This was as close as he'd ever dared to get.

    "Jack?" Daniel looked concerned, "Are you tired? You really should be sleeping! You haven't been gettign enough rest."

    "Yes mom."

    "I'm serious Jack. That could slow your reaction time and get you killed."

    "I've been living like this for decades."

    "My point exactly."

    Jack rolled his eyes and got comfy. Next thing he knew, he felt himself being lifted like a baby in familiar arms and lay there with his eyes closed while Daniel struggled up the steps trying not to wake him and to keep his weight up at the same time. He must have dozed off. The colonal should have told Danny he was awake and sparred him the trouble, but he couldn't bring himself to leave that embrace. He grossly abused Daniel's kindness as a way to snuggle closer. He couldn't be held accountable for what he did in his sleep. Right?

    For a few brief moments he felt like all was right with the world. Then he was dropped into his bed. Daniel had tripped over the carpet. Jack had to smile. That was the Space Monkey alright. He currled up onto his side and relaxed, hoping Danny wouldn't see the grin.

    The Archeologist slipped the sheet and comforter over Jack's shoulders and tucked him in warmly. The soldier found himself waiting for a goodnight kiss. Still it shocked the Hell out of him when warm lips touched his forhead. Danny smiled, Jack could feel the lips turn up against his skin. Then the civilian shocked him again! He whispered, "Always wanted to do that."

    Jack was out of his mind. That had to be it! What else would explain? Hm? Nothing! Daniel could 'not' want him! He was close to ten years older than the other man! He was rude and impatient and dumb as dirt compared to Daniel and. . . and being kissed goodnight by the man of his dreams. He tilted his head to press more against those soft lips before they pulled away and smiled softly. "Danny."

    The gasp broke his fantasy. Dream Daniels didn't gasp in shock. In bliss maybe but not in shock. Shit. Not a dream then. Not a hallucination. He'd been kissed by Daniel and he wanted to feel it again. When he opened his eyes though, Danny was gone.
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    So mission time comes around and I think 'great, perfect chance to see if Danny could like me like that. I mean, big planet, old ruins, plenty of places to snag some alone time right? Heh, wrong. O'Neill luck strikes again. The planet is not only inhabited but it's inhabited by thousands of beautiful women and men. There goes my chance.

    So I resigned myself to watching Daniel get fawned over. On every inhabited planet, Daniel gets groped, or kissed, or fucked or married. Daniel is just the ideal guy to these girls. Calm but playful, curious and considerate, interested and interesting, and no one could ignore that body, hair, legs, those eyes. . . shit. I was nothing compared to what he could have. What he deserved.

    He's looking at me now. From across the conference table where he's writing his own journal entry. After this first one we can write them at home but General Hammond wants to make sure we write them so he's pushing the start. No good pushing Danie; though, no need either. He writes a journal every night. Another wonderful quirk I've been noticing since we got together. Once I teased him about writing after we'd made love. I asked if he was writing down dirty little fantasies. He gave me that scholar/lover look and smiled, 'nothing we do is dirty Jack.' God he makes me into a puddle of sap with lines like that. Anyway, the next day I found a very creative little story taped to the fridge. Daniels description of sex with me. Damn! Linguists sure know how to write to make you hot! Didn't even give him time to take off his coat before I jumped him. . . anyway.
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    Jack looked around the planet with a superior, horny, and fake smile. Sam was already taking mineral samples. Teal'c was scaning the group and gate for weaponry or other technology. Daniel was. . . shit! "Daniel!"

    He looked up at Jack and smiled a huge grin, "They speak a dialect of Arabian. This culture is amazing Jack!"

    "Sure, amazing, whatever, What is the guy doing feeling you up?!"

    Daniel blushed, "I think he's sizing up the competition." At Jack's dark look he continued, "Not that I'm competition or anything."

    "Looked like he was doing a little more than that."

    The blush darkened and Daniel turned as the natives addressed him again. One woman smiled and handed him a chubby baby boy. The architect cuddled the child and spoke softly to it as he touched each little finger. "Jack! Isn't he beautiful?"

    Jack closed his eyes at the awed sound. //Great, Daniel wants kids. There goes my last chance. But hey, he'd be a great father. His kids'll be bright and curious and cute as he is.//

    "Jack?"

    "What?"

    "They said they have three guest rooms that we can use. I guess they want Teal'c in one, Carter in one, and you and me in the last."

    "Why that arrangment?"

    "Well Carter obviously needs a private place and Teal'c amazes them, so they wanted to see how he acts alone as well as with us."

    "They're studying us?"

    "Yes, That's why I said ths culture is amazing! They learn from the stargate. Gather information from travelers through it and then use the knowledge to learn more."

    "Buncha brainiacs huh? Guess they love you."

    "Actually, they seem to think I should have children." Daniel blushed, "They say I have a lot of good attributes for a child to gain."

    Jack felt ill. Teal'c came to his rescue.

    "It is true, DanielJackson. You are a  unique man who would be a very satisfactory father."

    Carter nodded, "Yeah, you love kids."

    "Let's go settle in." Jack ordered, saving Daniel from answering that comment. "Looks like we'll be here a while."

    Daniel smiled and moved to pick up his pack but three men all gathered around it and fought for the right to carry it. Jack almost cursed at the look of wonder on the civilian's face. Hadn't anyone told him how wonderful he was?

    Their room was almost completely dominated by the huge bed. No other furniture was present except for the sink, shower, and latrine in the corner. The latrine was curtained off, the shower wasn't. //Good thing Carter got her own room.// He thoughtdistracyedly while he tried to ignore the fact that Daniel would be using that shower, in 'their' room, in plain sight. . . //I'm not going to survive this mission. Daniel's gonna kill me.//

    "Jack? You ok?"

    "Oh, yeah, great. I feel like a bug under a microscope here but yeah, I'm fine."

    Daniel smiled at his distraction tactics, not that they ever worked on the archeologist, but he had to make the effort. "You have your 'Daniel's gonna kill me' look on your face."

    //Shit! He knows the look!// "I have a 'Daniel's gonna kill me' look?"

    "You use it all the time. What did you do? Forget to request my sample case for this mission? Give me the wrong bag? Break something? Annoy someone?"

    Jack tried to look offended but it was really hard with Daniel grinning like that. "Nope. Haven't cause the apocoplypse yet."

    Daniel replied off handedly and walked toward the shower section, "Don't worry, the night is young."

    Jack's mouth opened and shut and opened again before any sound came out, "Did you just dis me?"

    "You don't know?"

    Daniel's grin was growing. Oh yeah. Jack'd been dissed. "You did! I'm so proud of you!" Jack pulled Daniel into a playful hug and tickled his sides.

    "Ah! Jack! No!!! I'm too. . . ahahaha. . . I'm too ticklish. . . hehehe. Stop that!"

    Jack noticed two things at the same time. One, Daniel was wriggling dangerously close to his raising cock and two, he was stripped down to his boxers since he'd been getting ready to shower. Jack froze, not knowing what to do. He wanted to keep holdinng Danny, knew he should let go, and knew if he did let go he'd need a reason. "I'm going to unpack, take a shower, you're so dusty you're gonna make me snease."

    "I've got medications for that."

    "Smart ass."

    "Thank you."

    Jack gave up. One thing about arguing with a linguist, you can't win. He moved to open the packs and hide his hard on. When the water started he despiritly fought not to look. When Daniel moaned in contentment he lost the fight. Looking over the side of the bed from his place on the floor, Jack felt his whole body jump at the site of a wet and naked Daniel jackson running soapy hands over his body.

    "Daniel." Jack whispered and undid his fly, slipping his hand down to stroke himself. He had to get rid of that ragging hard on before Danny put his glasses back on or he'd be busted and he'd lose Danny for good. He kept his eyes glued to Daniel while he washed and the colonal stroked himself harder.

    "Jack? Are you still in here?" Daniel asked.

    Jack couldn't answer, he was too hot. Strung too tight. Daniel would hear his need.

    When he didn't answer, Daniel must have decided he'd left because he took his own cock into his palm. Jack noticed how hard it was and his breath caught. God Danny was beautiful! He gasped silently as he came and cleaned up quietly while Daniel brought himself off with a hoarse cry. The name caught in his throat but it sounded a lot like 'Jack'.
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    I was so hopeful. I've never wished for anything more than for Danny to have meant me. I pretended to come back inside and Daniel had this full body blush going when he noticed the seman was still on the shower wall. I didn't say anything. I was still in hopeful shock. It's an interesting state. Really is. Anyway before either of us could say anything someone knocked and told us dinner was almost done. I took a quick wash and we both left the room. I didn't have any idea what was in store for me. Neither did Danny. But I can tell you one thing, neither of us have any regrets except that we didn't confess sooner.

<Part 2>
 

    Journal Entry 2, here it goes. Should I be starting with 'Dear diary' or something? Stardate log number 2? Anyway. Me an' Danny are both stretched out on the bed writing our now nightly journal entry. Have you ever noticed how intimate just sharing a bed can be? You know, just stretching out and reading together or writing like we are now. You're completely relaxed and at ease and you know your partner is too. Just a calm, silent moment. I never appreciated stuff like that until Danny came into my life. Into my work. Into my home. Into my ass. . . oops. I'm rambling again I know, Danny does that to me.

    He's smiling at me now. My face must have shown something. I smile back. God I want to tumble him onto his back and make something worth writing about happen. Right now. Can't though. This is important to Danny and it's part of my job too. No nookie until he puts down the bookie. Ok, that's enough.

    So where did I leave off? Oh yeah! Dinner. Ok. Dinner was disgusting! Of course Danny chowed down and made it look delicious. Never could fool me though. He was trying not to spit it out. I picked at something that kinda resembled chicken. It wasn't bad actually, till they told us what it was.
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    "WOMB?!"

    Daniel nodded, looking slightly green, "All of the dishes they're serving seem to have a common theme."

    "Making us yack?"

    Daniel frowned, "Birth. We've been served buttered vaginal lips, a certain animal fetus, umbilical cord, placenta, and womb."

    Sam slowly pushed her plate away, "I. . . I think I'm full."

    Teal'c kept eating as if nothing was odd about it.

    Jack was trying not the watch Danny eat it out of curtosey and pushed his own plate away. "Yeah, I'm full."

    Daniel grinned and Jack coughed slightly.
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    Yep. I shit you not. They were actually 'eating' that stuff! And that's nothing compared to what Danny eats on missions. It's like an anitiation ritual or something. Daniel Jackson must eat the local food to feel accepted. I just hope he never tries that with me. If he doesn't like something he says so, but Danny is so giving I'm always afraid I'll push the line too far without even realizing that there is one!

    Well Dinner went quickly after that. They acted all excited, like something was going to happen next. Why is it that I always catch these things but never in time to stop them?
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    When the meal was finished, They were taken to a large room full of mirrors and glass walls. Daniel was eagerly absorbing the translucent paintings on each sheet of glass and explaining them to Jack and Sam as they walked. A group of robbed men walked toward Daniel and scooped him up, struggling,  onto a glass table.  Once on the table he froze. It was paper thin and one tiny tremor would sent him plummeting onto the razor shards.

    "Daniel!"

    Jack, Sam and Teal'c were all held back as the aliens closed in around their friend. Only the fact that Daniel wasn't crying out kept them from opening fire on their hosts.

    "Daniel!"

    "It's ok Jack." A shakey voice answered.

    "What are they doing?"

    "T. . . touching me." Daniel sounded terrified, "They. . . They're putting their hands up my. . . Ouch!"

    Jack surged forward and knocked one of the guards on his ass just as the robed beings parted and set Danny down again.

    The archeologist was wide eyed and shaking. Naked and crying quietly.

    "Danny." Jack picked him up and turned angrily to the other two team members. "Pack up. We're leaving."

    Sam shook her head, "The air is unbreathable at night. We'll have to wait until morning."

    "Damn it Sam they just. . ."

    "I heard it too sir, but there is nothing we can do."

    Daniel nodded, "She's right."

    "Danny. . ."

    "I'm ok." He said bravely.

    Jack just stared.

    "Jack, really. I'm ok."

    "You aren't ok. You just got raped Space Monkey!"

    "N. . . no! They didn't . . . I mean. . . It was just they're hands! Like a. . . a physical or something."

    "Yeah, something."

    "I'm really ok."

    "Carter, you and Teal'c be ready to leave the village by tomorrow. We'll send a team to study the gate and see what they've done to block Goauld, but I want Danny in the infermary soon as we can get him there."

    "Sir." Sam saluted and hurried away with Teal'c. She knew the colonal was more than a little in love with their archeologist and she didn't want to be anywere near the protective man after what just happened.

    Unaware of his 2IC's thoughts, Jack carried Daniel back to their room and lay him down carefully on the bed. "Dannyboy?"

    "I'm ok Jack, they just caught me off guard. We shouldn't leave right away, it could have been an act of good will."

    "Danny I think it's universal that sticking your fingers in someones ass whithout their permission is a bad thing."

    "Maybe not. With all of this focus on mothers they may have a good reason. A lot of their culture revolves around the. . . lower anatomy."

    "What if they try to do it again?"

    "I don't think they will, now that they've seen we react unfavorably to it."

    "How can you be so calm?!"

    "Why are you so upset?"

    "Because I don't want anyone to touch you except ME!" Jack froze when the words escaped his lips and stared at Daniel who was staring right back. "I. . . Danny I didn't. . ."

    "How?"

    "What?"

    "How do you want to touch me?"

    Jack couldn't breath. All around him all he knew was Danny. Danny was laying in front of him. Naked in the bed they were sharing, and asking him how he wanted to touch? The colonal pinched himself lightly and Daniel bit his lip.

    "I shouldn't have asked you that I'm . . ."

    "Like a lover." Jack rushed. He couldn't take it if Daniel apologised. He didn't want an apology. He wanted Danny. "If that makes you uncomfortable, I'll never say it again. I'll act just like always and we can forget this happened at all.

    "Don't you dare." Daniel grabbed him tightly. "I've been trying to tell you I want you for over a year! I didn't think you'd ever. . ."

    "Guess you aren't as smart as you thought."

    Daniel wacked him with a pillow and yelped with a giggle when Jack dove under the flying fluff and pinned his arms.

    "Not nice."

   Daniel couldn't think strait with Jack so close. "No?"

    "Nope. We'll have to work on that."

    "'k."

    "Daniel?"

    "Hm?"

    "Can I kiss you?"

    "Mmm."

    Jack smiled into their joined lips and pulled away softly.

    "Jack."

    "Danny? Can I be in love with you?"

    "Only if I can love you too."

    "Try for long term?"

    "Let's start small."

    "Like?"

    "Let's make love." Daniel grinned.

    "Did they drug you or something?"

    "It's a Marilyn Monroe movie."

    "You watch that crap?"

    "Bet you'd like it if you tried it."

    "We still talking about the movie?"

    "Maybe."

    "Danny!" Jack groaned, "Your killing me!"

    "Please Jack. Make love to me. Help me feel safe again. I feel so hunted here after. . . No matter what they meant by it, it was a violation. Please Jack. Help make it go away."

    "How would my doing it make it better?"

    "Because I choose you."

    "I love you Danny."

    "Oh Jack."
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    Those were the magic words. First time spoken. On a world of mother worshipers, in a huge bed after Danny had been poked and proded by the locals. I should have realized that something wasn't right. Should have put more thought into what the locals had done when they were touching him, but I didn't.

    It's hard to think when you're sunk deep into the ass of the man you love.

    And because of that. . . I'm getting ahead of myself again. Anyway, other than the touches and tasting and love making, the rest of the mission was by the book. We left at the first scedualed time and Danny an' me, we tried to act like nothing had changed. I don't think we fooled anyone. Actually, later we found out the men on base had a pool going to see where when and how the two of us would realize we were in love with each other. Teal'c cleaned up in that one. He never stops surprising us. Danny went all red when Teal'c gave him 'the talk'. You know, about the insects and winged mammals? *Snicker* Danny is so cute when he's embarrased. He so cute when he's happy, sad, confused, breathing. Do I need to pick a certain time. Can't. He always steals my breath away.

    Anyhoo, Like always after a mission we were all taken to the infermary. Danny has a bed in there just for him. He almost lives down there. I mean he should have his mail delivered there! It's a running joke in SG. I keep it up just to see that blush. There's also a joke that he should marry Doc Janet since he sees her more than any husband sees his wife. I don't like that one. Hope it doesn't give him any ideas, I'd hate to have to kill a friend. How did I get off track again?!

    Back on subject. This was all going normal, until Janet got to Daniel. Not such a big surprise. What she found inside of him. . . now THAT was a surprise.
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    Janet watched the members of SG1 for reactions. She wasn't disappointed.

    "WHAT?!" Jack bellowed.

    Daniel feinted immidiately stopping Jack's yelling when the colonal ran to his side. //Looks like Teal'c won the pot.//

    Sam was blinking, trying to think of something to say.

    Teal'c offered Jack a hand. "Congradulations ONeill."

    Jack looked like he would follow Daniel. Obviously he hadn't thought about 'his' contribution to this mess. "Oh shit."

    General Hammond chose that moment to walk into the infermary and take in the faces of his finest. "What happened?" His voice was slightly off, as if this occerance was so natural it was no big surprise. For Daniel Jackson, it 'was' natural. If he ever came back with nothign wrong, 'that' would be a sign for worry.

    "Daniel has a tenant sir."

    "A Goauld?! Why haven't you. . ."

    "It's not a Goauld. Sir."

    "Then a parasite? Doctor I am a busy man. Stop making me guess and just come out with it."

    "He's pregnant."

    The general froze. Looked at Jack. Looked at Daniel. Looked at Jack and Daniel. "Colonal do you have something you'd like to tell me?"

    It was too much. Jack gave up the struggle and feinted to the bed beside Danny.

<Part 3>
 

    Star Gate log #3. There, I finally found a starting phrase that works for me. Danny is asleep beside me now. He needs a lot more sleep now. He deserves it. I still can't believe I knocked up my archeologist! He isn't really showing as much as I thought he would. It's wierd, when women are pregnant they look like they swallowed a beach ball whole. Not my Danny.  Maybe it has something to do with the placement of the womb or something, I'm no doctor.

    Womb. I can't help touching the scar like crease that will allow our child to be born. Can't help smoothing a hand over the slightly rounded stomach that holds our baby. It's such an incredible feeling it's unreal! Inside that golden skin is a life! A little bit of me and a little bit of Daniel. Our child is in there!

    I wasn't so enchanted with the idea at first. I mean, my history as a father isn't so great. I'll never make the mistakes that I made with the Charlie and S'karra over again, but there's still so much I could mess up! I'm terrified that I'll lose them. Daniel and our child I mean. Daniel says this type of male womb makes birth easier than what women go through, but I still feel so helpless. My space monkey has been trying to help me through my fears, and it has helped, but when it first happened. . .
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    Jack came to slowly, his head was realling. "Damn it."

    "Don't worry." Sam smiled, "You landed on your head."

    "Ha ha." The colonal squeezed his eyes shut and dug the heels of his palms into his temples.

    "Now do you want to tell me," General Hammond asked calmly, "How you managed to get Dr. Jackson pregnant?"

    Daniel was sitting on the hospital bed, his hand lightly held over his flat abs which now sported a split down the center, closed but visible. The birth channel. He looked like he was in awe. Jack couldn't say he shared the scientists amazed enthusiasm. All he could feel was fear. //No. I can't do it again, I can't have a child! And after this. . . shit! My military career is probably over now, how will I support a kid?! What will happen to Danny? I can't loose him! I couldn't handle that!//

    "Colonal."

    "I guess don't ask don't tell doesn't apply any more to this situation."

    Hammond paused. He was a very accepting man and to pull Jack or Daniel would be to disband SG1. He didn't want that. They were his first and best team! "I think the rules can be bent a little seeing as Dr. Jackson has a feminine ability to birth. It's a week argument at best, but I won't say anything if you don't."

    Daniel finally found his voice and he whispered quietly, "Jack."

    The colonal was instantly at Danny's side, "What's wrong? Are you in pain? What can I do?" He looked up for Janet, "Give him some pain meds, can he have pain meds? I mean will it. . . shit."

    "Jack." Daniel smiled soothingly, "I'm ok. I'm better than ok!"

    "Danny?"

    'We made a new life Jack. I never thought, never dreamed, but we did! We're going to have a child. Our child."

    ". . . oh God, I've gotta sit down."

    Daniel's smile vanished instantly, "You don't want a baby, do you. But you love kids! I mean the way you took Skaara under your wing and. . . is it me? You don't want to be tied down like that to me. I didn't think. . ."

    "No! Space Monkey that isn't it it's just. . ."

    "I thought. . . I'm sorry Jack, I though you felt the same. . . it's all right, I can leave. It should be an easy birth so I won't need to stay here for it, I can teach or something."

    Jack's heart sped up to dangerous speeds. No! Daniel couldn't leave! He hadn't meant it like that! "No Danny, I didn't . . . that isn't what. . ." He turned helplessly to Sam. No way he could say what he had to, not in front of everyone.

    Sam nodded and steared all of the others toward the door, "They've had some really big shocks today people. We should give them a night to figure all of it out. ok? Jack will give his report tommorow."

    Hammond nodded, "You're right, but you two behave until we know how . . . ah. . . penetration will effect the baby."

    Daniel blushed and diverted his eyes. Jack couldn't help but notice how beautiful he was when he was shy like that.

    "I mean it." He warned.

    "We heard you!"

    When the doors were closed and locked Jack moved to stand between Daniel's knees. "Dannyboy?"

    "I'm sorry Jack I didn't mean to put you on the spot like that it's just all so overwhelming."

    "You didn't put me on the spot." He pulled Danny's chin up so their eyes met and took a deep breath. "Danny. . . Back on PX198765, I wasn't just. . . I mean. . . It wasn't a spur of the moment deal."

    "Jack you're babbling."

    "Well what I meant to say was that. . . ah. . . I had. . . feelings . . . for you. Ever since that first mission. But you. . . Danny you're smart and sexy and you could have anyone you wanted so why would you be intersted in me? I didn't. . . I don't want to ruin our friendship if this is just some of the  wierdness that goes on here but. . . I do care. I . . . kids are great but I've alreayd lost two and I don't. . . Danny I can't go through that again."

    "Is that why you paniced Jack? Because you're afraid?"

    "Yeah. I do think this is amazing, but it isn't worth possibly lossing you. If I had to choose to save one of you I'd save you."

    "We're both going to be fine."

    "Sure. I've heard that one before."
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    And that's when the reasurrance talks and all the general rot your teeth out sweetness started. Danny is determined to make sure I know it's all gonna be fine. I just can't beleive that right now because if I do and it all falls apart again. . . I don't think I could handle that. I know, I'm the big bad colonal, but when it comes to the people I love, especially when it comes to Danny, I can break easily. I don't want to break again, I don't know if there's enough glue in the world to put me back together if Danny left me.

    He's shifting in his sleep now. It's like he knows when the doubts start. I wonder if that's a pregnancy thing or a Danny thing. Probably both.

    I always had this vision of how things would be if we got together. Danny would be the feminine one, I'd be the protector, but that's not how it is at all. Danny keeps me sane. Yeah I protect him physically, I always have, but he protects my sanity, sometimes it feels like he's protecting my very soul. Yeah, that's really corney and I'd never admit to anyone outloud that it's true, but it is. I guess that's what love does, it throws all your plans out of place, but after it does you realize that you never want to fix it.

    Now he's settling again. I guess my thoughts were the right ones.  How can a grown man look so serine. He's like a cherebem. Not an angel, he looks to young and innocent to be an angel. Ha, what do I mean 'looks' he 'is' innocent! Completely untarnished by the world, I don;t know how he survived before I was there to protect him. It's hard to imagine that he's had a wife! But that's Danny. Always surprising us. I really wouldn't have it any other way.

    Once we cleared up the 'I really do love you' talk. . . well, things kind of went back to normal around base. . . but not really. When I think of all the times . . . well, lets start from the beggining of that chapter 'k?
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    Daniel woke up late the day after their talk and immidiatly began running through his morning routine only to realize that he wasn' tin his house! With only a slight worru toward Jack's reaction he slipped into a pai rof the larger man's boxers and camoflauge pants, rolling the legs up a bit so that they fit. A black T-shirt followed and was tucked in carfully so as not to aggrivate the new womb. A belt finished it and he smiled into the mirror. He actually looked presentable. The pants must have been old because they fit just right but for height.

    Running a comb throuh his shaggy hair and using his finger the brush his teeth he finally stopped and sniffed the air. Coffee! With a grin the archeologist hurried downstairs and found Jack turned away from him, waiting for the coffee to brew. With a predatory smirk he crept closer and closer and then. . .

    When the smaller man pounced he was quickly caught up in large, strong arms and hel dcaptive for a good morning kiss.

    "Morning."

    "Mmm." He smiled dreamily and arched up for another. Jack chuckled and obliged, setting him gently on his feet.

    "Trying to sneak up on me?"

    "Shut up and kiss me again."

    Jack had never followed orders so readily.

    "Mmm. I smelled coffee."

    "What do you have a radar or something that leads you to brewing caffinated bevrages?!"

    "Hmm? Oh. Maybe."

    "What are you thinking about?" Jack smiled, "You were out in space just then."

    "Well some women become nauseated by the smell of coffee near the end of the first trimester."

    "There is NO way I'm living with you if you're deprived of your coffee." Jack joked, "Tell ya what, you drink it and I'll hold your head while you puke it up."

    "Thanks for the warmth Jack." Daniel slugged him on the arm.

    "What're lovers for?"

    "Well. . ."

    "Ooooooh no. No way are you pulling that, we have to go to work. Report? 0900? ring any bells?"

    "But Jack, it isn't good for pregnant people to be frustraited."

    "Nope. No way Danny boy. Hammond is waiting and we're walking a thin line as it is with this thing."

    "Ok." Daniel looked dissappointed and Jack felt his heart break over that look.

    "Listen Danny. . . about this pregnancy. . ."

    Danny got a little pale and Jack cursed, "No, nothing bad! Danny I was just. . . I wanted to know. . . do you want to move in here? I don't like to think of you all alone no matter how well you can take care of yourself and. . ."

    "Jack, a lot of my things have to be kept at a certain humidity and temperature."

    "I can put something together for that."

    "I have a lot of quirks that annoy the Hell out of you, you know that from when we lived together those first months I was back."

    "They're part of you. I don't mind them. Some are endearing."

    "Spoken like a fool in love."

    "That's me."

    "I have fish. You hate my fish."

    Jack paused, "Non negotiable?"

    "Yep."

    He looked like it really pained him to say it but. . . "If it means you'll be here, I'll put up with the damn fish."

    "Really!" Daniel looked truely shocked, "You'd really do that?"

    "How many times do I have to say I love you danny boy?! I'll do anything for you."

    Daniel blushed and leaned into Jacks arms, "It's just, nothing goodever lasted for me. . . I keep waiting for this to go wrong."

    "It won't." Jack insisted. "I was thinking. . . the spare room you slept in would make a wonderful nursary. It's close enough to our room. We should start thinking about stuff like that."

    "Our room?"

    Jack kissed him softly, "Our room. Our house. Our kid. Our life."  He felt the moisture on his neck and pulled back a little, "Danny boy are you crying?"

    "I'm just really happy." The man admitted. "I never thought I would have a family ever again after my parents died and now, you, and a child. . . Jack it's like a dream coming true. I'm just so afraid I'll wake up!"

    "Tell ya what Danny. You keep reasuring me that I'mnot going to loose you two, and I'll keep reminding you that this isn't a dream."

    "Deal."

    "Now we need to go to work."

    "I probably look horrible after all that crying."

    "You look beautiful."

    "Jack?"

    "Always beautiful."
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    Ok so words lik ethat melt my Danny too. We melt each other. Guess it's only fair. So we made our report and we moved Danny's books and artifacts into a special bookcase I set up to keep them just right, just like he said. He was all moved in except for the fish. Now I drew the line at having them in the bedroom. No way am I havign those little, bulbous eyes watching me while I'm touching my Danny.

    Finally we settled on the nursary. Daniel read somewhere that fish are good for a babies mental development. The motion or something sooths them. Whatever it was I trust him. I also never do things half way. Daniel's tank was small and having that thing in there would be too dangerous, I mean what  it fell? So I took a day off work behind Daniels back and put up one of those whole wall aquariums. Right up against the solid wall beside the wall with the door and across from the large windows. I also put locks on the windows and childproofed the place just like I had when Charlie was born. I had Sam help me decorate the damn thing since it definitly isn't my area, but I did add one thing. One of those big ceramic signs with the plaster plants and fake starfish around the base. In big black letters it said "NO FISHING". Thought Danny would get a kick outta that. He's always waring me that he'd better never find my fishing pole anywhere near his fish.  It's become an inside joke between us.

    All of the old furnature is gone now, just waiting for me and Danny to get the baby stuff. We decided to stay away from pink or blue and stay neutral. Danny's been reading up on baby development and he says earth tones would be best. I say he's the genius. I think that really ticks him off some times, but he takes it because he loves me.

    I think there might be something good to this "love" thing after all.
 
 
 

~tbc~