Apathy closing in on me, suffocating my will to be alive in this world of shit and lies and false hope. I want to be free of this disillusionment, but it only grows and grows and grows. Fed by gasoline cars, and beaming smiles and the truth that no one cares. All outward appearances are what you get. This world is slowly feeding me (suffocating me) making me grey and dead. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!