~*~ Rafe and Alison begin to make love transcipe ~*~
2/8/02
Rafe: So how you feeling? Kind of warming up?
Alison: Yeah little by little.
Rafe: Listen, I�m sorry that I shoved your hand in the snow --
Alison: No
Rafe: Kept it there. That was stupid.
Alison: Please, stop saying you're sorry ok, you were trying to make a point, and you did. The rest of my life and maybe the best of my life are still ahead of me. And I have a lot of time, right? So to not make the best use~ of it would really be a slap in the face of the people who don't have it.
Rafe: People like me, huh?
Alison: So, do you -- do you know how much time you have left?
Rafe: Oh, yeah. Seven weeks on the clock.
Alison: I�m sorry. The -- the clock?
Rafe: Yeah. See, every angel who comes back gets one of these.
Alison: Why does this have 13 numbers on it?
Rafe: Well, its 13 weeks so every week that I�m here, it clocks back another notch -
Alison: Oh. So according to this, then you only have --
Rafe: Seven weeks left.
Alison: Seven weeks. Seven weeks -- and then you're gone.
Rafe: Yeah.
Alison: Yeah.
Rafe: And this time for good. I�ll never come back again.
Alison: But that's -- that's really soon, seven weeks.
Rafe: Yeah. But those are the rules.` It's the deal I made, so -- no use complaining now, right?~
Alison: Well, was it -- was it worth it? `
Rafe: Oh, was it worth it? Well, that's -- that's hard to say. There are definitely times when I wish I hadn't come back at all, I can tell you that.
Alison: What do you mean by that? I don't understand.
Rafe: It hurts Alison -- ~ loving you, it -- knowing that no matter what I did or -- or what I felt I could never have you and~ I never will. That hurt more than anything I ever felt when I was alive. Even hurt more than dying
Alison: You don't need to tell me all this.
Rafe: Yes, I do. I do, Alison.
Alison: No, actually you don'T.
Rafe: But I do.
Alison: No, I read your journal. I�m sorry. I already know.
Rafe:Oh.
Alison: I lied to you about it when you asked me, and that's why I�ve been pulling away from you for the last couple of weeks. I was sort of running from your feelings for me and --
Rafe: And maybe -- maybe your feelings for me?
Alison: Yeah.
Rafe: Well, then, you know, I�m glad you read what you read because no I can � I can stop wasting time.
Alison: Rafe --
Rafe: No, because, you see, nobody knows how much time they have, you know? And they never have enough to do The things in their heart and to say the things they really want to say, and that's why I really brought you here, because I couldn't bear the thought of you just wasting time in a place where you didn't belong anymore, living with your nana, pretending to be someone you used to be.
Alison: Used to be?
Rafe: Instead of the loving, amazing, beautiful woman that you are now. The woman that I couldn't help falling in love with. And I know I have no right, and I am sorry if it made you miserable at all, but I am not going to apologize for the way I felt.~ Ever.
Alison: I don't want you to, ever.
Rafe: You know, I came back there because thought I needed your help work things out, but maybe that wasn't meant to be. And maybe, you know, if Jamal is not your destiny, then maybe this is. Maybe -- maybe somehow �I � I am
Alison: Rafe.
Rafe: It's stupid. I�m sorry.
Alison: No, no, no.
Rafe: I know it sounds stupid. I�m sorry.
Alison: No.
Rafe: No -- no, what? No, what?)W would you just say something? Any -- please, at least something. Please?~ What?
[Alison and Rafe kiss]
Rafe: Alison, no, no. You can't do this.
Alison: Don't -- listen, if you love me as much as you say you do --
Rafe: Look, it's just not fair to you, ok?
Alison: Listen, you don't get to make that decision anymore, not alone. Look at me. I�ve been hiding and running away from my feelings for you, and that's wrong. This whole time I let you think that you were the only one who wanted something more, and that's not true Because I want something more, too. I want to be more than just your friend.
Rafe: Ok, let me make sure I understand this maybe you said about --
Alison: That I wanted to be more than just friends --
Rafe: Yeah.
Alison: Rafe --
Rafe: What'd you mean?
Alison: I wanted you then and I -- I want y now.
[Alison kisses Rafe passionately]
Rafe: Alison, I -- I just --
Alison: Shh.
[Rafe and Alison kiss again and begin to make love]