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| Entry 12/07/00 by: orlando Life is good today. I'm working, temporarily at least. Although it certainly isn't my dream job. I'm still hitting brick walls, but at least I think I might find a crack soon. I'm excited that I've actually gotten this site running. I started The Metamorphosis and it wasn't as dry as expected. My family is in good health and good spirits. I can't say that I don't miss my friends (the only people reading this site, if even they are, haha). At least I've got some good music to keep me company. Coldplay's Parachutes has me in a complete tizzy. The guy's voice makes me melt and smile. Is that humanly possible? to smile and melt at the same time? David Gray's White Ladder is what's playing right now. It reminds me of all that I can't have. As the Stone's say (in, mind you, Jenni's fav song - of the Stone's I'm guessing [correct me if i'm wrong]), "You can't always get what you want." :) |
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| Tales of Urban Bohemia |
| 12/11/00 by: orlando Ok, so I don't like the obnoxious maroon/red/i don't know what you call it color. i am currently temping as a secretary. fun, huh? actually, it's better than data entry because all i do is surf the net and try to "educate" myself on what's going on in the world. this guy comes into the office today. he's a bit early for his interview (a good sign i might add) and so we get to talking. he never graduated college (a couple of courses at the local jc), but he did go to one of those fabulous IT schools. why did i bother going to college? i couldn't help but smile as i told him that a lot of people i know from a four year university are currently unemployed. on to more interesting topics: hmmm, there are none. i read this article about godspeed you black emperor (canadian band - don't even start) and how they all complained about not having the intimacy of smaller venues the bigger they became. that's too bad :-(. nothing else is new. no job, no art, no money to buy the latest cd (too many to choose from anyway). am i looking forward to christmas? nah. it doesn't feel like the holidays when it's 70 degrees outside. bah humbug ! i really need other, more interesting, people to contribute to this sight. volunteers? wait, maybe i do like that obnoxious background color! |
| 12/15/00 by orlando Family is a funny entity. Sometimes I wonder why we even bother with one another. Sometimes I don't bother. You can look a person straight in the face and seriously question "Can I be related to you?" The holidays are the perfect time for these questions to emerge. Another question that has been popping into my mind lately is "why the hell am I fighting the crowds, raising the Christmas tree, and baking these cookies (okay, I lied. I'm not actually baking any cookies)?" Believe me, I'm not trying to be preachy, but like loads of other people, I just find Christmas to be a joyless, heartless commercial toy. I remember driving home with my mom when I was a kid, being in awe of all the pretty lights. The older I became, the more I realized that half the people out there don't even enjoy the season. They're more worried about what they're going to get and how much debt they're going to accumulate. Personally, I think a family vacation to a tropical island in the South Pacific would be a lot more fun and relaxing. |
| 01/05/01 by orlando When nothing seems definite, I always feel like i'm on some uncontrollable rollercoster ride. twisting, turning, flying about - it's fun, but if you do it repeatedly, you're ready to puke. it seems that as soon as i've adapted to a situation, it's time to move on. i guess it's good for the psyche to keep yourself on your toes. brain rot is a terrible thing to have. so i'm not giving up on my dream. i'm determined to be aggressive and go get it. what's the worst that can happen? i fail and i have to go home and live with ma and pa (who love me very dearly and who i really do love being with - so that's not that bad) and hang my head. things could be worse. and it's not that bad to begin with. so wish me luck and keep your fingers crossed. i'm not going back now :) happy new year |