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ahh!!~!@!@!!!! It's been so long! oh no! what will I do??! Today is nearing the last of my time @ the beloved CPCC. (lol...not really beloved.....but i have come to appreciate the place) this semester. We did powerpoint today in my computer class and it was totally fun! but we're only doing that for 2 days! can you believe that? The BEST thing that we learn (and easiest) we only spend 2 days on! We have off on Thursday because of Thanksgiving. I'm thankful for that! haha! I do like it here though. It's so peacful and calm and I've had some good times here! yep! good times, good times! lol! I have been working on fixing up my "main" page (click here to see it) and actually got the "click on a pic" links to work! yay! like anyone EVER goes to my website! hahaha! this on have been accessed more....and that's b/c I always come on here to pour my heart out! lol!
So, yeah, I am totally a dork. From doing all of this stuff with my other website I have finally learned how to make my cheesy webpage as long as i want it!!!! muahahaha...now you're in for it!!! I had accidentally had the page settings set on "layered HTML" and that didn't let me take forever-long space which I can now!!! hahaha!!! I can type as much as I want....until my class starts this evening. Anyways...since the last time i put something on here (Nov. 8th was it? I don't know) I have gone to HCBC to the *Pre-retreat* and I'll probably get some pictures from that up soon. It was the BOMB! I totally love Hickory Cove! I do. Every single time that I go there, the Lord has something amazing about Himself for me to learn. My relationship with Him has been growing (AWESOME~~!!! nothin' but the BEST thing in my life!) and I have been learning to trust in Him more and for everything. There weren't that many people there, but it was a great group. We talked about the ahem..."Absurdity of Life without God." it was very interesting and kinda helped me understand where atheists are coming from. (like um.....waaay oufield...no more like NO WHERE) I already kinda understood how they thought (or rather don't think) about the things in our lives that are most important. (i.e. what is our purpose and what happens after we die) We watched a coulpe videos with this guy interviewing people @ a college campus and like some atheist fair or something. It was so funny how wacked-out some of these people's answers to his questions were. (Questions that are SO important, or should be to every individual) Haha. It started to seem kinda like that guy was mocking the people (and he was) and I was like, well that seems kinda mean (for lack of a better word ~I'm telling you, I have no vocabulary!~) but I guess that sometimes people who are that hard-headed in their pride and personal beliefs, need something like that to kinda prove them wrong and show them the thruth in spite of "their" truth. Anyways.....I don't know if I know that many atheists, but this was very encouraging for the process of getting down to what really matters with someone who thinks that they are right about the no God theory. I know alot more people who say, "oh yeah, sure. I believe that there is a God and a heaven. And I think that they good things that I've done will outweigh the bad ones and God's gonna "let me in". Yeah. Only REALLY BAD people go to hell." It's sickeningly sad that people are so blinded in prideful self-righteousness and human-race comparisons that they can't see the "REALLY BAD"-ness in themselves.
I only have an hour til my class starts! ahh!!! ok....quick Rachel (I've been typing really bad today....I think because I haven't in a long time.) Um...today I went and took my math placement test downstairs in the testing room. (I'm gonna be taking algebra with sarah next semester...that shouldn't be too hard...and it's FREE! woohoo!) So yeah...i got an 116 on that...and I don't know if that is good or bad. Who knows.....there were only 12 questions on the test. Mary gRace is coming tonight!!!!!!! I love my grandma! I have this feeling that it's always weird for other people when me and my sister and brothers call her Mary Grace (MG) because most people just call their grandmas "grandma" or "gramma" or "grandmother"-(I don't think that many do that one...though) And it's no that we are some kind of modernist family and we call our parents and grandparents by their first names, but when we were younger Mary Grace thought that our other grandparents would want to be called grandma and grandpa, so we never called her that. We have always called her Mary Grace. I love that name too. Anyway, she is coming today. My mom is probably picking her up @ the airport right now (right down the road too!!! CDIA is right on Billy Graham Blvd.) YAY!!!! Sarah and I will probably have to write a 2 hour essay tonight. I am starting to not like this class because of all the essays!! ahhh!!!!! I am so not a good writer! I can't finish my essays in 2 hours either!!! so I'm always like totally scared because the time might run out (and it has run out on me before!!!!)AHH!!!! I need to have a more organized brain! What am to do?! (hehe) I sure use alot of parentheses! (don't you think?) (haha) JPC. I like to use parentheses to express little side thoughts that kinda go with that I'm saying. Don't you? (and the answer here will be yes, because seriously, I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO EVER READS THIS!!!! hahaha) For real though, if you are not me and you are reading my journal thing, sign my guestbook and tell me b/c I will be overjoyed! (well hmm....yeah I will be overjoyed!) I'll be like, "WHOA!!! someone actually read this thing!!!!!!!!yessssss!"
This morning I was reading in Luke (I've been reading the gospels probably since May or something~ and let me tell you that they are so wonderful! My Lord Jesus' perfect life right there for me to see!) This book is so FULL of the perfect, sovreign authority that the Lord Jesus has, and I love to see that because I know that I can trust in Him to do anything and He will always be in control of EVERYTHING! How terrible and meaningless my life would be if there were no God, and how trivial and equally meaningless (did I just repreat myself ~BAD VOCABULARY~) it would be if my God was not in control of every single thing. I'm beginnnig to see that more and more. I mean, atheists have pretty much no reason for living,(besides for themselves) but as Paul says it, of all men we would be the most pitiful (my paraphrase...I don't know the exact verse) if we in vain served a God who does not have power over death as He proved He did, and Who does not know everything and didn't really save us. We would be serving a god about as insignificant as Baal or Buddha. Man. With sarah's "boyfriend" situation this past couple months (i don't know if I should call him her boyfriend, but I think that's what they "were" for a while there) I've thought about how pathetic life and salvation would be if the Lord didn't really die for all of our sins. (He believes that you can lose your salvation) If God only died for some of our sins, as some believe, then we would have to be saved over and over again because we are sinful creatures. An all-knowing God couldn't say, if you sin again, then I will forgive you again and save you again. Because our God is all knowing, and ALL powerful, He died for ALL of our sins, (past, present and future as the phrase goes) God sees us as clothed in the righteousness of His Son!!!! Not as we are. Brandon was saying (i like, never talked to him, but sarah did one time i guess and this came up b/c they apparently hadn't addressed what they each believe---which is really stupid in this situation in particular because of a couple factors which I won't mention) But yeah. My belief and my life would all be in vain if my God were not as powerful and in control and omni-present and as sovreign as He is. It would be scary. I guess people don't think about that much though. People don't typically think all that much, i guess. yup. life's just there and it's what you make it i guess....haha... WHATEVER!
Ok well I have to go now.......my class is in.....oh! it's in like 25 minutes...nevermind. I saw a bunch of people from my english class going in the classroom and i thought it was time butit totally isn't!!! haha! Anyways...where was I? Yeah so I was reading Luke this morning and I read the story of the prodigal son! ahhh!!!!! I can't believe how much that dude is JUST like me! I was (and am) the prodigal son (except the prodigal daughter.....i learned this sunday that directly quoting "he/man/him" verses from the Bible is not always smart for me.... I was talking to aMANDA and we were talking about how she was an adult and how when you become an adult you [or me in the context...considering that she is um....2 months older than me>??] will put away childish things like being afraid of bugs and stuff like that and I said..."yeah like that verse that goes, 'When I became a man I put away childish things' so like, when I become a man I'll put away childish things too!" ahhhh!!!! yeah...whatever...when I become a man! ha) back to the topic. The prodigal son, oh yeah. I like AM that guy. That story really touched me this morning and to think: my Savior wrote that there for me, knowing that I would read this precious love letter to me! and remember how amazingly He took my back into His arms and rejoiced at my return from my selfish ways!!!!!!! He is love. Truly, God is love. The prodigal son did all he wanted and lived the way he wanted (knowing that this was wrong and sinful) and after he got down to his last rope and was basically starved, he returned home, knowing that his father's servants were living better than he was. It was the same with me in different times when I felt like living my way and got away from my Father. I did all that I wanted for a while, but then it got pathetic and those rose colored glasses that I had been looking through cracked from the pressure and let me see the gross spritual starvation that I had come to. How awful when we try to live and go through life on our own! We were not made to do that. Without the joy of the Lord, our own strength is quickly evaporated and we are left with all that we are and are lacking the one staple that our diet requires.....Him. ok..welll I really have to go now b/c my class is starting in 10 min. and I want to be in there when the teacher comes. Y'all have a great day and remember (or realize) that the Lord Jesus Christ has died for you!!!!!!! He loves you the same today as He always has.
Love always in Him, rachel ><> |
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