Rachel Young

tuesday, august 7, 2001

The humidity factor is currently 71%. Feeling extremely sticky and hot, I can`t fall asleep.

So everyone keeps asking me why I moved to New York. OMT was out with mutual friends from college about a week ago and told them I was relocating up north. They asked her why I was leaving, and she said she didn�t know why. She�s been staying with me the entire summer while I�ve been planning this move, and even she doesn�t clearly know what the reasons are.

I wish I could explain it better, but bottom line is I had to get away. I was becoming complacent where I was and I didn�t like it. In more dramatic yet frank terms, I felt I was withering away and began to lose sense of who I was and what I wanted. I began to feel glimmerless.

Do I expect to find that glimmer here in New York City? No, not really. But I do expect to be challenged and stretched beyond the comfort zone I�ve somehow got stuck in the past year. I�ll tap into whatever talent I have, shape it, master it, and push it to its limits. I�ll get in touch with the deepest part of my soul, and discover both the things that make me cringe and the things that make me beam about myself.

I want to make things happen, and for me, there�s no better place than New York for it.

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