update

I wanted to update and let everyone know whats going on. I found out the other day that I will be going to court on April 17, 2001. Unless its canceled. You know it has take a year and 4 months to get this far. It sucks let me tell you. People wonder why not many girls turn the guy in that raped them. By the time it gets to the courts you have already put it all behind you and you don't want to relive all of it after you have already healed. I am going threw hell right now. I have moved on and started a new life and now i am being told that it is time to relive that night all over again in the court room. I want to go and make this guy pay for what he did to me. I know this is something i have to do for myself. It will be hard but i keep telling myself that i can do this. I want girls to know that no it won't be easy to go to court after a year but please go. Do it for yourself nobody else. I will update more after i go to court and i will let everyone know what happend. Until then hold your head up and know your never alone.

I wanted to update and let everyone know how court went. It was a very long week. The guy that raped me was found guilty. He has to go to jail for two years. When he comes out he can not be around any child under the age of 17. His picture will be put in the Alvin, Texas paper with his name saying he is a sex affender. It was very hard to do this but i feel alot better now that i did. It took alot out of me. I did not eat or sleep that week and i am still haveing trouble eating but i am getting better and i am glad i did this. If i can do this anyone can. You never think you are strong enough because i know i didn't think i was. But guess what i am. I did it. I want to thank my family for being there to help me with thius. I know i have not been the greatest lately but i am ready to start things over and put this behind me. So thanks to all that helped me. I want to give a special thanks to my mom she is the greatest and she always has faith in me no matter what. I love you mom. I will go for now. This is the end of that chapter in my life.