you have no idea why you feel connected to me
you know the string that binds us is there but you don't know how important it is
what if i snip it, what if i say this string is strangling me, what if i say who cares about you,
except me, god help me
i am not going to play 15 year old girl mind games to
make you fall in love with me
you already are you idiot
you just don't know what to call it and
it scares the shit out of you
and maybe it fucking scares the shit out of me
what about that
what if i have no idea what i am doing with a shy immature boy
who can't ask for a kiss when my face is in front of his
what if i wait
when i despise waiting
what if i don't know why i am filled with so much
love and anger
when i have spent less than 24 hours with you
why would i want to be in love with someone who drives me crazy
i hate this god damned rollercoaster
you love me you love me not
bullshit
want to fucking slap you and say wake up asshole
you treat me like i am a bug on the wall
but then you care so much about me that
you'd give up sex?
what the hell is that?
you clearly have no clue what you are doing
well i'll tell ya
you are giving up a chance
to truely connect with another human being,
to have your soul entwined with someone else's
you are giving up the chance to learn freedom
yeah i can teach you freedom
freedom to just lie there after sex, with your dick limp and sweaty,
and your belly bulging
freedom to say what you want, when you want to say it
freedom to grab what you seek and
not wait for someone to give it you
freedom to love your self
yes, i can teach you that.
you claim to want that
but you do shit to get it
sit on your fucking hands
thats what you are doing
you are sitting those perfect fucking hands
that i want to kiss and to know
get off your fucking hands and call me asshole!
walk your talk
oh you are not lying to me
that i know
you're ignoring yourself
and me
i will not stand for it
i'm not going to wait til you get an inkling of a clue and
ask to comeover so that we can fuck
oh yeah we will talk too, yes i know
you are a good boy, you don't leave right away, but
you leave
and you leave
me guessing
just make up your god damned mind and tell me
you want to grow?
thats growing....making up your mind and telling it like it is
i am so mad at you
i am so in love with you
i am so sick of waiting for you
yeah, i know
you are in a transitional stage
she says with more than a hint of sacrcasm
darling, i have been there
i know
and you know i know
and thats why you can't leave me
well damn you for that
damn you for not being able to cut the string
why the fuck does that string have to be there
if it weren't i could move on
leave you in my dust
i don't deserve to be treated like this
you are supposed to know what that string means
you said ignorance is bliss
well you must be on cloud fucking nine
i would do anything for your ignorance right now
