This 26th year is a strange one. I believe it will be significant, as 20 was, when i quit using drugs and worked thru a LOT of issues. This year, my head is spinning. Art and love. Art and love.
Art. All i want to do is create. Creating is seeping thru my pores and inspiration is everywhere i look. The smallest things are filling me with joy and forming pictures in my head that must be released. Conversations seem to hold a wealth of inspiration, and for that i am grateful. The response to my work has been astounding (not that i am making any money yet) and was really unexpected. I keep trying to explain to people that i really dont know what i am doing, that i have just been playing around, and dont have a complete set of skills to do this stuff as a job. I am working on it though. But the need to create, to express continues to override the more practical need to learn.
Giving Thanks. I am overflowing with gratitude. Frequently, i am taken with the desire to give back. To do what i can to make people feel as full and special as i feel. If i can figure out how to do this, without people expecting it and thirsting for more, and just being grateful instead, i will make it a life long goal.
Love. Another thing is happening. For the first time, i am evaluating what i want in terms of love and relationships with others. More precisely, I am questioning the possibilities. I had never before thought that there was any one person I could spend my life with. Now, the idea that i could fulfill my dreams of creation, travel, passion, adventure, and experiencing life, and do that with another person, seems more feesible. I still have my doubts, but my true dream is that, to paint a world of love with another soul. I suppose I am daring to dream bigger, deeper, and more pure.
L'�me aime. In a bizarre twist of fate, i have made a truly awe inspiring connection with another human being. I have never felt my creative soul so tied to, or enamoured of, or grateful for, (none of the words i can think of fit right) someone else's creative soul. I have never believed in coincidences and it is everything i can do to not explode and just enjoy it. Sol, i also appreeciate that you see the blue too.
My life is very rich. I have stopped wondering what i did to deserve this life. I am grateful.
Put up 3 new things on the Art Page and a new Words page with lots of new creations.
Okay, here is a little guest book thangy...tell me something.
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