DIVINE ESSENSE

 

i just saw the most incredulous ....   it began in love all around me enveloped in the most delicious....  silken embrace.  i twist about touching Him on every side my dears.  No man this!   i see what i am feeling by and by but this is like the pleasure of silk on skin or chocolate for those who can relate....  He allures my whole being in every way.  not just in one manner but touching every part of me within joyous sensual erotic then laughter sobbing at the intensity of the desire of His desire to pour out even more of Himself in love a sobbing of pain burning but then great joy and every nuance in between these extremes....  both light and heavy together, i lay as it were with the Son of man then reaching up the father's love surrounding.... it was wild!   then i began to see!!!!!!!!!!!  ohhhhhhhhh  if feeling meant anything the sight of this was even greater!   i am in a place perhaps from the outside it might look like a tube or column but from within it just is.   this place or "person" is seen as a mist to my eyes like when on a heavy fog.  yet zillions of tiny lights sparkle...  its LIVING!    but that's like black and white....  then came the color!  ohhhhhh  my dears!  like the iridescence of the black bird crow or grackle is dark iridescence this was light....  colors banding refracting iridescent in every possible tone and hue across the entire spectrum of visible light....  With it was the sense of TRUE AWE the wonder the shocked speechlessness and fearless seeing that is the wide eyed wonder of a child and i felt that wonder!  However as i watched the hues began to shade sown darkening even though iridescence like the lights fading until i saw nothing but black but i KNEW i was still in Him!   the sense of the surrounding of the most intensely sweet knowledge that He still loves me that He is still there but moreover that i am still IN HIM.  "Darkness and light are alike to thee".    Then there was a color in the darkness BLOOD!   fingers of color wash through the dark and usher in light again and the colors are all light again....  now lighter now darker....  it is then that i start to realize that i am to interact in this whole thing?  because i was so shocked by the beauty i just gawked!   i realize that the colors have form and substance and the "air" is like the heavy mist of a densely foggy day vaporous with water a wet air and i am breathing this....  or more exactly i inhale and exhale .... HIM!  what i saw next i have only ever seen on angelic beings....  i have seen cherubs and the living creatures and seraphs....  now seraphs are unlike the cherubs in that there outer covering what on might call skin is iridescent!  well i looked at my hands and i realized to my sheer ... wonderment..???   that the skin iridized and refracted  the broad band spectrum of visible light like the "air" around me!!!!!!!!!!!!  all the while i am still enveloped enrapt in this glorious love totally allured ....  for in the beginning i was with the Lord but then i was in the presence of the Father with the Lord then they began to become the ECHAD! ELOHIM ADONAI....  and i was in the midst of this!!!!!!!!!!
needless to say it faded enough for me to write this al down and then i lay back and strands of this light like bandages swirl around me and i lay all at once in a cocoon of His making.  it was such a place of utter rest ad security that i just stopped breathing for several seconds ((thank God for the autonomic system)) but the bandages parted  and now i saw a seablue sky a beautiful day and in the sky what i thought was a lone angel flying....  this "fella" was having a ball!!!!!!!  two sets of wings working in tandem first catching the wind and up and the wrapping about the body and plummeting down fanning out arresting the fall like a bird!!!!!!!!!  but then i had to wonder if it was the sky or the sea for no bird ever twisted around like a porpoise in the water in midair before but this "fella" was....  suddenly it jackknifed and the feet shot down and the lower half of a robe with it...  the wings clap open cupping to gently lower down lie parachute and then flip up and back and disappear!  not like birds wings do but like as if they had a hatch or something and they closed into it?   then i saw what i wonder if some imagery was used to make me understand better....  but anyway were this "fella" walked the ground seemed to come alive and sprout and all...  like life flowed from the feet.  Now i thought it was angel but even when they are not all blinding and such the skin still gives them away unless they are looking like one of us.  in which case then why would the skin be striated and banded and such as if inked of the very essence i had JUST BEEN IN????   what i saw was one of us!

as i linger knowing i have to get up and about there is the strong scent of cedar and sweet spices...   to bad i had to get up.

but can you imagine?  this is what He revealed Himself like ....  here in this moment. 

 

 

Mary E

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