Hello, friend. So, how was your day?
Have you ever really listened to the words that I say?
Or am I just the wind blowing in your hair?
A calm, quiet presence that you don't notice cuz I'm just there.
I want you... to notice me.
Because I fear the only relationship I have with you are dreams.
I sit up, after another sleepless night.
Another tear-struck memory as I find you were right.
What's to expect? My eyes are shrouded with denial.
I close my eyes and drift to sleep just so I can smile.
I'll dream... I'm in a new world.
Where beneath the fire's glow is where you and I will curl.
I'm only glad when I'm asleep
So I can dream I'm somewhere beside you.
I'm only glad when I'm asleep
Where you actually care.
Alone in a world that seems so cruel.
I'm pitted against the world in a one to a billion duel.
I scream, but I never make a sound.
I hope you know I call your name, right before I hit the ground.
I kiss... absolutely nothing.
Cuz you are never really here, I fall with no one to catch me.
I'm only glad when I'm asleep
So I won't have to pretend that you pretend to love me.
I'm only glad when I'm asleep
If only it were real.
A beam of hope is all that's left in the box.
I'm sure even Pandora wouldn't have cut the sacred lock.
Released all of my secret dreams,
And crushed them to oblivion leaving me to beseech
That you... would leave me.
But for all of God's sweet mercy leave my dignity.
I'm only glad when I'm asleep
So I can loosen the grip you hold around my throat.
I'm only glad when I'm asleep.
You're not there.
Love letters crumpled on the floor.
Do I pick them up and put them in their proper place? No more.
A candle flickers in the wind.
I blow it out and say goodnight to myself again.
Alone... and I'm happy.
It seems that I have finally found my peace.