Here are some snippets from posts made on this site and others. All are from people who have
slipped or lost their quit:
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....lost my quit over it. I am bummed that I lost it, but I am planning to come back, reset my calculator, and start again on Saturday.
I hate smoking soooo much and the entire time I was off the wagon I hated the fact that I was smoking.
...if you are struggling with your quit, ypu might as well keep it cause it sucks to have to start another one all over again.
I'm sad and I'm quitting right now once again
.....coming back and posting here after loosing a quit. YUCK, it is awful.
Attempt number 5 in 2 months. I want so badly to succeed this time.
I just want to stay quit. I have been working on this seriously since April. I was so good in the beginning. But, I had a few slips. Now, I just keep slipping. I keep fighting to stay quit ...
I did beautifully until last month when I slowly slipped back up to ten smokes a day. I am so angry with myself.
......because it took me on the road to a week relapse and a little self-hate and despair.
...but I slipped once again. I think I was born to live down here at this bottomless pit.
Just very disappointed in myself for smoking.
....because of poor judgement on my part i have to start all over. I'm not happy with myself....
...and it didn't make me feel any better. It made me feel worse.
...and cryed for like an hour. I felt like I've let everyone down, even myself.
am really depressed i smoked 2 today after not smokin for 100 days .....
I am not really happy with myself, I am back on the patch....
I slipped. I'm not proud of it....
Have been smoking between 2-5 a day and I am so mad at myself and hate myself. I am depressed all time.
...and smoked two. After that I felt so mad at myself and the addiction that I took the pack and ran it under water.
I feel like **** today. My lungs are BURNING!!! The ciggarettes tasted awful. I deserve it. Ugh.
I am mad at myself for taking that one cigarette.
I slipped again!!!!!!! I am so angry at myself.
I can't believe it. I am so dumb. I had a cig last night and now I feel awful.
3 days ago I started again. DAMN. 5-10 a day. I'm such an idiot.
....we had a couple of drinks and had a few cigs and was I kicking myself the next few days!
...I really hate myself for smoking those cig's...
I had a puff of a smoke on Friday and smoked on Sat night.....I now feel terrible ....
I don't know why I am so weak....
The blame rests squarely on my shoulders and I can't stop beating myself up for it.
I have tried so many times and failed that I am beginning to believe that it is just not my time to do this.
So here I am ... back to puffing away in hidden corners. Feeling once again like an outcast, but even worse.
Needless to say I folded and I just do not know if I have the courage to try again.
As difficult as it is to admit, I started smoking again.
I quit for 5 weeks and lost my quit and really relapsed into smoking up to 4 packs a day, i felt that i had lost faith in myself and my ability to maintain my quit
Well, I did slip, two smokes, alone in a room upstairs so no one could see me. I am not really happy with myself,......
I feel so bad this morning because I have cheated on myself. I found my emergency carlton and you know the rest. I gave in . I failed.
I have been trying to avoid this but I feel so ashamed and quilty I just had to come and say that I have failed my quit at 2 weeks and 5 days.
..not just one but a whole pack. i smoked every single one i wanted to cry i promised my son i would never smoke again.
I'm drinking and smoking and I hate it. I'm having probs with boyfriend and caved. I suck, I know.
For anyone out there even considering "falling off", take heed. I feel like the Nicodemon has me by the ankles and is pulling me down.
Don't want to go through that guilt and remorse I felt last night and today ever again.
....I'd slip and start over, slip and start over, slip and start over. I am so tired of putting myself through all of this....
Why? Why did I do this! I am so ashamed of myself.
I can't believe it.....I hate myself for screwing up.
I am so hurt. Ashamed. Mad at myself. Mad at the damm sick sticks. My heart is broken.
im definatly upset with myself, but im trying not to be too hard because i cant stand doing that to myself anymore.
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I would post the ones from those who were happy that they slipped or started to smoke again but.......
there are none.