so ever since the jason mraz concert, i’ve been thinking a lot about joining right kind of phrase. rkop is jason’s message board… jenny and i saw a lot of chickadees at his show who were from there. they all seemed to have somewhat of a stronger connection with jason because of their belonging to rkop. i want to have that with him… but not at the price. i’m sure the chickadees spend more than their fair share of the day on there. i want that connection, but i don’t want to sacrifice my days of sunlight to get that. y’know what i mean?
jenny and i felt somewhat… cut-off from their little rkop group… we didn’t care much but i did feel less love flowing my way from mr. mraz himself… i felt more love from toca… but that’s a whole other journal… it sucks because jason has a connection with the rkoper's... so does toca... it's like mrazville... i want to live in mrazville and i want him to know me... i just wish there was another way... i wish one person could change the world. i could be that one person to change the rkoper’s and let them know that the world doesn't revolve around them. i'd also lovingly accept all of the new members and make them feel as welcome as apple pie in my belly...
i don't care about them... i'm not joining... i'm sure jason is somewhat freaked out by the rkoper’s who seem to see no daylight... deep down he wants a normal girl who can kick up the craziness with him once in a while... and that’s me… i still have my hopes on toca and his big mouth talking non-stop about the one with the bright eyes in toronto...
if you really want to know about toca… here is the deal and the picture. toca was feeling me and my vibes… i don’t know about my vibes so much but he was into me… i felt it, jenny felt it and even this guy, bathroom briggs, aka ryan, felt it… we spoke a little and i’m just hoping toca’s infatuated… to the point where jason would recognize me if i was walking down the street… “toca! is that your toronto girl? the one with the bright eyes?”
maybe i'll join... i don't have to jump in head first... i dip my toes in and see if i like how god damn cold the water is...
xo – cyndi
the remedy is the experience
it’s a dangerous liaison
