| "from the shape of your shaved head, I recognized your sillhouette, as you walked out of the sun and sat down. And the sight of your sleepy smile eclipsed all the other people, as they paused to sneer at the two girls from out of town" ~Ani Difranco So, I'm at a loss of what to say here practicly...after passing back and forth hundreds of letters (litterally) what can one say to add on? I guess I can say I'm sorry my mother was such a bitch towards our relationship, and is still a bitch about my "sexual preference" to the point that she f**ks with the time I have with every one of my friends. I know you've expressed in the past your guilt over this, but please don't feel guilty...it really is not in any way your fault. She's just f***ing insane. I can't tell you enough how worth it her shit was to be your girlfriend, even though we broke up a year ago now. You've had such an influence on my life (as friend and otherwise), I don't know where I would be without you. Artisticly, you've inspired me more then you could ever know. You are one of the most creative people I've ever met in my life. From the decorations on your letters, to your sketchbooks, to your paintings, you're just brilliant! I'm so happy for you that you've gotten into PNCA, you definately deserve to go there, and I know you'll get so much out of the experience. I hopefully will be joining you there eventually. :) I'm so glad I decided to stay in Portland, it is partially because of you that I made the decision, you kept telling me how much you were going to miss me, and I knew I was going to miss you too much as well. You made it a point to bring up all of Portland's wonderful qualities and I just couldn't leave after hearing you talk about it, I would have missed this city too much, and everyone here, so weather that was on purpose on your part or not, thank you. You and your family have been such a huge support for me, I still remember one night on the phone with you and Becky when my mom found out about you and I, and she grounded me and went berzerk, and you two were talking to me, and then Donovan got on the phone, and she said so many sweet things I couldn't hardly believe it, it's like she cared more then my own mother. I don't know anyone as comfortable to curl up with as you are, I don't know anyone who would humor my letters like you, and write back with so many wonderful ones. I can't imagine what I would do with my time at night if I didn't have you to write to. I wish we had more time to just hang out. It seems like we get less and less as time goes by. With my mother being insane with the curfew, and us being busy anyway...it's just hard. We just have to get back to Orcas soon though! I miss it so much, and it was wonderful having you there with me. It would have been a completely different experience without you and your peaceful presense within the (sometimes) chaotic setting. And we simply have to make time for eachother after school starts up! I can't even imagine losing touch with you, and hey, who knows, maybe someday we will end up with the little house on the corner, with a marmalade cat and black labrador. I love you always, as ever, with all my heart. ~Your Blue |