I am deathly afraid of the following:
My story on how I realized that I was gay is an interesting one. I first began questioning my sexuality in second grade, so approximately when I was eight. I had a crush on two of my friends, a boy and girl. I didn't know it was a crush then but looking back now I see that it was. In 6th grade when I was twelve I finally found a label that fit me and that label was bi. I also had a girlfriend in sixth grade but she switched schools and ended up cheating on me. I was bi until my freshman year of high school. On October 11, 2002 I came out as bi. At the time I was dating a boy. My first boyfriend Ray, I can use his name because he's not in my social circle anymore, orally raped me the first time we met. Needless to say I broke up with him fast. I told him that if I were to prioritize the things I wanted to do seeing and talking to him would be at the bottom but I don't regret it. After I broke up with Ray I started dating another boy, but by then I had changed my label to gay. However this boy, his name was either Brendan or Brandon I can't remember, he used me and then he was like you're an asshole I don't want to talk to you anymore. I was left confused because he was being the asshole not me. My third boyfriend Matt didn't do anything like the other two. He just morally disgusted me. He had a mullet but that wasn't the reason I broke up with him. The reason I broke up with Matt was because he looked at child pornography. In june 2004 I went to my first Pride parade. Ray saw me and kept calling my name. I ignored him and then kept walking. I wasn't going to get involved with him. In August 2004 I changed my label to pansexual. Pansexual means that I didn't just date males and females but that I dated male to females and female to males etc. I was dating the same girl I was dating in 6th grade for most of 2004-2005. In July 2005 I broke up with her and labeled myself gay again. On October 25, 2005 I realized that part of me still likes girls and I contemplated going back to pansexual. I thought it was a real good idea at the time. But on October 27, 2005 I realized that I only like guys. On January 14, 2006 I got a new boyfriend. On February 18, 2006 I realized that my relationship with my boyfriend wasn't going anywhere and was one sided and I changed my label back to pansexual so I could ask one of my friends out that was a girl. She said no and that she never wanted to be my gf. It's all good now I'm over it. I got a call on the 19 My hobbies are reading, listening to music, hanging out with my friends, surfing the net, going to concerts, etc. I read all sorts of books. Some of my favorite books are:
I enjoy watching movies and musicals some of my favorites are:
I need to do more work on my year of study for Wicca. I have always been fascinated by the pantheons of Greek mythology and wondered why so many people only worship one god when all the ancient civilizations had multiple gods/goddesses. I belive in the duality of good and evil. I believe that everyone has good and evil within themselves. There are no truly evil people just as there are no truly good people. I also believe that whatever energy you send out be it positive or negative will come back at you thrice strong. I don't believe in Satan nor do I follow the path of Jesus. I know you're gonna tell me this but Wiccans are not Satanists. I don't try to force my religious beliefs on others. Everyone is free to their own religious beliefs.
I express myself through writing. I write poetry and songs to express my feelings. I am in the process of writing a novel. It's going to be gay fiction. I can't really describe what it's about not because it's explicit but because I can't find the words. There's a gay couple, a straight couple and a teen coming to terms with his sexuality. Um The Straight couple consists of one of the gay guys brothers who falls in love with a girl he just met on vacation. I started writing it in short story class. My page limit was 3-5 pages and it was 31.5 pages double spaced. If you really want to read it just send me an email. I am currently working on the second chaper and I'm fightng writer's block at the moment. I write fanfiction. For all of you who don't know listen up 'cause I'm only going to explain this once. Fanfiction is fiction written by fans of movies, books, or TV shows. You take the original characters and write your own story involving them. I also write slash fiction. Slash fiction is generally fanfiction with male/male pairings. There is also femslash wich is just like slash fiction except it's female/female.
I work as a courtesy clerk for Safeway. That means I bag groceries and caryy them out to people's cars. I also have to put things people don't want back on the shelf. These are known as "go-backs". In addition to that I escort people to things if they can't find it.
I listen to all sorts of music. My favorite genres are darkwave, gothic rock, classic rock, glam rock, arena rock, psychedelic rock, southern rock, punk, emo, screamo, ska, J rock, heavy metal, thrash & speed metal, black metal, death metal, trance and techno. Some of my favorite bands/artists are: