Kurama ish an anime character and i have to deal with the negativities of that fact. Some include that i can never actually talk to him or see him in person. Or that i can never hold him in my arms and tell him how much i love him... But there are some good things about it. Not that i'd prefer him being an anime character; i'd rather he was real and that i could see him on a daily basis. But an advantage i guess i could say ish that he could never hurt me. With all the real people in the world, most of which i've met are total jerks. Though i currently have a boyfriend that i love too, i'm not in love with him like i am with Kurama. He understands that though i sometimes feel bad about it. He loves me and yet and i cant bring myself to love him equally. I put Kurama first before him. My heart still rests with Kurama and for a very long time, it will remain there. I dont think my love for him will diminish, it's just too strong.
okay, true story. i'm writing this piece for another story i'm currently writing with a friend. (we take our own characters and we put them together in the story and see how they react) and my character, Teku, ish together with Kurama. they had 2 children, Hiei and Serenity. Well, Teku dies and Kurama ish left with only this two children and older Hiei (he lives with them because he secretly loves Teku) well, on one night, it's late at night and Hiei and Serenity come running into the bedroom that Kurama and Teku shared. Hiei's off somewhere and not in the house. Only Kurama ish inside, mourning the death of his loved one. anyway, the two children run inside, crying. they just had a nightmare and they usually run to their mother, Teku, for comfort. well, they run around the house and can't find her. they run to Kurama and ask him "Where's mommy?! Where is she?" and Kurama responds, "Mommy's gone...she wont be coming back." then the children say that they miss her and cry even more. they hug Kurama and cry on him. Kurama in turn, starts to cry and says, "I know! I miss her too." they cry together all night.
the point of that story, i didn't get to it. when writing that piece, i started to cry myself. if you see the paper i was writing on, u'll see there's water wrinkles on it. i cried on the paper and u can see it. i felt how much pain Kurama was in and i cried for him. loving someone can do that to you.
I have rambled on long enough and you must be sick of reading all this crap. Thanx for reading it though. i had to get all this off my chest and what better way to do with than putting it up on my website and share with with others. ^_^
