In Limbo cont’d

 

I’m beginning to get a glimmer of understanding of what the Cosmos requires of me,

If I follow out those directions it’s a whole new person that I shall become eventually.

The decision is not easy for it is an enormous step that I will then have to take,

I’ll have only the one chance to get it all right so I must continue to deliberate.

 

For until the road ahead is clear it would be most foolish to make a single change,

It is all so challenging that the rest of my life I shall have to completely rearrange.

For our time on planet earth is limited and there is so much that I will have to achieve,

To ensure that my life purpose is as intended, then I can be at peace with all I believe.

 

In a few short weeks I shall know more about my chromosomes and what it is I ought do,

To make the changes that have been outlined for I’ll have an understanding that is new.

About this XXY factor and the way that it makes me want to act, to think and to feel,

For at this present moment it is as if it all is overwhelming, devastating and unreal.

 

It is not as if I do not wish to make these changes and become all that I’d like to be,

It’s that it’s not one might expect when you have an understanding of practical philosophy.

But if that is what I am meant to do there will be a very good reason for it to be so,

So I’d better continue with my contemplation for all to soon I’ll have to let you know.

 

So how will you all react, my friends and even more so my three children and my wife?

I have a feeling that most will have no problem in accepting it; after all it is my life.

That I will have to make these changes to and become the person that I’d really like to be,

And if you cannot accept it doesn’t really matter for I’m the one who shall be truly free!

 

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