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Friday 03-14-03 : Entry #2 Time To Get Over Him Time to get over him.. .......I'm trying.. but I actually love him. I wish he'd die.. .......I'd cry.. but I'd live. No I don't.. .......His death would bring me more pain. I want him to live.. .......But to feel the pain. Is he glad I'm hurt.. .......Or does it matter at all? Maybe that was his intentions all along.. .......No, surely no one is that malicious. Oh well, time to get over him. .......Nice try.. but I actually loved him. .........................~Jason Vick Friday 03-14-03 Hmm.. do I only write in here when I have a break up? It seems that way. So yea.. I've been dating this guy Will for a few months now and as you've probably figured out by now, it's over. We only officially dated a little over a month but we were together longer than that as a couple. We just never found the perfect time to 'ask' each other out and I guess it eventually became too late. In the meantime, I had quit my job, moved to Atlanta to be with him, found another job and literally given up the life I had. Granted, it wasn't anything to be proud of but at least I had something and now i'll have nothing. Now, since he and I are no longer together, he tells me to get out and gives me five days to do it. All the while, I have to sleep on the couch because he now deadbolts his bedroom door shut at all times so that I can't get in while he is out partying all night long. He's done that ever since I told my friend I caught him kissing his "best friend". But oh well, it happened, I saw it, and I'm gonna tell who I want to tell. So, I've come to another conclusion on gay relationships... Whether or not you SAY you're a couple from the moment you meet and/or become interested in each other; from that moment, most gay guys can't handle being monogamous much longer than three months. Tuesday 11-19-02 Okay, so I woke up... :-\ Nick and I have been broken up for about 2 months now. It ended just as suddenly as it began. No warning at all. Perfect relationships DO end. Therefore, I've determined that all relationships end so what's the use in trying anymore? What's the use in caring? I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of being hurt. No one I'm interested in ever wants to put as much effort into a relationship as I do, so I give up. All I've ever really wanted was someone constant in my life. I've never really had that. It seems no one ever really wants anything meaningful... even the people I call my friends. They all move on eventually. Well, I suppose I'll live. I've been through enough breakups to know that by now.. but it still hurts. Maybe even more now than it did then because at least I had hope then. Now I just feel doomed to an endless circle of pain. Dramatic, I know. But at this point it's how I feel. "Life sucks, and then you die." I love that quote. I believe it. But, on a lighter note.. My sister had her baby! =) Michael Alexander Snyder, 5 lbs 6 oz. Born on Oct. 11th which was exactly one month before he was supposed to be born but he's doing fine and is as healthy as can be. Here is a picture of him that I took right after he was born and here is the picture taken by the hospital. Well, I have lots more to talk about.. some good, some bad.. but I will wait until my next entry. A lot of things have happened since I've last written here and it's just too hard to fit it all in.. So, until next time.. Adios mis amigos. P.S. - Here are those pictures I've been promising... Nick & I and my car. A little late I know, but at least they're here now. :-\ Wednesday 07-24-02 My, oh my.. how one life can change so drastically. And that's not a complaint. Quite the opposite. For the past 2 months now, as of the 19th, I've been seeing this really great guy named Nick. I actually believe that I've found the guy I could spend the rest of my life with. He's sweet, funny, cute, smart and just plain fun to be around. I'm miserable when we're not together because I feel like a piece of me is missing. It may sound like the corniest thing that you've ever heard but I truly believe he completes me... we complete each other. We get along better than I've ever gotten along with anybody in my entire life and we hardly EVER fight or argue or disagree on anything.. it's almost unreal. I'm afraid that any minute now i'm going to wake up from this dream I've been having and I'll be heartbroken; Heartbroken over something that never really existed. Don't let anyone ever tell you that you can't find true love over the internet because it's not true. Know how Nick and I met? It was this site, my site! He found it one day while he was online and emailed me from it and that was all it took.. love at first email... LoL. We hit it off right away and hopefully we'll be together for a long time to come. Also, another exciting thing that has happened to me is that I finally got a car! It's a Black 4-Door 94 Nissan Sentra. I'm so excited, I can finally come and go as I please and don't have to ask for rides. Well, I'll put a picture of Nick and my new car up here soon but, for now, it's late and I have to be up early for work so I am headed for bed.. Catch ya on the flip side.. P.S. - I'm officially going to be an uncle ;-) Wednesday 05-08-02 Hey guys! =) What's up? I just got pictures of my sister's baby and I wanted to share them with everybody.. hehe. They're not sure what it is yet (so I don't know if I'm an aunt or an uncle... hahaha) but here are the pictures from her sonogram.. 
(Click the pictures to enlarge.) PS: I also finally put up a lot of pictures of me so that you don't have to go searching through the Gallery wondering.... "Is that Him?".. hahaha. You can get to it by just clicking here . Tuesday 04-16-02 Okay, as usual, it's been a while since I've updated. I really need to start doing this more often and I probably will now that I'm single again. Come to find out, Chris "didn't know who he was". That seems to be the line I get from a lot of guys. But,oh well, I guess I'll get over it. In the meantime, I'm working on a page of pictures of just me. Hopefully that will be up and running soon.. we'll see. Well, c'ya round! ;-) Tuesday 02-19-02 Hey! I updated again.. hehe. I now have a Guestbook! YAY!! Everyone rejoice! Ok, is my life boring enough already? Hahaha. Well, you can now Sign and View my Guestbook as you please. Just be nice.. ok? I DO edit it and nothing gets posted before it goes through me. I'm planning on having a poll with different questions ever so often so that people who sign my guestbook can voice their opinions about things also. The Question up right now is.. Do you think that Sexual Orientation is a choice? And this is what I put.. "No, I believe that it's something we are born with. It's genetic. If it was a choice then why would so many gays and lesbians choose to live a life that is so despised by our society? Why would someone want to live a life full of hatred and bigotry directed at them if they could help it? That's why so many of us choose to stay in the closet. Not speaking is easier than defending your right to speak and be heard but it gets you nowhere." ~Jason aka: "QBall" Thursday 02-07-02 It's been a few weeks since I've written here so I figured I'd better do another update.. hehe. Lately I've been seeing a really sweet guy named Chris.  (Click the picture to enlarge it.)
We've been hanging out everyday for the past week and things are going pretty good so far. I've known him for quite a while and he's been wanting to date me for almost a year now I'd say. I'm glad I finally gave in. Saturday 01-19-02 Well, last night I went to Backstreet in Atlanta and I had a blast. I was sitting at home thinking it was gonna be another boring, lonely Friday night when my best friend Kevin calls. He's like "What are you doing?" and of course the answer was "Just sitting here bored to death." LOL So, he tells me "Good, then get off your lazy ass and get dressed because we're going to Backstreet and you'd better be ready when I get there or I'm leaving your ass!" OK, yes, I'm notorious for NEVER being ready on time, but I was ready when he got here and he, Katria (our straight girl friend), and I all went to Backstreet together. Friday 01-18-02 Okay, I just thought I'd take a look at how my picture was doing on Hot or Not and I was REALLY surprised! I mean.. LOOK! LOL.. A 9.4! WOW! Kinda perked me up on and otherwise depressing day, considering my edit of the last entry.. :-\
Wednesday 1-16-02 - Edited 2 days later Hey! I'm Jason, a 22 GWM.. SINGLE Welcome to my new site! Well, actually, welcome to my old site that has been given a facelift. It's about time because it's been forever since I've even updated it. In the next few days/weeks you'll probably be seein' a lot more changes, hopefully. |