*******AN ANGEL SENT FROM ABOVE*******
TO MJ:):)...... an original writing nov/2006
I guess it's come down to this:)>>>
I guess it's come down to this:)>>>
for now u saay I am nuts ? 12-28-06
AAAAAnd ur like the angel sent from
my own heaven to meet and greet me:)....and escort
me through the days as we go on in life...now u can also fly with the angels too :) well...with instructor johnny's help fer now, but soon,,,u shall be able to fly alone:)...now wont that be too kewl fer skewl:).....frm biker 2 skytriker:)
Love ur spiritual &.emotional body my lady MJ:)...and ur ways and perceptions of the werld:)...thanks for the gentle suggggestive counsoling u have done with me also...it is doing lots of good to me in my mind to have someone here to call me on my own stuff and also someone to help by suggestin the right thing to do ,,,or remind me of which 1 it is:).....any how thanks,thanks bunches and bunches,,,,,,MJ:) *(*@*@*)*~~ferbeinU
AAAAAnd ur like the angel sent from
my own heaven to meet and greet me:)....and escort
me through the days as we go on in life...now u can also fly with the angels too :) well...with instructor johnny's help fer now, but soon,,,u shall be able to fly alone:)...now wont that be too kewl fer skewl:).....frm biker 2 skytriker:)
Love ur spiritual &.emotional body my lady MJ:)...and ur ways and perceptions of the werld:)...thanks for the gentle suggggestive counsoling u have done with me also...it is doing lots of good to me in my mind to have someone here to call me on my own stuff and also someone to help by suggestin the right thing to do ,,,or remind me of which 1 it is:).....any how thanks,thanks bunches and bunches,,,,,,MJ:) *(*@*@*)*~~ferbeinU
*Far beit from acceptance a harder thing to do is*
To Fall in love - To fall from grace?Gettin Deep - part 1
Falling in Love has been getting a bad rap lately! i think
Supposedly more sophisticated types suggest that falling in love is an illusion? a state of
non-reality becaues it is based on faliure to see the "love object" as a real human being.
According to this view then "real" love sets in only at the end of infatuation. A beautiful
smile or dreams of greatness, for instance, are not considered as real as ones tendency
to squeeze the toothpaste from the top of the tube!
From a illumined perspective, falling in love is not neurotic but rather one of the
genuinely non-neurotic things we do on this earth. Falling in love is an effort to retrieve
paradise, that dimension of bliss where no one is blamed for anything and everyone is
fully appreciated for who they are. When we fall in love, we drop for however breif a time
our tendency to judge. We suspend our dis-belief and eschew our faithlessness in
another human being.
What ussually happens after that is not that we finally wake up to reality, what tends to
happen after that is that we fall asleep to reality. We cannot seem to wake up to our
brothers imperfections, because the perception of imperfection is itself a non awakened
state. Our spiritual perfection is not altered by our imperfect personalitys we all have.
Seeing perfection is seeing the light. Falling in love is not an illusion, as much as
Falling out of love is a fall from grace.
What we see when we fall in love is not an illusion but the most absolute "truth" in life.
We want to fall in love because we want so much to return to God. Of course we want to
escape the darkened world. We want desperately to go home to a place where we can
see how truly beautiful we are as a human being.
Some people say that falling in love is a state of denial!? well it is auctually! think about
it,,,> in love < we are in a positive denial: a denial of darkness. When that occurs we
then start to believe the serpent's lies - we begin to see good and evil " i love him, but
he doesnt make enough money or i love her but "shes too high maintenence".
for SPIRIT has now celebrated how wonderful they are; now the negative mind gets
to celebrate how guilty they are. is the EGO's Orgasm!
Most People do not have the courage , strength, nor personality to Love
without judgement. And so as a result Love's magic dies casting
Adam and Eve out of the paradise they created.
As our minds are illumined, we become better at being human.
We become better at Forgiveness and Support and Love.
The enlightened one will will not be one in which no one ever falls
in Love. The enlightened world will be one in which everyone is
in love with everyone all the time. There will be no Judgement,
therefore no blocks to the awareness of love.We will
see each other as God created us; the perfect, loving and lovable
people we really are at the core. The purpose of romantic
love is to jump start our enlightenment!
Romance vs. Love?
Yes there is a difference between romance and love. Often the true
path of love only begins when romance has begun to taper off,
for love is the capacity to see light where darkness has begun to
eclipse it. Love is easy when romance still lights everything in
shades of pink. The sunset color we love so much, When the
experience of a relationship is like the canvas of a sweet
Impressionistic painting. Once the reality? of our woundings
reveals the darkness still lurking in all of us, Romance
might die, but while all the while True LOve never does.
Many people are proficient at romance who are not very
proficient at love. They see the humanesss of their partner
and say, Nah I now want romance again? Then the start
all over elsewhere in diff circumstances ego chosen and not
the will of god, To begin again on that path leads to
no where but to the exact same place with another soul.
The choice to follow Love through to its completion is the
choice to seek completion within ourselves!
The point at which we shut down on others is the point we shut down on life!
We heal as we heal others, and we heal others by extending our
perceptions past their weaknesses. Until we have seen someones
darkness, we don't really know who that person is.
Until we have forgivin someone's darkness, we don't really
know what love is. Forgiving others is the only way to forgive
ourselves, and forgiveness is our greatest need.
Running away from someone else's darkness is in fact a
way of running away from our own, in the false belief that in
running we can escape, and think to believe we want out because our ego
believes it is not our fault but the others.
But we cannot escape. For Our self-loathing will always meet us
down the raod , no matter how fast we run and what fancy footwork
and words the ego is doing. Failure to see our judgement of others as
an extension of our judgement on ourselves denies healing to
both people - until the next time the same lesson will come around
with which it will, in the short order of time.
Without Forgiveness, Love has no meaning! It has no fullness nor
maturity. Only when 2 people have shown each other the worst
side of their natures are they truly ready to begin. How tragic this always
seems to be in my past that so often the folks in judgement Stop
Everything? just as we reach the starting line?
That is why we must always pray(wait) to see the truth about a
relationship: not just our truth but God's truth. " May God's will be done,
not my own" is the Prayer for the ultimate fullfillment because it
seeks an emotionally higher ground than the fullfullment of
our immediate desires. We move past the narcissistic preoccupation
with getting the love we think? "works" for us. The point of Love is
to make us grow, not to make us immediately happy.
Many of us have forsworn the chance for the deepest Love of all
in escaping to another and reaching out for an easier 1?
Now about Intimacy
The whole purpose of an intimate relationship and partnership is
for us to alike midwife the perfection and mirror it in one another.
The point of LOve is to reveal to us the LIGHT INSIDE. This is the lwsson
we are meant to learn and that in 1 way or another we will learn in time.
If we are unconscious about these issues, if we fail to live up to the
sacred challenges of loving another person, then we will experience
disastrous relationships, and the disasters will motivate us to grow.
Although the soul in love never changes.
If we are conscious and careful, then we experience the processes of growth
through the joys of love instead of pain. It is said in the Kaballah,
the jewish system of mystical wisdom, that leaning over every blade of grass
there is an angel saying "Grow Grow Grow"
There is that same angel over every relationship, shoving us into
the next stage of our development whether we are cracked open by
the light or cracked open by the despair. We have a choice
whether or not to love, : but we have no choice in the
matter of whether to or not to grow.
Our intimate love is our partner on a holy adventure. With this
person, we are given the chance to move into the center of things.
In the spiritual space of intimate connection, we have the power to heal
and the power to be healed!
In order to be healed, we must reveal our wounds. And so it is that the person
with whom we share the deepest Love is often the one with whom we
share the deepest pain. For when we hold a person deeply in our hearts,
we hold their darkness as well as their light. We must accept both faces.
The ability to accept our partners darkness and our willingness to reveal our
own make us vulnerable to wounding. But these are sacred wounds
They are the Prelude to sacred healing.
Intamacy does not mean that both people are perfect by any means.
It doesnt even mean that 1 person is perfect. It means that the 2 people
understand that we are all wounded and are all here to be healed. The key to
empowerment in any area is understanding it's purpose. and the
purpose of intimacy is healing and healing comes forth from the love.
Honoring our connection to another person is another way of honoring God.
A Relationship is more of an assignment than a choice.
A powerful connection between 2 people is a potent psychic factor
that exists regardless of either person's opinion about the
relationship. We can walk away from the assignment, but we will never
be able to walk away from the lessons it presents.
Sweeping God's challenges and assignments under the rug doesn't get
rid of the problem; Because the universe is Hologramatic, failure
to complete in one area will always be reflected elsewhere. We
should stay with a relationship till the lesson is learned or we will simply
learn it another way.
If HONEST Communication between 2 people isn't extended to the point
of resolution and peace, the energy will attach to the pysche of both
people and appear again as wounding in another relationship.
Intimacy is depth of learning!
The Bible Doesn't say the Adam and Eve were together for a long time,
but it does say that they were naked and embarrassed. Intimacy means that
they were naked and free. Sometimes in that nakedness, what we reveal
is how a far apart we are. If we are afraid to reveal that, the distance
remains. Intimacy means we are safe enough to reveal the truth in
all it's creative chaos;(what i was doing?) That is how the wounds of
man are exircised. If a space is created in which two people are totally
free to reveal thier walls, those walls, in time, come down.
Commitment is not just to the other person, but to the experience of
truth. ur goal is not perfect form, but perfect content. We musn't try to get
a relationship to fit into the ego's plans, but rather to learn ho the relationship
fits into God's plan. Only Honest Communication can guide us in this pursuit.
I f there is no honesty between the 2 in a pelationship and there is hidden judgement
then the opinion of the one holding the judgement cannot trust their own self to
be in the truth of it all, with that said then On any given day that the truth is
communicated between a couple, the couple builds up a negative mass
that will explode in their faces in time.
Many times we don't share the truth because we're afraid it would upset the
other person to hear how we feel:(...I’m feeling Catastrophic?"
"I feel ignored" etc etc... Negative emotions, however, have a place in intimacy!
They need to be REVEALED in order to be detoxed. Having negative emotions
doesn’t make us bad. Thinking that they do is what keeps so many people from
exposing their emotions i think. It is when our feelings - ALL FEELINGS -
are revealed appropriately and then forgiven that we have a chance to heal.
Feelings need to be accepted as they are, before they can transform.
In the presence of light - and non-judgemental listening is light!----
----all truth moves on to a higher level then.
We needn’t ever worry that if we really get to the truth in a situation, the truth
might be dark. The opposite is true. The ultimate truth is always light,
because inevitably all things eventually end up in God.
It is REPRESSED TRUTH that is dark. Or REPRESSED
JUDGEMENTS OR ILLUSIONS.
When nagativity is kept inside, it smolders and festers and
ultimately finds its way into disfunctional and destructive expression.
As soon as you start trying to hide in ur Darkness, you are
bound to HIDE UR LIGHT:(
This i think is the spiritual meaning of intimacy then:
Growth Inward, past our masks and fears and recklessness,
to the sacred place where we are naked before God and each other.
On our Journey home, we go past many false faces on ourselves and
on our beloved. Intimacy is where we are willing to move so deeply into
Love that demons do not deter us from our conviction to make it through
the love to the light. :( How tragic it is, that we often turn our faces from
each other when the work of healing has only just begun:( We must not
We must not confuse the face of the devil with too much water under the
bridge as an excuse. For it is when the darkness has started its teribble
drumrolls that the wise person knows to attend and to take care!
The light is never very far behind, if only we would be willing now to stay
on the path of the open heart! (which ur love has given me)
The real key to intimacy is the commitment to honesty and to the
radical forgiveness neccessary in order for honesty to be safe.
Forgiveness and acceptance and acceptance are the powers that heal us.
Denial and running from the truth never does anything but put us farther
into our own past to be shown the lessons all over again:(
So, intimacy means we will not forgo the possibility of further
connection (this i pray 4 2 day)
And that we will commit not only to tell the truth, but to be willing to
listen without judgement and to the best of our ability without hysteria.
We shall allow each moment to organically move into the next, without
interference from our fearful posturing.
It seems then we must have more faith in the power of Love to
eternally renew itself than in the power of fear to tear us asunder.
The Spirit does not< turn away from frailty nor conflict,
(for the ego does this) The spirit sees them as merely wounds to heal.
The love and intimacy i feel challenges us to seek a higher level of
participation than the limited thought forms of romantic delusion
or false morality. This new love seeks authentic engagement
before superficial agreements. It means that we will always try
to show up for love! It is an adult activity and seems at times a very
difficult persuit for most..that is... (till ya find it finally after 50 yrs:)
This kind of love takes effort and PERSEVERANCE and a
tolerence for emotional pain, for it is in this we are now cutting through the
defenses we have built up over a whole lifetime. Love like ours that
we have built and aquired is auctually a very courageous adventure.
And some dont have the courage to see it through:(, this kind of
courage demands great respect for ourselves and for others.
The art of intimacy is litterally possibly the art of the angels.
FOR IT IS THE ART OF LEARNING TO FLY BEYOND THE DARKNESS
OF THE WORLD.
When done poorly, intimacy can lead to great pain:( When done well
it strikes the Devil(against>lived) in the center of the forehead!
So to end this is my prayer to help me in this time of dis-belief:(?
Dear God
Please continue to make my relationship the great and holy adventure it is,
May or Joining when we meet again be that of a Sacred Space.
May the two of us find rest here, a haven for our souls!
Please remove from us any temptation to judge one another or to
direct one another.
May we both surrender to you God our conflicts and burdens.
We know and knew u are our answer and our Rock!
help us not to forget this...for without faith in u it will not work.
Bring us together in heart and mind as well as body.
Remove from us the temptation to be mean or to
criticize or be cruel.
ay we not be tempted by fantasies and projections.
Help to guide us ion the ways of holiness and love.
Save us from the darkness that abounds.
May this relationship be a burst of new light:!
May it be a fountain of love and wisdom for us, for our family,
for our community, and for our world.
May this bond be a channel for ur love and healing,
a vehicle of ur grace and power lord.
As the new Lessons come and go and the challenges grow,
let us not be ever tempted to forsake each other.
Let us always remember that in each other we have the
most beautiful woman, and the most beautiful man.
The strongest one,
The sacred one(you mj) in whose arms I are repaired.
and ur spirit in mine also U repaired the same way<
May we always remain young in this relationship for we
both recgonize the old souls we are.
May we grow wise in this relationship.
Bring us what u desire for us,
And show us how You would have us be!
Thank You God for listening to my prayer !
I pray you hear me and help to make us strong
for i think u are the only cement between us each and every day.
quarksire
2007-02-14 09:09:07 GMT