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Here I sit,In total darkness,
With only my tears
to keep me company.
My mind is ablaze.
Thousands of thoughts,
Yet no words to speak my mind.
No shoulder to cry on.
Only myself to comfort my tears.
Nobody knows why I sit here.
Not even myself can interpret my thoughts.
I cant live with myself anymore.
I'm packing up.
I'm leaving.
I'm twirling around.
A rollercoaster with no stop.
Self-contradictory thoughts
In no shape or pattern.
Just anger with no angry thoughts.
Just living without life.
Just death without being killed.
I don't know where to stop.
Where to start.
When to run.
And when to hide.
I'm falling.
Faster and faster.
But there's no bottom.
There's no top.
I can't die.
I can't live.
I'm so confused I don't know
What to do next.
I'm just sitting here.
No way out.
But I'm packing up.
I'm leaving.
------------ Kill You -------- I'm gonna do it someday, Just you wait and see. Someday I'm gonna kill you, Just like everyone else. You won't have to bear me any longer, You can't even see. You won't have to bother any more, You can't even breathe. It could happen anywhere. I'll knife you in your throat, Pull it out, Clean it off, And leave you there to rot. Soon your folks'll come along And see your horrible mess. They'll cry and sob and think of Who would stab you to your death? They'll come looking for me. The cops. I've killed many lost souls now, And they want me locked away. They'll never understand why I did it. But know one gives a sh*t. Hell, they want me dead. And dead I so shall be.
------------ Help ----
Help. Im trapped. Im blocked. Im never gonna be released. All I need is some help. Some friends. Is it too much to ask For a normal life? Im sitting here, Shaking, Frightened of breathing My next breath. All I need is some help. Is it ever gonna happen? Can I ever be released? Can I ever get some help? So many questions. So little time. Life is short. I want to make the most of it while it's here. But im sitting here, Shaking, Frightened of living as me.