The years for me passed like minutes for a mortals. It had now been almost 100 long years since I left my home and the Balance of Nine, as I now refer to them. Kashya was even more rebellious now than ever before. Then again, I don�t blame her. After all, she barely knows who I am. She rarely calls me mother anymore. But that is my fault, for I have learned to keep my distance. If you aren�t close to someone, you can�t get hurt.
Well, I have moved several times in these past years. I have spoken more languages then I ever thought possible before I became a vampire a century ago. My residence is now in Rome, Italy. Being now an older, more powerful vampire, I am able to assert my territory.
I met another vampire who got me and Kashya our own little apartment. His name is Ran. Tenaka has all ready told me all about him. Ran is her brother but he looks so different from Tenaka. He stands over 6� tall and has short red hair with long bangs hanging below his dark violet eyes. He has shown an interest in me, but not just because I�m the so-called �Guardian of Darkness�, but because I�m a woman, as he has said several times. I have known him for a few years now.
What about Kiyami, you ask? She stayed in Russia when I left, for she still had business to take care of. What of my feelings? That�s a good question. I do have feelings for Kiyami... But now I�ve got feelings for Ran.
You know you only like him because he�s my brother and you know he can give you what I could not, Love. Tenaka said.
I know that, Tenaka, I�m not stupid. I would love to have a child that shares your blood, even if it�s not yours. Tenaka laughed slightly in my head.
Well, I�d like that too. Imagine another little vampire running around, with my blood in its veins. I smirked slightly.
I was out on the hunt. I strolled the desolate dark streets of Rome clad in all black. Leather pants, tube top, trench coat and arm boots were my clothing. My katana rode at my waist, as it always did when I was out hunting. My mid-back length brown hair was loose, flowing behind me as my desolate, hungry eyes searched for my prey.
I located one and smirked evilly. I closed in on him silently. I jumped him, holding his mouth shut, drowning out his cries. My fangs sunk deeply in to his neck and I began to drain his blood. I took almost every last drop. Before I took it all, I let go, drew my sword and sliced his head off. His body fell limply to the ground. I sheathed my sword and disposed of the body.
As I walked back towards my apartment, I felt Ran. I looked over my shoulder to see him coming up to me. He quickly reached my side. He grinned down at me.
�Why are you smiling at me like that?� I asked, eyeing him slightly.
�I like to watch you in action. You have a good form and you handle your sword with ease.� I looked at him more closely.
�I see.� We walked on in silence. I kept my eyes focused on the path ahead. He slid his hands in to the front pockets of his pants. When we reached my apartment, he just stood there, looking at me. I stopped in the doorway, turned and looked at him. �Yes?� I asked, knowing he wasn�t going to leave quite yet.
You know what he wants, Love and you know he won�t leave tonight until he gets every ounce of it. Tenaka said.
�I want you, Akuma. I have wanted you for a while now. I just haven�t had the guts to say so.� I eased slightly on my feet.
�If it�s me you want, come and get me.� Ran didn�t need any further words. He stepped foreword, pulling me in to his arms. He bent down and kissed me.
My hand found the doorknob, turned it and we both went inside, not breaking the kiss. I slammed the door shut just before Ran swept me around, pulling my trench coat off, tossing it aside and pinning me against the wall. His hands trailed up my sides, over my shoulders and through my hair.
My hands slid his shirt up. We broke the kiss momentarily as I pulled his shirt off, tossing it aside. His mouth moved to my neck, kissing it gently. His hands moved down my back to pull my tube top off. My bra soon followed my top.
Ran�s mouth kissed across my collarbone and across my chest. I closed my eyes, fingers lightly trailing across his chest. His tongue slid across the skin of my chest, moving down slowly. I groaned as my hands slid down his stomach. I slipped one hand inside his pants. He, in turn, groaned.
Ran�s hands trailed down my back and slipped around to the front, undoing my pants. My other hand worked on his pants. They soon hit the floor, with his underwear following a moment later. I looked down and saw his dick was already hard. I grinned as my hands played with it.
His mouth kissed its way around my torso. Ran dropped my pants to the floor, soon followed by my underwear. I could tell he was losing control of himself. My grin grew wider. He worked his mouth back up to mine. He planted a deep kiss to my lips as he grabbed me and lifted me up higher. He put himself between my legs and held on to my ass.
I wrapped my arms around his neck as he pressed me hard against the wall. His dick entered me. His kiss grew deeper as he began to rock his hips up and down slowly. As the minutes passed, Ran picked up speed and each time drove harder and deeper inside me. My back slid up and down the wall. Sensations I hadn�t felt in a long century resurfaced as Ran fucked me harder and faster and deeper.
Ran broke the kiss to cry out as he shot his load inside me. He kept moving inside me, not stopping yet. A few moments later, Ran grabbed me, swung me around and came down on top of me on the couch. We spent another 30-40 minutes on the couch.
A few hours later, after Ran had left and I had straightened myself and the couch up, Kashya returned. She didn�t even glance at me as she walked down the hall to her room. She closed the door.
Well, now that was an experience, I�m sure, for you. Tenaka said.
What makes you say that?
Well, you haven�t been with a man in a little over a century and Ran tends to be an animal in bed. Tenaka chuckled slightly. I should probably explain this piece of Tenaka�s past. Tenaka�s parents where brother and sister. Tenaka is descended from a line of vampires whose blood should not be mingled outside the family too much. Her grandfather forced her parents together, thus Tenaka, and Ran, in turn, are products of inbreeding. Tenaka and Ran, later on, where forced to do the same. So, somewhere out there, Tenaka has a set of twins running around.
I see. I said with a slight laugh.
The months passed by like days to me. My daughter grew more distant from me and became more hateful of me. Ran and I were spending more and more time together. You want to know something? I�m pregnant again. I�m in the middle of my pregnancy. Kashya didn�t take it well and she got up and left.
So Ran and I are on our own now to raise this child. Hopefully this time I won�t screw up.
I am plagued by everything. I just want to stop moving foreword. If I stopped moving foreword, there wouldn�t be a past to haunt me. I�m haunted every moment of my being by something from my past.
I�m haunted by Tenaka. Now a ghost, she walks by my side every moment (Tenaka is the Phantom from the title of this chapter, if you haven�t guessed yet).
I�m haunted by myself. Oh how hopeless I have become because I keep dreaming of what could have been, what could be now and what could come if things where different (Anne, *coughs* I mean, Akuma, is the Dreamer).
I�m haunted by Ceres. The Original has told me what will happen if I fail my test and reminds me constantly of my failure at life (Ceres, then, is the Bringer. HA! I worked the chapter title in to the story!! Stop looking at me like that!!).
Heh, then again, my life lasted barely 18 years. Then Tenaka made me a vampire and here I am, one of the Undead.
How ironic it is, the Guardian of Darkness, doomed to walk the path of darkness forever, has become a vampire. Well, looks like I truly am damned. No one ever wanted me and now my life is being cursed because I shouldn�t exist.
Yes, I know this is getting depressing, but hey, my life is depressing, dammit, so get used to it.
No one cares about me anymore. I know for a fact the Guardians have forgotten about me and have moved on with their lives. Well, they don�t know it, but they�re the lucky ones. They don�t have to fight for every moment of their existence. As a vampire, you�re constantly either being pursued by enemies, demons and being controlled completely by your lust for blood.
Not to mention the fear of sunlight. We must take refuge in the shadows during the daylight hours.
One day, I will make the sun disappear and vampires will rule the world day and night with no fear of the damned sun and it�s light. One day, everything will be as I want it to be. And what I want is never-ending darkness.
I know time is moving quickly through the pages of this account of my life, but hey, if I wrote down everything that happened, it would be impossible to read because it would be the story that never ends. Heh, think of it, me, little old me, existing forever. I like the sound of that.
Anyways, I have a son now. Morgan is his name and he�s going on six months now. Ran and I are happy. Well, at least I appear to be happy. Inside, I�m completely empty and devoid of everything.
The last time I felt anything remotely close to emotion was when Morgan was born. It felt good to be a mother again. But as all my emotions did, the happiness quickly disappeared. Even when Ran and I are having sex I feel nothing.
What�s wrong with me, you ask? I don�t think I even know the full answer to that. I only know that what I�ve been through is enough to make anyone�s emotions die, too.
Well, I guess I�m living up to the name of the Lost Soul. *slight chuckling here* Well, you have absolutely no idea how well I�ll fit to that name by the end of this story. I�ll only say that what I go through will utterly change me forever. And it�s a change that isn�t good for anyone.
Unless, of course, you�re a child of the night.