Part Two
carried as he spoke.
"You would like me to enlighten you on what's going on up here huh?"
She points to her head as she looks back at him. "It could take some
time, but you probably came here expecting that." Giving a sigh she
looks back down at the table. "I guess a good place to start would be
my life. I know you've read my background. I'm an only child and
from a no name family. Me going to the Academy meant everything to
them. When Brian and his brother made me fall over the balcony I
wanted to give up and just leave. I'd had enough. Every time they
pulled a prank on me they took my control away, I got tired of it and
so I took the control of there lives from them. Even if it was only
for a little bit. I grew up thinking my career was all I was ever
going to have. I never got the chance at a life outside of that.
When Ziven..." Her voice almost stutters over his name but she
quickly continues. "When we got together I found a life outside of
what I knew. Then...my past came back to bite me in the ass...Don't
bother telling me it wasn't my fault...I'm beyond that. I think what
it is most is that I cant be there. I know he's still out there and I
cant stop him." She had to pause and get her breath. I wish I had
been there with the Count, maybe I could have protected him." Gabe had
to stop tears beginning to form. She hid her face in her arms on the
table so her voice was muffled but still clear enough to hear. " I
never wished anyone dead before. I don't want to even kill that
bastard. I want him to suffer. He shouldn't be aloud to run around
doing whatever he wants. I want to space him and watch as he tries to
scream... But no I'm stuck all the way out here unable to be anywhere
near him. I can't let it go...I can't stop thinking about him......."
She had picked her head back up at some point, fists clenched. "I
feel like I'm letting him win...I guess I punched him because he tried
to take my control from me" She stopped and looked back at the
Admiral for a long moment, not really sure what else she could explain
to him.
"I think I'd like one of those drinks now?"