Just what is the deal with my mind and dreaming I wonder? I have written many times in this journal about my varying levels of awareness while dreaming and this is yet another one. I was not fully conscious in this one, but I knew it was not �reality�. I was dreaming about Godzilla (the new one, not the old) and I recognized that it was a dream I had before. While I was in the dream and an active player, I also knew what was going to happen. I remember feeling mostly anticipation for the next �scene� to occur so I could play my part. I had no desire to alter the dream, but knew what was going to happen and how I was to react. It was sort of like being an actor in a movie. And the movie analogy is a pretty good one since that is what it was like, a movie. I had my part to play, but I wasn�t trying nor did I need to act. It was more like I was watching a movie I had made which was already recorded, but viewing it from within the character I was playing.
It just leads me to again to postulate different levels of awareness and where exactly these levels of awareness are housed. In this one, I felt no sense of my physical body that I usually have. It was as if I was simply my thoughts and mind, and no tangible substance. Simple energy flowing with no special attachment to matter. Fact is, I think I rather prefer that existence. The feeling of being free of physical obligation and interaction, but enjoying the �illusion� of it. Not having to worry about physical discomfort or need since it was only an experience and in essence did not affect my true being.
Anyway, that probably sounds a bit confusing, but what can I say? I just wonder how many other people experience and ponder such things.
Monday August 9th, 2004: The Bat Brigade!
Just a quick recording. It was really cool today because I was over at the neighbor�s house trimming trees and shrubs and it began to get dark. I was just finishing up in her yard and noticed a bat flying around in her yard. I watched it and it flew over into my yard, over the hedges. When I went into my yard by the big Cherry tree I then saw over a dozen big brown bats flying around the yard, near the tree. It was amazing! They were flying around as if in a frenzy. They would swoop very close to me (within 2-3 feet) and veer off in the last moments. I went and sat under the tree as the bats swooped in close to me. I thought perhaps they had made their home in the hollow hole in the bottom. It is a deep hole since the tree�s base is probably around four feet in diameter. It also is a small hole, right at the bottom of the tree, touching the ground and it goes up into the trunk, but it is small enough that I can�t tell how far. So it would be a perfect place for something to live in.
Anyway, after a while I got up and went to the driveway. At first, they followed and hovered around me a bit, but when I got far enough away they went back to flitting about the tree. It was interesting because I had never seen that many in such a small area. They seemed agitated at something, or maybe they were in a feeding frenzy. One thing is for sure, I am so glad to have them around since I hate these stupid mosquitoes. A single bat can consume up to 1,200 insects in an hour and so I say, �bring on the bats!� :-)
