When first I was touched by God�s essence it was primarily on the level of my emotional aspect. It made no sense logically or intellectually and I could not explain it. But his influence was such that it could not be denied. This was somewhere in the fall of 1988, probably in September or October judging by previous writings. It was a major turning point in my life which led to a greater sense of overall joy and appreciation of this life. It gave me some sense of meaning and in that eleven years I have learned much and have grown in both faith and understanding.
And now, in this second revelation, God has touched my intellect. But let me start at the beginning of what led up to it. Recently I had the opportunity to meet again Joey�s friend Tim. I could not explain why right away, but when Joey talked about him my desire to meet him was very strong. I soon realized it to be a manifestation of the �destiny effect� I have mentioned so many times before. It was that feeling of �right� that I wrote about in the last entry as well. Anyway, through our discussions and my readings of particle physics and it�s relations to life, my beliefs began expanding at an accelerated rate.
I had already graphed out roughly the four aspects of being and began study before meeting Tim, but our discussions led to new questions and to me seeking answers to my spiritual beliefs in direct correlation to science. I had already formed the basic idea and possibility that God (who in exodus 3:14 refers to himself as I AM) is himself all of creation. Himself the very universe and all possibilities of the universe. All of existence, both imagined or known and not. And it was Tim (the atheist) who loaned me the book �In search of Schrodinger�s cat� which is by John Gribbin and attempts to explain quantum theory.
It was through the words of this book that God came to touch my mind tonight. For as I read more, Truth began surfacing (which is the goal of both Science and Religion) and forming basic correlations between the Bible and quantum theory. Here are some points thus far which I admittedly must put more thought and study into, but will overview now.
Correlation #1: God says in exodus, I AM. This I believe means that he is the source and indeed can be considered all of creation. It also states in the Bible repeatedly that all things are known to him (omni sense). The book on quantum theory states that every particle seems to �know� what every other particle is doing at ANY point in time and that it is one great whole. This is the holistic view of the universe as covered in chapter 10.
Correlation #2: Jesus, who was God and was with God is referred to several times as �the light� in the book of John and that without him nothing that has been made could be made. He was there in the beginning (perhaps Genesis 1:3 means more than the literal). So also knowing from the Bible that Jesus is Truth and the law, I could say he is the �motion� or laws which govern creation. In Gribbin�s book, he states that time has no effect on light. It moves in either direction. In the Bible, Jesus is the Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last. Gribbin states that the absorption or emission of light or photons changes the energy states of matter affecting it�s chemical processes effectively. So as pointed out in the book, without light the universe wouldn�t exist. (It gives me chills.)
There are other correlations I see, but I must do further research to better define them. So with these two points �floating� in my brain I set out to sleep, but as I began applying these thoughts to reality as we know it, a sense of �right� came on stronger and stronger and once again I felt God�s spirit touch mine. Last time was emotional, this time my intellect could feel him as well. Once again I felt his presence, a strange feeling that defies both logic and emotional expression. I suppose I could call it an acceptance of this outlined theory I am coming to, but the tangible feeling of another �force� of existence or reality (somewhat, but not like a static charge) is present and I believe it therefore to be more than a mere idea.
I do acknowledge that this is merely another beginning. When God touched my heart it took me many years to understand and build my faith to what it is today. And now nearly 11 years later he has touched my mind. Who knows how long it will take for me to understand his will in this matter? And should I get there, will his spirit touch me in other ways? What about the physical, my body? Will he ever touch that aspect of my being on the level he has touched my heart and mind? How might that manifest? The old burning bush? A pillar of flame or like a dove descending as with Jesus? I can hardly imagine. I only hope it will indeed happen someday. But regardless of whether or not it does, I shall continue to trust what the spirit whispers, that �all is as it should be�.
~FIN
