8/3/2007
daniel simersons statement of abuse about what edward thomas simerson did to him when daniel was an child
danielsimerson@dcemail.com 

1 Ed simerson took me to a hotel room when I was a little boy and he raped me. He let me eat a chocolate bar and I was in my underwear. He took me and he would kiss me and say that he wanted to eat some chocolate then he would try to eat the chocolate that was in my mouth.  This led to him kissing me. He took me to the foot of the bed and he got behind me and he pulled down my underwear and raped me.  Then he denied what he had done by saying to me”son you know it’s not true right,right(angrily)!say it!”he forced me to say that it was not true even tho it was true.he had raped me.  Then he embraced me in an hug and patted me on the back saying that everything was going to be all right.

One time ed tried to drown me in the toilet.  I can feel myself choking on the water as he held me down. I was five years old.

I remember one time ed had his penis exposed as he layed down on  his back. I could not see his face but I knew it was him. His penis was gray in color. I see his penis go down and disappear beneath his leg. I am on his right side near his chest.  He says to me”that’s okay daddy will forgive you”

I remember these men surronding me in this room and exposing their penis and making me tell them which penis I thought was the biggest as if it was some game. Ed simerson was there looking on.

One time ed was molesting me in his gray suit and as he did this he kept saying over and over I love you I love you as he made me play with his  genitals.

Ed would take me to a group of men who would sexually molest me and rape me. They were in a house near these trees.
I remember being raped over and over anally by eds friends at the house.  He took me to.  There was another boy and he was forced to have sex to.  I was told to  pretend that I liked being fucked.  I did not,but I smiled and acted that way anyway.  I was in pain. The pain now feels distant disassociated , I was disgusted,scared and terrorfied of what the men were doing to me.  Two of the older boys took me into another bedroom and had sex with me on the floor. There were white sheets.  One of the men came into the room and filmed us having sex on the floor.

I remember my father forcing me to perform oral sex on my brother when I was ten or so.  He had his hand on the back of my neck and he squeezed it very hard saying to me “eat it”.  He wanted me to put my mouth on my brothers penis..

When ed took me to the group of men who had sex with me the boys were told to strip me and one of the men took a picture of my butt and called my crack an cunt.
Then one of the men took me to a back bedroom and there he raped me and the other boys were told to form an line and to grab each others crouches and to come to the room and see if the man got his penis all of  the way in me.  All of the boys were wearing panties.

I remember my dad and this other man made me have sex with them then they took turns raping me and rubbing their sperm on me.  This older man wearing glasses comes after this and he takes me into another bedroom and he puts petroleum jelly in my crack and he rapes me.

The men made me have sex with one of the other boys and then all of the boys got into bed with me while the men filmed everything. I still remember the bright lights shining down on the bed.

   I remember joan saying to me as a little boy”son you’ll never meet another woman like me,nobodies good enough for my little boy,my little man.

I remember my father and amother were making noises in their room and I came out of out room to see what was going on.  The bedroom was wide open and ed was on top of joan and they were having sex.  I thought they were clothed.  Ed says angrily to me”son what are  you staring at,motherfucker get in here and pull down your pants I will teach you what sex is all about, I will teach you a lesson”  I obey and I pull down my pants. 
2 I remember on one weekend visit my dad made me and my brother strip down to our underwear and get on this bed with him. He forced me to suck on his penis.  He said it was his birthday and he wanted us to do something special for him.  He wrestled with us and he made me rub his penis.  At one point I lay next to him and he rubbed my penis untill it was erect.  I remember laying with him and being so afraid of him that I wanted to do what he said for me to do so he would not hurt me. Sadly it was the only way I could get him to say”I love you”.

I remember my mother being a tall women(all adults look tall to you when you are a little boy) and grabbing me by the hair and punching me in the face and slapping me untill I bled.

I remember my father made no took me to a group of men and made me have sex with them.    They made me put on panties like I was in an contest.  Then each of the men took me back into this room and raped me.  They made me wear panties and pose with an trophy.  They called me their”panty boy of the year”. This one man an older man took me into this back room down an hallway telling me he had something he wanted to show me. There were other kids in the living room and they were watching t.v..  the older man took me into this room and showed me this train track at the foot of this bed.  He told me that I could be an engineer and that I could even where an hat but that I had to do something first and he told me that I had to take off all of my clothes.  This was before I was made to put on panties. The man gave me an engineers cap and I put it on.  But he forced me to take all of my clothes off. Then he says”now your going to have to trust me”.  Then he took pictures of me on the bed.  Then the man raped me.  This man brought over his two daughters and they forced me and the boys to have sex with them.
The men made me go to the boys in the living room and lay down wwith them. Then the boys took off my panties and they were forced to rape me.
There were contest to see who would be the next panty boy. We were forced to strip so that the men could see how long our penis’s were. Whoever had the longest penis won. 
They made me pose for pictures with an trophy when I was the panty boy.
The boys were watching cartoons. They were special sexuall cartoons.

When my father raped me and I had nightmares about it he would tell me that  it meant what he was doing to me was not working and that he needed to rape me some more.

I think I was ten years old when the following took place.

Ed simerson took me to an hotel one time and he had me take off my clothes but he had me leave  my underwear on.  He walked up behind me.  He ran his fingers through my hair then he caressed and massaged my shoulds. Then ed pressed himself up against me from behind and I felt something pressing against my back. I looked behind me to see that it was his erect penis in his underwear. He grabbed my head and forced me to turn back around. He rubbed my shoulds and made remarks about how tender and nice they were. He called me a pretty young thang. He pressed his erection up against my back. Then he began rubbing my chest muscles especially wear I would some day develop tips.  Then he slid his hands down to my stomach and began rubbing it. He then put his hands in my underwear and grabbed my penis and began rubbing it.

I have this memory of me being forced to have sex and rape my brother because my dad told me too. I was afraid of ed. So I did what he told me to do.  He told me when I reached a certain point to tell him”not to look” this made him excited and I was very afraid of him and what he would do to me if I did not do what he said.  I said”no” but he forced me to do this anyway.

I also have a memory of me sucking on someones penis. It was all wet and slimy. I think it was my dads and he had rubbed his spit on it to make it wet.  It was nasty.

I remember my dad made me rape my brother. He had shaved my head and he made me  take off my clothes except for my underwear.  He held my brother and forced me to do sexual things to him.  Then he made my brother lay on the bed on his stomach . he pulled the back of my brothers underwear down and he pulled the front of my underwear down and he rubbed my penis until it got stiff a little. It hurt from what he did to it.
3 Then he made me crawl on top of my brother and he made me simulate like I was raping him from behind.

I have another memory of being raped in the mouth of having someone gray penis forced into my mouth . there is pain.  I am bleeding in the mouth.  There is pain.  I am bleeding in the mouth . there are sores on the penis.

I remember ed would deny what he had done and say to me you made it up son it never happened. As if I should not trust myself.my father would brainwash me into believing that I had manipulated him into sexaully abusing me. He made me think I wanted to have sex with him.-

4  I have a memory of being in the hotel room with ed and walter simerson and they make me take off my clothes and dance around naked.  Then walter and ed take off their clothes except for their underwear and they make me get into bed with them.  Ed is behind me.  He makes his penis erect and he sticks it into my but.  It hurts really bad.  Walter fondles my genitals and plays with my penis.  Ed pushes his penis into me and I move forward to try to stop hurting but walter says”look at this he likes it,he likes what I am doing to him” as he rubs my penis.

I have this memory of me in my underwear.  Ed is with me. He has his hand on my crouch.  He is gently rubbing my penis. Then I am laying my head on eds lap.  His penis is out. It is erect. My left side of my head is resting on his penis.  My hair is touching his penis, he rubs my hair and he rubs his penis through my hair.  He says to me ”this is what all little boys do with their fathers”.

I remember the first time I had an memory surface about me being sexually abused when I was reall young.i see in the memory ed simerson and I see his penis and he is ejaculating on me.

I remember one time ed was standing over me and his penis was hanging down and he said to me as I looked up at it “grabb it”.

When ed lived in the two story house and I came to visit him.i woke up as if I had fallen on the floor. But I remember how I had gotten down there and I remember that I had been on the top bunk and that ed had come into my room in the middle of the night turned on the light and  pulled down my front of my pants. I lay there rigid not wanting to do anything that would make him angry at me. He molested me and picked me up and took me down to the floor and he molested me and my brother.

I remember ed being at my legs playing with my penis with his fingers pushing it back and forth as casually as he would a feather or the page of a book.  My legs are bare. I can see my bare waiste. He seems to just be playing with it.  His whole attention is focused on my penis .  I seem to be laying on my back.  I think that I had my shirt on tho.  We are in a room.  My eyes are focused on him and what he is doing to me. I just seem to stare at what he is doing.

I had another memory of sexual abuse at the hands of ed simerson.  I see ed stick his tung out and I see my penis is exposed . I see this picture at an angle in black and white as if I am laying down at  an angle. My dad is crouching down as I am near the floor maybe on a cushion or couch.  He is moving close too me sticking his tongue out with it folded length wise upward.  He seems to be at ease as if this was alright  for him to do,normal for him.   The memory is in black gray green and white .

My uncle walter molested me also.he put his hand on my crouch.  He reached his whole hand down onto my penis and I heard him say to me “don’t tell a soul” he also said “no one will ever believe you.”

I did tell priscilla that walter simerson had molested me. However I felt that nobody would believe me.

I see in another memory I am alittle boy outside of the simersons house on pony farm road.   Scratch marks from joans hands are on my neck on the left side. Joan is looming over me,dark and menacing.  She walks away.

5 I remember I stood in this room at this mans house. It was an bedroom. He had told me to get undressed and he made me put on these panties.  The man came into the bedroom and began undressing beside the bed. I felt the panties that he made me wear.  He told me to put this red stuff on my lips so I would look more like an girl.  It felt very awkward and strange to me to wear girlie stuff.  I was very afraid and felt very awkward   I knew what this man was going to do to me because it had been done to me by ed simerson so I knew what was going to happen.  I felt powerless helpless that I could not stop this from happening.  Ed had made me have sex with other men before.  The man was wearing an dress shirt which he took off and through to the floor.  He came up to me and unzipped his pants and made me get into bed with him. He pulled the sheets up over me and he raped me and he put his penis into my mouth. He ejaculated into my mouth and I almost choked to death on it. In fact I vomited and threw up. the man had khaki colored pants on but he had an white t-shirt on underneath also.
It was very hot under the sheet and the man took off the panties he forced me to wear.  He would hug me from behind and I could feel his penis behind me. I could feel the hairs on his chest. I felt the hairs on his chin.

I see in this memory this penis being pushed towards me.  It has something black surrounding it,maybe blackhair.  It seems to be going back from me then towards me.  I know that this is a memory.

I have another memory of my dad touching my penis.  He was caressing it.  He seems to be standing up over me to the left.  I seem to be laying down.

I see in this memory a persons stomach. I seem to be at their waist.  I can hear the breathing movement of their stomach.  They are laying down on their back. Their stomach is bare and to me it seems large.  We are definetly inside.  It seems to be daytime outside. The belly seems to be large to me. I can see the belly button. I feel the breathing motions.

I see my ed masturbating himself.  It was a quick memory that took place in the blink of an eye.   My dad seems to be laying on his back.

   I see my dad sticking out his tongue . I can feel him putting it into my right ear.  However i remember now that when I was a little boy and I with ed and joan, I would sit on eds lap in the front living room and he would tickle me very hard until I would beg him to stop.  During on of those times he put his hand on my crouch.     Also during that time he would put his mouth on my left ear and stick his tongue in it.
I remember how dirty we were as children  and how ed would clean me in the bathroom when he wanted to molest me.

I see ed in the bathroom .  he appears to be getting off of the bath  tub to come towards me. I think he was dressed.

I have this memory. In the memory I felt someone put their hand on my crouch.. I had my underwear on .  the hand is fondling me and moving my genitals over and over.  And over.  I was scared .i look up and I see ed over me. He has his hand on my crotch. He is fondling me with his hand over and over.  There is this light behind him.i seem to be laying on my back. I see an light and ed is standing over me . his hand is on my genitals and I am wearing white underwear.
I have an memory and I am not wearing my underwear in this memory. Ed has his hand on my genitals. He is rubbing them playing with my balls and penis with his fingers.  I sneezed as my dad did those things to me.  Eds hand completely surrounded my genitals.
  I just had a memory I see ed he is dressed leaning over at my bedroom doorway.  He is looking back at me and he says in some sort of desperation.”weve got to destroy it son” as if I am supposed to help him somehow.  
I have this memory surface of when I am real near ed. He is propped up. with a wall behind him. He has on a white t-shirt and white underwear I can see his leg is bare. He is moving his leg.  I can see his black hairs in his crotch. I know from my heart that this is a memory,where I was sexually abused (I almost did not want to admit what he had done to me)

I remember ed had taken me into this room and  he forced me to wear this tshirt and these underwear that were baggy. He had on white underwear and  he forced me to get into this bed with him and I was crying.  I did not want to do what he forced me to do.  He forced me to suck on his penis and he put his penis in my but and sodomized me.
When he was thru he and the other men made the boys in the house molest me on the floor in the room where they were watching t.v. the men sat in an space in the house with these chairs in an circle and they talked about the things they had done to us.all of the sexuall things as if we were sex objects. I feel the sadness and the horror at what ed and his friends did to me.  Ed was very forcefulll with one of the boys and he tried to force the boy who was crying into having sex with me or one of the other boys.

I remember in this hotel room ed made me put on panties. The room was lit by an lamp that was beside the bed.  It had an white shade. He made me put on lipstick like I was some kind of girl. He said that it was for my enjoyment.

I remember the lights at the foot of the bed where the men filmed me being sexually abused by them and the other boys.  They were bright and they illuminated the bed well.

I have this memory of ed standing over me in the bathroom.. he is wearing his white t-shirt and white underwear. He has his hand on my head at the top.  He is gentally pushing my hair back and tilting my head up.  then I see his penis mobing towards my mouth.  He sticks his penis in my mouth . I see his penis moving into my mouth as his sperm comes out.
Then i see my dad rubbing his penis.  Then I see his penis moving towards and into my mouth.  Now his penis is in my mouth.  I have this look of horror on my face.  I see the top of his penis moving into my mouth. I have a look of horror on my face.  He pushes it in. I can feel it touching  th e back of my throat. How could he do this to me?!

I have this memory in which I see me standing at the sink in eds bathroom at his house. He puts his hands on  my shoulders. He is rubbing my shoulders with his hands like he is trying to relax me,in a dirty sexual shamefull way. It seems that I have a white t-shirt on(maybe).  Then I see ed has no underwear on. He pulls me close to him.  His penis is lifted up and he presses no pulls me by my shoulders toward his testicles(balls). He presses my face against his balls and black pubic hairs.
He is doing this to me for sexual reasons.  He even sighs. He has my face pressed against the underside of his as he ejaculates. I remember that he dropped his underwear down to his ankles and he said to me”now you drop yours” .

I see in this memory joan is beating me across the back of my shoulders and neck with her fist very hard.  I have no shirt on. Joan  is beating me across my back especially my middle and lower and then upper back really hard.  She seems to be squeezing and pinching my shoulders extremely hard.

Also I rmember seeing myself in the bathroom fully clothed. I am standing looking at the sink.  Ed in his white underwear and t-shirt comes silently and stands behind me. I suddenly turn around startled and I look at him, with an fearfull look.
I also have this memory of being in the bathroom with ed at the time he made me perform oral sex on him.  My underwear is pulled down he turns me around and puts his penis to my butt and he touches my anas with his fingers.
I also see jonathan standing in there as it were on a stool  at the sink with his pants and underwear pulled down.  I can see his penis and ed is doing the samething to him.
I see in this memory that I seem to be looking back over my shoulder without my shirt on,in the front living room of eds house. I have this solid feeling of being punished by joan. Joan is standing behind me.  She is moving toward me. My shirt is off.

I have antoher memory of me laying on my back in my underwear. I seem to be older. someone is lifting up my waist and sticking his fingers and hands inside my underwear. He seems to be touching my crouch.  I have this look like I am just letting him do it. My face is expressionless.  The words are said”who would have ever thought it was me”. I am seeing myself from the outside now. Then I have the same memory but I am looking up at ed through my eyes from the position I am laying in, on my back. The person who is molesting  me is at my knees.  They are talking to me but it seems like they are telling me in slow motion the words”nobody would ever believe it was me”, but I also have trouble hearing them because it sounds like they are talking in slow motion.

For some reason I think that it may be somebody other than ed.
I think of this man I met when I lived as a little boy in the price foster home. The man had blonde hair. I then see the man kneeling down near me. He has brown hair instead of blonde now and he is saying something like “nobody would ever believe it was me”. I now know this man also molested me. My head hurt very much as this memory pushed its way up but once I wrote it my head stopped hurting almost immediately.

I have a memory of my dad putting his finger in my anus.

I remember being made to wear panties. I remember being taken to the house where those men raped me. I remember being taken into this bedroom by this man called jack. I don’t know if jack is his real name. He acted as if he cared about me and we got onto the bed and laid down beside each other.  All I had on were panties and jack talked to me and everything seemed okay at first but then jack took his finger and began stroking my crotch. He then put his whole hand on my crotch and  he gently grasped my genitals with his hand. He seemed and appeared to be real kind to me. But in the end all he wanted from me sadly was sex.. I remember in one room there was an bed that had an chain on it and an dog collar. The sheets on the bed were whitish pink like satin. There were lights on poles around the bed and there was an video camera of some kind facing the bed. The men made me get into the bed and they chained me to the bed and they began filming me. I can still hear the sound of the video camera and I remember how bright the lights were. Ed got on to the bed and put his hands on the collar and then he began doing things to me. He grabbed my crotch and said”good little girl” . he then would pull on the panties and pull them down. He would say”I want to have sex with you honey” I would resist but he would force me down on the bed and he would treat me as if I was an girl. He would say things like “come here honey” and I would say to him things like “no I don’t want to”. He would rub my crotch and he would sniff my hair and he would pull the panties down to my ankles and he would rub my but and put his hands in my crack. He would force his hands into my anus. Then he would put his penis in my but. He would  put his fingers into my crack and try to dig out any excrement and then he would rub it on my face. He would say “now listen to your father” and I would say things like “please stop it please”. As I said he would stick his penis in my but and he would say “ooh doesn’t that feel good’.  It hurt so bad what he did to me that I cried. Tears poured down my face. All he would do is wipe away my tears with those panties..  he would sodomize me and he would clench my face forcing me to let him kiss me. He would kiss me on the cheeks and kiss me on the lips. I remember that he would lick my face. They would bring in a dog that they would make to get on the bed and they would force me to have sex with the dog.
When they were thru with the dog and the dog was gone he would spread out my legs and he would play with my genitals. He would get on top of me and massage my shoulders. He would make me recline backwards and he would say “shish shish”. He would slide his hand into my panties and fondle my genitals. He would rub my penis and he would make it stiff. They would film him doing this to me. He would say”let me take care of that”. He would force me to open my mouth and he would stick his penis in it. He would ejaculate into my mouth and it was disgusting. He would make me eat it. He would tell me to just relax and take it in and eat it. This other man would then come and get into the bed and  ed would get out of the bed.  The man would put his finger on his lips and giggle. He would grab me by the throat and choke me. He would rub my chest with petroleum jelly and he would rub it all over my body and head. He slicked my hair back with an black comb.he would relax me and he would rub my shoulders. I could smell excretion. I remember after they would film them sexually abusing me they would make me take an bath and even in that they would sexually abuse me. They would play with my penis.i can see myself like I am looking down from the ceiling. The boys would rub my shoulders and get behind me and sodomize me. When I was on the bed the man would pull on the chain. He would say “come hear my sweet dear little prince”. He would kiss me emphatically. He would get on top of me.he had on white underwear and his penis was bulging. He rubbed his mound up against my chest. He then pulled his penis out and acted as if he were eagerly anticipating something. He forced me to put his penis in my mouth after he rubbed it on my chest.. he told me to suck on it. He would say”now daniel I want you to suck on my dick”as if he were an doctor telling me to do something. He called me his little girl. He would force me to suck on his penis. I would tell him “I don’t want to do this”but he would just say”shoosh shoosh its okay baby”. I would hear him say. He would take off my panties and lay down on top of me. He turned me around and forced his penis into my rear. I would cry and say”it hurts it hurts stop please stop”. But he would just keep raping me.

Now to tell you about a man named john. I remember this big man who called himself john who would come out to the simerson house on pony farm road and take me for a ride in his car. I would see cash exchange hands between him and ed simerson. But I never knew what was going on untill it was to late. The man would take me to his nice house and I would think wow this is a nice house and he would take me inside. There would be other little boys inside the house and there were figuerines in the front room of the house all around the front room. There was one curley haired boy about my age there. He had short curly gold brown hair. I remember the man taking me into a room which he called his special room. In the room was an bed and an set of lights. The kind you see in an photo studio. There was an camera with the lens facing the bed.  The man forced us to strip off all of our clothes but he took off our underwear as if it were the natural thing to do. The man put us on the bed and he would have us sit next to each other and he would take pictures of us naked. He would rub our shoulders to position us for poses. Then he came to the side of the bed and picked me up and placed me half on top of the curley haired boy and half on my belly on the bed. He then took my leg and pulled it and my waist over the boys buttocks and then he said”now I want you to hump him” then he explained to us what he wanted us to do then he took more pictures. He would then come over to the side of the bed and rub my buttocks and then he would get into bed with us. He took off all of his clothes except for his underwear. He pulled down his underwear exposing his large penis and he rubbed it into my crack. I was horrorfied.. he pressed down on me and he pushed his erect penis into me sodomizing me. I remember him sitting and sodomizing me and forcing me to suck on his penis when he was not doing that. I remember crying and saying no to him but he would act like he was comforting me  and he would give me something red to drink then he would go back to forcing me to suck on his penis. He ejaculated into my mouth. He sodomized me and forced me to act like I liked it. Then it would be over with and he would wash our underwear  in an white sink and dry it with an hair dryer or something like it. Then he would take me back to the house on poney farm road.it was an sunny day and what happened had depressed me so much.

ed would take us on trips to these houses where these men and him would sexually abuse and rape us kids. there was this part of the house where the men would sit around in chairs and watch and make us kids sexually abuse each other.  there was a room in the house that was at the back of  the house . in this room was an bed and there was an window. one of the men who wore eyeglasses and looked like the judge who let ed out of jail took me into the room.He asked me if i would like to be an engineer. i asked him what that was and he said well you get to play with the trains. we went into the room and he showed me the rectangle train track. it was electric i think and he flipped an switch and the train went around the track. i had on my underwear.  the man who i called doc then took this engineers hat and said now put this on. he told me to put it on. then he began rubbing my shoulders from behind. then he reached around and pulled my shirt up. it was blue. he pulled it up and he rubbed where my tits would be . he began to squeeze my belly then he slid his hand down in to my underwear and began to fondle my penis.  he said doesnt that feel good. i shook my head  and said yes because i was scarred and i was afraid of what the man would do to me if i did not comply.he then slid my underwear down to my feet and pulled them off of me and he told me to raise my hands up and he rubbed my chest with his hands.  he pulled up my shirt and pulled it off of me and said for me to relax and enjoy it. he took off his clothes and kept his underwear on . then he pulled me up on to the bed saying now come here.. he rubbed his hand on my right leg then he began to fondle my penis. he put his arm around me. he played with my penis and rubbed and squeezed the tip of it.it hurt. then he said to me now turn over and lay down on your tummy. he pulled off his underwear and  after i laid down on my stomach he smeared something on my buttocks and he stuck his finger in my but. it hurt but he kept doing it. he got on top of me and stuck his penis in my but. it hurt and he raped me. then he got off of me and told me to turn over. i was crying. he patted my but and fondled it ....i obeyed and turned over on to my back. he got on top of me and rubbed his penis masturbating himself as he rubbed my penis. he said that he was getting a real boner. then he said see your getting a little boner. he masturbated rubbing his penis on my stomach and then he ejaculated on to my stomach and chest.. i was traumatized by this it scarred me real bad.  then the man cleaned me off with this dark grey cloth.he said there we go now doesnt that feel better .  the motherfucker raped me damn it.he raped me.

at one time when we went to these peoples house where i think there were only men when the men were all sitting in this one large area inside the house the men made all of us boys put on panties and  they forced us to get into the middle of their circle and they would make us do sexual things to each other. at one point i was taken by ed into one bed room where there was an bed with pink satin-like  sheets. the bed had an canopy and an collar and an chain. he put the collar around my neck and chained me to the bed and said thats a good doggy. he treated me like i was a damn dog... there was somekind of camera and studio lights in the room near and around the bed . ed and the men came into the room and ed crawled on the bed with an smile that was so evil and incomprehensable to me at that age. it really scarred me. as he came closer and closer to me i became more and more scarred and finally i began saying no no please daddy dont. i had ear length brown hair.  he did some very bad things to me on that bed i remember the lights because they pointed up to the ceiling. there was an camera of some kind at the foot  of the bed. and the man i call doc was taken pictures or something as ed sexually assaulted me. i screamed . the men laughed as ed raped and forced me to endure the abuse.  he smeared excrement on me . the men said"boy" as they laughed. the camera was dark black. there was also a florescent light in the house.. maybe it was in the room to
ed used to take us to these motels or hotels and once we were inside the room he would say one word and that was strp. he would make us dance around naked as he took pictures of us. sometimes he would get on the bed and make us stand at attention as he "judged" our penis's and chest by fondling them. he would make us get into bed with him.

when he took us to this one hotel he layed me down on the bed and took my shoes off. then he unbuttoned my pants and pulled them off. then he put his hands inside my underwear and pulls them down my legs and to my feet. then he pulled them off of me as if they were womens panties. he pushed my legs up and held them up as he raped me. i remember how he would give me beer to drink and how he said it would get me in the mood.

i remember how when we were at the house on poney farm road he would call me into his bedroom and he would sodomize me and force me to suck on his penis. he would have me sit on his chest and play with his penis .. he would make me rub it. he would force me to endure his teaching about how he wanted me to rape and sexually abuse my brother jonathan. after he ejaculated onto me he would force me to sit there and endure more of his bible teaching. he would say to me"son do not despise my teaching" as he rocked back and forth holding his bible and thumbing through the scriptures looking for anything that he could use to brainwash me.  he would say"for this is right and pleasing to the lord". he would smear excrement on me and say "eat it son". he did these disgusting things to me. he made me eat cat excrement. i would spit it out and he would yell at me angrily saying"eat it!"

ed simerson would teach me to rape my own brother.
i had no choice it was either do as ed said or die.

at one of the houses that ed took me to there again was an room with an bed in it and studio lights. ed would rape me on the bed and force me to have sex with other boys and i think my own sister.. i remember her getting on the bed and the men began chanting the word rape! most of the time i would look into the lights and just zone everything that i could out. i remember the lights because they were so bright.. i would stare into them untill ed grabbed my face and said come here chrissy.they used to make me out to be a girl.or how should i say they used to act as if i were a girl when they were sexually abusing me.

i remember at the house on pony farm road ed dragged joan across the floor by the hair as he clutched an base ball bat. he beat her into submission about the time i was three years old.
i remember one time ed made me get on top of my brother and he forced me to put my penis in his mouth. he forced my brother to suck on it.he said to us as he did this to us"this is for your own good". he sounded very angry and that scared me enough that i would cooperate with him.

i remember wearing blue underwear maybe they were panties and i was in this bedroom that had pink and white sheets on the bed. this older man with white balding hair gets me and him on the bed. he hugs me and kisses me and licks me. he licked me pretty much all over my chest and such. he pulled my underwear down and said"now we are going to play a game." then he played with my penis. he would rub it and do bad things to me.  he raped me anally.i think the man called me a name. i believe it was "corey"as if i was another person.he would rub his face in my hair and say"oh corey come hear"

i then remember these two men who after the other  man was through with me took me into the room and got me on the bed again. the men got out of their clothes and got on to the bed. they layed side by side and layed me across them. i was crying. i did not want to do what the men made me do. they pulled down the back of my underwear and one of them began to rape me. the other  man forced my head and face down to his underwear and pulled up his underwear. and pushed my face down into his groined.his penis was big and i was terrified of it. i cried a lot and said"no please" he forced me to suck on it. the bastereds raped me anally and orally at the same time. it was disgusting.
it is important for people to know that i was sold by ed simerson like i was his property and not a human being.  as horrible as it all was somehow i survived and GOD saw fit to bring me through this mess.

i remember the man with gray balding hair rubbing his excretion on my underwear after the men raped me and abused me.

i am keeping these files so that someone can take them and use them to stop ed simerson and his friends. whoever undertakes this task must first start with where ed simerson was born and follow his footsteps throughout his life untill now. it should be noted that ed simerson is an  psychopath.
it is my plan to expose him and if possible catch him in the act and have him arrested and confined.

i remember at one of the houses that ed simerson took us to the older blonde haired boy was forced to lay down and we were forced each of us was forced to rub(caress) his body and penis. we were in an small room. there were old white curtains and outside the window were woods. i was forced to suck on the older boys penis.
i felt degraded as i was forced to be abused in this manner. i remember the man with glasses and balding hair yelled at me saying "do it!"

i remember the room that they filmed me in where i was forced to lay on a bed that had pink satin sheets on it. they would chain a black and silver collar to my neck and they would film them having sex with me. i remember saying"no please dont"as i cried. i remember feeling weak and powerless and degraded like i was not human and i remember feeling as if i was not even there.i blocked everything out. the thing that i remember the most is the lights and how bright they were in that room.  they were studio photography type lights. the kind that gave off a bright glow. the sheets on the bed were pink and the pillows were heart shaped with fringes for borders. they had the words i love you on them and the words little sweethearts on them in dark pink or red letters. i felt very uncomfortable on the bed.

i remember that they had this old home movie camera that looked to me like it was silver chrome plated and an putrid green color. a lie in my mind says"your making this up" but that is not true because ed simerson put those lies in my head as we were in the room where the home movie camera was.  there was an screen by the wall and the camera was pointed at it. they made us (the men made us that is) watch these movies in which other kids were being forced to have sex with them. sometimes the movies would be the ones they had just made of them sexually abusing us.

i remember the drives to these houses where we would meet with the men who would sexually abuse and rape us kids. i remember an house that was near these woods. there was an clearing and the house was two stories and yellow in color. if i remember correctly. the men would often meet us at different houses. one house was an one story white house that looked old and dirty to me. it was in this neighborhood but it had trees right behind it. one house i noticed was in this neighborhood and the trees were far away from the backyard.

i remember in this one memory that i was in this wooden room that was down stair case and the wooden beams were exposed  and there was stairs on the left side of the room on the other side of the wooden beams . there  was an bed with whitish pink satin(panty) type sheets on it. there were studio lights in the room but the room was like an room with in a room and the walls were wooden beams that were exposed and had spaces between them. the bed was in the inner room and the lights were at each corner but on the outside of the wooden beams and they were screwed onto the beams. ed was near the stairs. he had on his pants but he did not have on an shirt and he had hold of this boy who had shoulder length brown hair. ed wrapped a black leather cord around his neck and the boy was crying and saying"no please dont, dont do that to me".  edward just laughed and had an evil grin on his face and kept twisting the cord which from what i remember had been wrapped around the boys neck three or four times and the boys neck was turning red from the cord. the boy was making an gurgling noise and could hear him choking. i was scared to death that what was happening to that boy was going to happen to me. i remember this man who was wearing an dark green plade shirt with yellow lines coming down the stairs and acting as if nothing was happening.  he told somebody"come down here,right here" and then this man came down in this sand gray colored suit. he took it off and said"boy i sure cant wait to get one of those pretty ones ,one of those pretty young thangs on to the bed so i can have some funn with them. we're going to have some fun arent we boys and girls" i remember their was an girl wearing nothing but panties. the panties were white and her hair was shoulder length and dirty and brown. the lights at each corner of the room were turned on.  it feels like i am  hitting an brick wall as i try to remember what they did to us. i remember laying on the bed or sitting on it and i  felt the sheets under me. the man in the suit undressed and got on the bed with me. he began to rub my shoulders with his hands and to say to me in an hushed tone "relax just relax". i giggled because i was just a little kid. he moved his hands down my arms and back up them. then he rubbed my neck in the back which felt good to me. he then said to me"now just relax" he said to the girl"now come here sweetheart" she crawled on to the bed and he placed his hands on her but and pulled her panties down. i saw the slit hole between her legs at the top. i was just a little boy. i did not want to know what was going to happen to us. the man then pulled off his underwear and he said"come here honey" to the little girl. then he said"i want you to ride on daddy,show em what you do at home,show em your homework". then the little girl crawled on to the mans legs and reached between them and put her hand on his rather large penis and lifted it up  and she scooted  up to it and spread out her legs and scooted forward until her vagina was touching his penis. his penis was leaking semen. she began to rub his penis real slowly and he growned and said"oh that feels real nice honey thank you". she just kept rubbing his penis as the man who had dirty blonde hair put his hand on my rearend and pulled me close to him and hugged me. i knew what was going to happen to me and that i could not stop it from happening. he made me put my hand on his penis and he said to me "play with it,go ahead and see what it can do" he slowly slid down the panties i was wearing  and he began rubbing my tiny penis with two of his fingers. it hurt but it felt good at the same time. he made my penis hard. i remember hearing the sound of that home movie camera  as they filmed what the man did to us children. this older boy who had dark blonde brown hair that came down to his ears crawled on to the bed. he was smiling and the man said "come hear,thats right come, come here." the boy said"no" but then he began to crawl over to the man.the man wrapped his right arm around him and said"thats right just like one big happy family" his penis stood erect and was red in color. he said to the girl"ride daddy honey ride daddy" the girl appeared quiet and submissive and began trying to push herself up and down and the man said"oh yah thats reall good honey do it real good". he then made me lay across his lap. then he rubbed my shoulders then my back and finally he moved his hand down to my buttocks and rubbed the right but cheek. he pulled on it in an attempt to slide his fingers further in to my but hole. he slid his fingers in until it hurt me. i said to him"it hurts,it hurts please dont do it to me".i am not sure how old i was. then he slid his hands down my right leg to my foot and he began to rub and caress the bottom of my foot. it tickled. then he slowly slid his hand back up my leg and began to fondle my penis. then he rolled me on to my side and said to the little girl "get off"she complied. and she moved away from his penis. then i slid backwards down to his knees>i said"no please i dont wanna do this please don make me do this". then he slid his hand behind my head and pushed my head forward until my mouth touched the tip of his penis. the tip was wet with semen and i opened my mouth and slid my mouth onto his penis.  he said"that a boy it taste warm dont it,it taste real good i bet real sweet real pleasant"it was disgusting to me. i mean it was really disgusting to me to be eating something that was coming out of this mans private parts.i felt awkward and humiliated. i choked on his semen and i coughed it back up but he said"oh no you dont your going to eat all of it every last bit" and he laughed. he had an almost sinister demonic smile on his face and it really really scared me. i was coughing gagging on the semen untill my throat hurt. the semen would not stay down my throat. it was really disgusting to me. when he was through with me there was a lot of that semen in my mouth. i  sat up and held up my hands. there was semen all over my hands. my hands were wet with it. he said "oh come here little one"and he began rubbing my hands and saying "there there" and he began smearing the semen all over my hands. as i spit it out of my mouth he smeared it all over my face. i was crying i did not like what he was doing to me. then he ran one finger down my chest and to my stomach and he began to tickle me saying"goochie goochie goo". he had that sinister grin on his face. it frightened me. it looked demonic evil to me. i remember i looked into his eyes and saw that they were blue but then they were dark as if nothing but darkness filled his entire head. all the while i heard that damn camera.
i remember also an black photo camera being in the room.

i remember the boy who ed was strangling had his back arched like ed was trying to break it.  he strangled the boy so hard that i saw blood seeping out of the bottom of the cord. by this time the boy had been screaming "no please dont" and then he just made a gurgling noise. then nothing.he was dead. ed said "there thats ,that". he had killed the boy.

i remember being in my underwear and ed was in his underwear and we were in the front room of the shed like house on poney farm road. ed was sitting in his chair. he pulled out his penis and began rubbing it. he rubbed it up and down. he then told me in an serious voice "come here" . then he told me to "mount him". by this he meant for me to pull down my underwear in the back and try to sit on top of his penis. i did not know that at the time. he had to instruct me on how to do it. he made me do this by intimidating me with his angry voice by saying "do it!". i was afraid of what might happen if i did not do what he wanted. he had an belt and he would hold it in his left hand and threaten to use it if i did not do what he wanted. so i did what he told me to and i mounted his penis. he told me"now sit back" i did this and it hurt as he slid his penis into my rectum.it hurt a lot.
ed laughed with an sinister grin on his face.
there was light in the room coming from outside so it must have been daytime.

i remember the couch in the front room of the shed like house. i was in my underwear and ed was laying on it behind me in his underwear. he said to me"come here son daddy wants to help you with this problem you have" i was outside of my body and i see the back of my underwear and it has an blood stain on it. he pulled me back toward him and  he pulled down the back of my underwear. he told me to sit down on the couch and then he made me lay down in front of him on the couch. i could smell his breathe and it stank. he stuck his hand in the front of my underwear and began to fondle me. he rubbed my penis until it got big and stiff.bigger than it was before he did that to me. he kept rubbing it saying as he did"that a boy,that sure is a good little boy". it began to hurt.i could feel his penis pressing up against my buttcrack. my but felt big and his penis felt small against it. in reality his penis was big and he stuck it in me and it hurt really bad. it was daytime outside.

i remember being in this room with ed simerson. he told me that we were going to have sex with jonathan.  he told me that when jonathan came into the room that we were going to strip off all of his clothes and that we were going to have sex with him on this bed that was in the room. when jonathan came into the room i was forced by ed to begin taking jonathans  shirt off and he began taking off jonathans belt and unbuttoning his pants. then he pushed jonathans pants down as jonathan stood crying. jonathans lips trembled as he begged ed silently not to do this. then ed made me put my hands under jonathans armpits and he picked him up by his feet and he made me help him put jonathan on the bed.  then ed got on the bed with us and and he raped jonathan sodomizing him and he made me sodomize jonathan. i pretended that i liked what i was being forced to do and i even smiled. the bed had white sheets on it but they were dirty. the bed was against the wall on the left and at the head it was against the wall.
he said to me"your going to like this".

i remember the house that the man John took me to. in the very first room there were gold and porcelain figures on shelves. there were many of them.

i remember being naked in this room with the bed in the inner room and ed was on the bed and he made me crawl over him.the sheets on the bed were made out of the same kind of material that womens panties are made out of. he raped me forcing his erect penis into my rectum. i think that he raped me so bad that there was blood on the sheets. i am not certain how old i was in this memory. i remember that i was crying and that it was an horrible experience to have to endure as a little child.

i remember the weekend that me and jonathan went home for a weekend visit when ed was living in the house on poney farm road alone.  ed had brought us to the house and said as we were going there that his brother walter had come down with two or three of his sons to visit him. we got out of the car and went into the house and i saw walter sitting in an chair in the middle of the room and his boys were walking around. one of his boys had an headband on and i went around walter and began playing with the boy. i did not remember the weekend untill about a year ago. now to tell you what happened. i remember ed was very intimidating and he made me get on the floor and take off all of my clothes accept my underwear. we were all in the front room and i was scared. i scooted back into an corner but ed and walter made the boys walk up to me and kick and punch me.then ed took off my underwear and the boys took off their clothes and ed and walter forced one of the boys to get on top of me and start humping me. this went on untill walter put his hands on the boys left shoulder and shouted "thats enough". then the other boy got on me and slobbered into my face. he pulled down the front of my underwear exposing my penis. he began to rub it . that felt good to me at the time but i was still scared. the boy looked back at walter and asked"like this??" and walter stepped forward and said"here let me show you,you little bitch" then  walter began to rub my penis and tried to make me erect. it felt odd what he was doing to me. i began to pee and he said"oh no you dont you get up right now and go to the toilet go." then i got up and was releived that it was over for now. i went to the bathroom and peed into the toilet.
i can still here the sound of me peeing into the toilet. then i remember the room with the white sheets and walter was laying down on them in his underwear and i was laying next to him. he smelled bad like beer. he had made me drink some beer earlier. then he had sex with me. he rubbed my penis and then he began rubbing his penis with his whole hand.his left hand and then he began fondling my genitals again. he put his hand on the back of my neck and forced my head down onto the tip of his penis. it was big and reddish purple the tip was. he forced me to open my mouth as he said to me"suck on it". he made me suck on it untill the semen came out of it. i am somewhat detached from my emotions. i wish i could get them back into me right now. he ejaculated all over my mouth and lips. he was making an groaning noise. then he made me get up after saying"were thru".
i rmember that during the weekend visit ed and walter took us to this hotel and when we went into the bedroom they ordered us to take off all of our clothes saying to us"strip!" they had this black camera on the tripod on the other side of the bed and they said to all of us "now we are going to have some fun". then once we were naked they told us to dance around and so we did as we were told to do. then i got on the bed which had this white comforter on it and i laid down straight because they told me to. then they made me open my legs and ed fondled my penis. then ed took off his clothes and got on the bed on the left side of me and he said"come here". then he began to rub my chin and that hurt for some reason. then he began to run his fingers across my chest and down to my stomach where  he placed his hand on my stomach. he then began rubing my stomach with his finger going around in an circle. then he moved his hand down to my penis and put his whole hand on my penis and  began pulling on my penis. this felt good to me. his penis hit my leg in fact it was laying on my leg as he layed on his side facing me smiling. he said to me "hi" then he proceed to rub my stomach some more. he layed his hand flat on my stomach and slid it down to my penis and began to rub it again. then he said to me"get up daniel". then walter pulled this white cloth out of an plastic bag only when he held it up it was not an cloth but girls underwear. it was white panties with fringes. walter said to me "here put these on,"and after i had he said"now get back on the bed chrissy".i felt like an girl with those underwear on. walter stood behind the camera and began taking pictures of me laying on the bed in those white underwear.
i remember laying on the bed and they pulled the underwear down so that it almost exposed my penis as i lay on the bed. they took pictures of me laying like this and i remember walter and ed laughing about it saying"yah and yah". i dont remember exactly what they were talking about. all i remember is laying on that bed on top of the sheets and crying as ed and walter took off their clothes because i knew what was happening next. i felt real bad during these times. i felt very bad inside like the world was spinning out of control and nothing seemed to make sense. why were they doing those awefull things to me. walter got on the left side of the bed and ed told me to scoot over so he could get on the right side of the bed. walter began caressing my abdomen with his finger and calling me "chrissy" instead of daniel. they began to fondle my genitals and ed began to kiss me on my lips. i was crying very hard but they just kept sexually assaulting me. ed pushed down my underwear(the panties) and began to rub my penis. he rubbed it untill it hurt. even as he did this he said to me"you know this isnt happening right?? say it! its not happening". i did exactly as he told me to do because i was  scared and i felt as if i was out of controll. my body did not feel like my own in fact i remember floating high above the room and looking down at them as they were laughing and raping me and thinking to myself "thats not me,its not me,this is not happening to me,they will never get me,i will run and hide(laughing inside)" it was an evil sounding laugh.i felt evil because of all that was happening to me. i felt that i must have done something very bad to in order for what was happening what they did to me to have happened. i felt that it was all my fault but i know now that was a lie. i had not done anything to deserve being raped. 

i remember that the underwear i was forced to wear as a little boy in that room when i layed on that bed became soiled and dirty as i was raped and sexually abused.
i remember there was an lamp with some kind of clear wrap on it on the left side of the bed. i remember laying on that bed and i had my hands down by my sides as they got on the bed with me. they took my underwear and pulled them down. then they told me to get on my stomach and i did. then they took something that looked like an thin role of tissue paper and put it into my rearend. they would say things to me like"this isnt happening,you know this isnt happening right?say it!this isnt happening". i would cry and sob and repeat what they told me to say. i just layed on the bed as they said something to me like"you enjoy this,you wanted this to happen,doesnt it feel good?" and i would respond by saying "yes". i said this because i was so afraid of what they would do to me if i did not respond the way i thought they wanted me to.

i remember that ed was behind me on these white sheets and he had me naked and he was naked and he raped me sodomizing me over and over and kissing me on my ear and telling me what an awesome boy i was . ed would kiss me on my ear while he ejaculated inside me. by that i mean he raped me anally.
i remember priscilla being in her underwear. i think she was in the hotel room. i remember one time ed had his penis exposed and erect and she was on her knees on his lap and he was sticking his penis between her legs.
i remember that ed was standing at one point holding me in his arms and priscilla was sitting on the brown colored floor. somehow i know the floor was brown. priscilla was in her underwear then she was naked and ed was ejaculating as she stood and she was backing up. she was afraid i could tell i think i was about five years old. ed was holding me with his left hand and he was motioning at some point for her to come to him saying"come here sweety". then he began to rub his penis and ejaculate on her.
i remember being forced to pull down my underwear by ed and walter and one of them forcibly held me down while the other one raped me.i felt powerless helpless my stomach tightened up into hard knots.

i remember the sheets that i was forced to lay on with ed behind me. i remember him humping me and raping me and kissing my ear my left ear.
i remember ed was laying behind me on this bed and he pulled down the back of my underwear and he stuck his penis in my rectum and said"um doesnt that feel good". i felt so bad being raped like that and it hurt me really bad. what ed did to me put me through hell and i intend to see him pay for it. i felt the worst feelings but that was just the beginning.
he had me sitting on the edge of the bed and he was trying to seduce me sexually(sic). he would rubb my shoulder my left shoulder with an cloth. at one point he called me"daddies little boy,daddies little cocksucker". the sheets or comforter on the bed was red or a brown design.he said to me"lay back" and he began to pull me back by the shoulder. i said "no i dont want to" and he said"sh sh come on now thats not like daddies little boy to act like that" he then began to call me a girl name.it was chrissy. i have been suffering for years because of what he did to us kids. he pulled the comforter back and i saw and sat on the white sheets in my underwear. i feel like i am wearing girls panties. he pulled down my underwear and forced me back onto the bed and made me lay backwards on the bed and he began to fondle the front of my underwear and he began to fondle my penis.

i remember being in my underwear in an bathroom and ed was in there. he forced me to rub his penis thru his underwear in the front. he forced me to play with it. he made me put my mouth on the front of his underwear and suck on his private areas. i think that it was an hotel or motel bathroom.
he would say things like"ummm yummie" as he forced me to lick his private areas thru his underwear.

i remember that i was naked on these sheets.they were white in color but dirty and ed was behind me  on the sheets and he was naked. he raped me and told me as he kissed me on the left ear that i was "the most wonderfull boy in the whole world".
it was like we were in an room with white walls.  in someones studio and someone the man who had come down in the basement was standing taking pictures of us from behind. ed stuck his penis in my rectum and i cried and sobbed because it hurt so much.

i remember there was this room and  i was laying down on the floor on this blanket  in my underwear. ed took his clothes off. at first i was smiling but then i realized what he wanted to do to me and i said no. but it did not matter he got on top of me anyways and he began humping me over and over.
he slid my underwear down and he began to rubb my penis untill it hurt. i had on my underwear at first but then he pulled my underwear down to my ankles and  he clenched in his hands an pair of white girls underwear and he said to me demandingly "put these on". i was very afraid because he seemed to be very enraged very angry. he made me put on the underwear and i said as i did"i will do anything you want just dont hurt me,please dont hurt me" he said to me"that a boy,thats my little boy,now be a good little girl for daddy,chrissy". he called me chrissy and this made me feel like i was an little girl. i was very confused by all of this. i could no longer tell if i was a boy or a girl. the confusion hurt so very much. i was crying. i had an crazed look on my face. then ed pulled down his underwear and climbed up me untill his penis touched my lips. i remember the head of the penis touching my lips. i remember something white coming out of the hole on the tip of his penis. i was horrified. i seemed to be so angry. i remember that i had on these black silk like shorts also at first because he made me put them on and then the man took pictures of me with an small camera. i remember the camera because it was one of those thin rectangle cameras with an square flash on the top of it. i was crying but i wanted to smile because they told me to smile. i tried to smile out of fear about what they would do to me if i did not smile. like what they did to that one boy that ed strangled with an chord.

i remember being down in that room in the basement of that house and seeing the eery way it was made. in the room was another room like an square inside of an square and in the inner room was an mattress with these panty like sheets on it. i remember that the mattress was on an set of box strings and  the mattress was crooked on top of the box springs. it was pulled forward and turned to the left like somebody had just gotten off of it by scooting to the  foot. i was out side of this inner room on the right side cowering in an corner watching out of fear as ed who was on the other side of the inner room had hold of this young boy and he was wrapping this chord around the boys neck. ed had this look of consternation on his face as he tightly wrapped the chord around the neck of the young boy who was making these  gurgling noises. ed wrapped the chord around the boys neck so tight that blood began seeping thru the skin and down the boys neck. then the boy went limp and ed through the body to the floor and then to the bed.
then ed got on top of the lifeless body and as he began unwrapping the chord he began to laugh but then suddenly he began to cry and he said "now son i dont want you to tell anyone about this,about what your pappa was doing". then the man came down the stairs who wore the green and yellow plad shirt and he yelled"what have you done? what have you done! get out! get out now! ill clean the body up and dispose of it." then ed began saying "im sorry im sorry i didn't mean to you know that right?i mean come on you know that i would never do anything on purpose to hurt that little boy of yours okay okay!" then he lunged forward and grabbed the man by the left arm sleeve and said"right?" the  man responded"leave me alone(angrily) and just get out!take your stupid kids and just get out man,now!" ed just kept saying"im sorry im sorry i didnt mean to"
i remember  in one memory related to this ed was outside somewhere and he was digging an hole in the ground . he dug for an long time untill there was an big hole in the ground. the man in the plad shirt was there also. there was different stuff around and i remember this because i remember hearing the sound of something like an generator or motor or engine. then the man in the plad green and yellow shirt carried the body of the boy as he said"im sorry son,that you had to go thru any of this" and he dumped the body in the whole and then he looked like he was very sad very depressed. ed was down on one knee then he got up and said with an smile"well thats that"> then the man in the plad shirt began to laugh also and he said "boy did you see the look on his face?"then he made the same wringing motion with his hands. none of this made any sense to me as a little boy. i remember all of this now because it was very cold outside. it was daytime about early morning.i was standing with an large metal object behind me like an engine from an car or truck. i remember the whitetruck with the red camper was there also and the engine was running.
i remember ed knelt down and put an yellow flower on the grave of the little boy.

i remember being made to wear black silk like shorts and being forced to pose and smile for an camera in an room where there was light at the back. i smiled because i was fearfull of what they would do to me if i did not cooperate with them. they room was kind of dark and the only light came from these photography lights.
i know i cant prove any of this but this is what i remember happening. i remember an white silver backdrop and being forced to pose for the camera.

i remember when we were in the shed like house ed had forced me to take off all my clothes and he forced me to lay on the floor and place my bottom against the chair and put my feet on the chair then ed began photographing me with an camera. then later on he told me that if i told anyone about what he had been doing to me he would"show the world what a bad little boy i was". he used the word dirty also. this took place during an weekend visit.

the night of the last weekend visit to eds two story house i was laying on the top bunk and jonathan was asleep on the bottom bunk and ed came in and turned on the light. he began to rubb my crouch. until it hurt but at first it felt good only untill it hurt. then  he removed my clothes and he put his hands under me and picked me up saying"come to daddy"  he then put me down next to jonathan who was awake by this time and he began to molest us both then he put me back on the top bunk and put my clothes back on and left turning the light out as he went out of the room. this made me feel very bad and very odd like i was abnormal.

MEMORY OF BIZARRERELIGIOUS RITUAL AND BEHAVIOR THAT MAY BE LINKED TO SOME OGROUP UP IN NEW YORK.
i had trouble believing this memory years ago when it came out mainly because the first doctor i went to told me he did not believe it happened.
i however have been learning to trust my memories more and more and not listen to those stupid people. in this memory i am outside and i am in new york when i am three years old. it is daytime i am wearing nothing but an dirty pair of underwear. i had been playing in the mud and ed had gotten angry over something for some reason. he walked over to me and he yanked me up by the arm and yelled"come ere you little brat"angrily then he took me somewhere i dont exactly remember where but  he and some other people dressed in black had fashioned these crosses  out of ply wood or 2by4s. they took me and took these ropes and used them to tie me to the wooden cross then they hoisted it up somehow by hand. my leg was bent awkward and it really hurt because of the way it was bent and tied to the wooden cross. my wrist also hurt because of the way i was hanging. they tied an rope around my waiste really tight to the wood which was behind my back then they held me up. they did the samething to priscilla but jonathan the 2 year old was crying and trying to say something. priscilla had nothing on but her underwear. the ground was very dark and moist. there was an tree near by just like at the house on poney farm road. there were other things that i saw near where we were. the people seemed to be real happy about something . then one of them brought out an goatshead. but i think he was wearing it. this terrified me something awefull. the feeling of  fear is very real and i hurt emotionally. i remember most of all pleading with them as only a little three year old can in my own way saying "o pleas don do tis". i remember this all went on until night fall and whereever they had carried us to they started a big fire and were saying very scary things. i remember being feeled with fear about everything that was going on. it was so dark outside. i think they were saying things like "lord satan" .
i remember there was an tiny building off in the woods. it was like an square building. all of this took place in  new york state.

i remember when i was forced to wear those black shorts that ed pulled up the left shorts leg and began to fondle me. he then began to kiss my nipple and to suck on it saying"doesn't that feel good""dont tell me you dont feel anything?".he did that to my right nipple then to my left nipple.  then he began to work his way down to my crouch and he began licking my crouch inside my shorts. he began to kiss my crouch then he pulled the shorts down and began licking my penis.  he told me to get up and turn around and when i did he began to lick my crack.. he stuck his tongue inside my crack and said"ommmm doesn't that feel good?".
then he turned me around and began licking my penis. this was degrading to me. and he stuck his tongue on my testicles and began licking them. he dug his face into my crouch and kept licking my testicles. when i had the black shorts on he put his hand up the shorts leg and  with his index finger pulled them down very slowly. i just kept looking down at what he was doing. i was crying and i felt so ashamed.i felt that i was letting him do this to me and i wondered why was i letting him do this to me?? i then began to cry and ask with trembling lips why was he doing this to me? the shorts had two white stripes down each side.

i remember one time ed was sitting down and priscilla was getting up into his lap.   he called her daddys little girl. but she had on her underwear only and his penis was erect and he was saying "come here,come here my little princess". i remember him doing this because he was rubbing his penis until white stuff was coming out of the top. i stood there untill he made priscilla put her mouth on his penis and he said"suck,"then when she hestitated he yelled"suck on it damn it" she put her mouth on it and he said"now say its delicious". she said what he told her to out of fear.
then he motioned to me with his hand to come to him and i did. he put his hand on the back of my head and he patted it and he said"that a boy" then he pushed my head down untill my mouth was on his penis. he forced me to eat his sperm. i was so traumatized  by this that i blocked it out. he made me say things just like priscilla said.

i remember being on this bed and i was kneeling all the way forward with my knees tucked against my chest and ed was behind me we both had our pants down and ed was humping me. then he raped me. he just kept humping me over and over and sodomizing me.i was saying"it hurts it hurts!"because that was the only thing i was allowed to say. i am not sure how old i was but i remember my chest hurt because my belt was pressing up against it really hard.

i also remember that i was laying on my back and i had no clothes on and  ed was holding up my legs and he stuck his penis inside me.  i remember that when i was in one house where there were satin sheets on the bed somebody was molesting me. they were rubbing my hair and then they sodomized me as i cried. i must have been about 8 years old. at first i was standing up and the person was rubbing my hair. it was brown and earlength. then they proceeded to pull down my underwear and they forced themselves on me. i remember them kissing me on my lips and i thought that i was letting them do this to me. as sick as this sounds i thought that they were doing this because they loved me.  i had no ideal at the time that they had power over me and that they could do anything they wanted to do to me. the one thing i also remember is that they began to move down my body and kiss my nipples and to suck on them. this hurt but i did not say anything at the time. i remember them pulling down my underwear and getting on the bed with satin sheets and we got under the sheets.   and then the man raped me for a long while. then as i cried  he took his penis out of me and forced me to suck on his penis.

i would like to make one thing very clear. i suffer great emotional pain because of everything that happened to me as a child. for years i surpressed and blocked out my emotions but now i can feel the pain deep down inside and i wonder if it will ever come to an end. i also want to make one other thing very clear i suffered greatly as a child and i want justice for it. i want justice for all of the children ed has raped molested and murdered in his life time.i am their voice and i will continue to tell the truth and to speak on their behalf. i would never ever lie about what happened to me as a child.

i remember ed was sitting in his seat in the seat of the front room of the house on poney farm road and priscilla was sitting on his lap. she had on an dress and he had on his suit. he began running his hand through her hair and he began to kiss her on the head as he looked straight at me and then at her. he began to kiss and lick her ear. he then began rubbing her neck with his left hand and his thumb. i thought that he was hurting her because of the sound she was making. he just kept saying over and over "daddies little girl". i remember when ed had me and jonathan in bed with him and we were all in our underwear that ed would call us his little boys but then he would start calling us his little girls. i was very confused by what he was doing.

i remember that where they buried the body was an line of trees in front of us and it seemed to be the front of an forest.  i remember that after they buried the body the men began drinking some beer from some cans.  i remember both men getting drunk.

i remember ed or some man had me on the bed with the silk(satin) sheets and ed began sexually abusing me. he had me lay on my back and he pulled my underwear down. he forced himself on me and he began kissing my head and rubbing his face against my head. i kept saying no no please dont do this to me but he moved his head down to my chest and began kissing it and sucking on my nipples then he moved down to my stomach and then he removed my underwear by sliding them down. he raped me but he acted as if he was making love to me . he rubbed his penis with his hand and he rubbed his penis against my leg. then he moved his head down to my crouch and he began to lick and kiss my penis. he said things to me like"i love you son,i love you so much" he acted as if we were in love and he was making love to me.  in reality he was hurting me and i know this now. he took the sheets and pulled them over us and then he began to do unspeakably evil things to me. i kept saying no no but he would just say "yes oh yes"and he even laughed as he tickled me and he put his mouth between my legs and began sucking on my penis. i also remember him massaging my feet under the sheets and saying "doesnt that feel good darling?" he made me get on my knees and he began to rub my buttocks with his hands and thumbs. he slid my underwear down and began to massage my thighs. he then began to rub my penis as i was kneeling on the sheets. then i bent forward and he stuck his finger into my rear end. he made me feel very bad. i am so angry over what happened to me as a child. he sold me to other men and he degraded and humiliated me. i can only hope that there is justice in this life.

i remember when i was three years old up in new york and that ritual was taking place there was blood.  lots of blood. i remember it was splattered on an yellow colored wall outside. it was illuminated by the bonfire that had been started.  i remember how terrified i was of the people. they were all wearing black.

i remember ed sitting behind me on an bed and rubbing my shoulders telling me to just relax.  i remember the man with eyeglasses who took me into the back bedroom of this house where the men were and he told me he had an special job for me if i wanted it. he told me that i could be his little engineer. at the foot of his bed he had an small train track that went around in an loop. he gave me an engineers cap to where. i was in my underwear. i knelt down at the track and picked up the train and began playing with it. he the man resembled the judge who let ed simerson go from jail. i began playing with the train making train noises and i had on nothing but my underwear and the cap that the man gave me.  then the man sat at the foot of the bed and he said to me"why dont you come and sit over here with me"> so i stood up and sat on the foot of the bed. he said to me"thats right up here right here" then he patted the bed where he wanted me to sit which was right next to him. i scooted over and he began to rub my left exposed leg very gently with his hand. he said "you know your a big boy and big boys get to do all kinds of things" he just kept rubbing my leg and saying"that a boy,feels real good dont it" then he began rubbing my crouch. i pushed his hand away and said"noooooooo". but he groped my crouch and began to fondle my penis. he began to rub my neck and he told me to lay back and i did. he took off his clothes and he got on top of me. i could see his penis. he pulled down my underwear and  he began to rub my penis untill it hurt. my penis became erect. he crawled over me his penis tip touching me as he moved up my body. he then made me suck on his penis. he ejaculated into my mouth and i began to choke on it. but this was not the worst thing that he did. he rubbed his sperm all over my belly. then he turned me over and he ran his finger down my back and then he raped me. he forced himself on me. he spread my legs out and he stuck his penis inside of my rectum. i was edwards little prostitute only i never saw the money that must have exchanged hands.i mean how much did ed get paid by these men so that they could have sex with me or did he get paid??

i remember being on the bed with the satin like sheets and i was on my knees with my legs spread out and ed was behind me slowly sliding down the panties that they made me wear. then i am on my stomach crying as ed begins to pat my buttocks then he gets on me and rapes me. i just kept saying to him "it hurts it hurts". he responded to this by saying"its supposed to hurt,but dont worry it will feel real good in a minute". what people need to understand is that ed simerson had everyone fooled in north carolina.  he had people believing that he was a christian when he was not. portraying himself as a christian or saint is part of his mask. what you are reading in this file is the real ed simerson. he had everyone believing that he was just a "poor man fighting to keep his family alive" when indeed the opposite was true that he was uncaring unloving selfish and only wanting sex slaves that were children.  remember ed simerson often referred to us children as his property not his children.
it is equally hard for me to feel any emotion because i surpress my anger unconsciously but sometimes i can really feel it.

i remember they took pictures of me with an flash camera as i was on my knees with my legs spread out on the bed. they even made me turn and face the wall and they had me put my hands against the wall and they took pictures of me like that with the panties on. they said in an cold cold voice"very good now turn around" when i complied and i turned around ed slapped me on my cheek and he looked at me with an look to see what kind of result it was having on me. i let out a yelp like noise and fell back onto my back. then ed got on top of me and yelled"your my bitch now""your my little bitch,daniel" i was scared. he began to kiss me on the lips then he just looked at he. suddenly he got up and slid down his underwear. he then crawled back on to the bed and grabbed me by the arm saying angrily"come here" but i said "no". this did no  good because he said"what?,why come here you little brat" then he put me in an head lock. then he let go and i fell back onto my back. he got on top of me and he began rubbing my crouch,especially my penis. then he licked me in my face. he began to nibble on my cheek.it hurt. i said"no daddy please dont" he just kept at it . then he moved down to my chest and began kissing my nipples. he moved down to my stomach and i tightened up my stomach as tight as i could. he started saying"daniel relax,just relax it will be all right i will make it all better". then he slid the panties down my crouch and he began to kiss my penis very slowly. he put it in his mouth and began to suck on it.

i  remember sitting backwards on the bed with the satin sheets and my underwear was pulled partly down and they were taking pictures of me. then they made me lay back on the bed and look at the camera as they took pictures of me.  they said "look at the birdee". then ed got on the bed and got on top of me and i put up my hands to fight him off but he grabbed my arms and began to laugh as they took pictures of me.

i remember that ed and the men who we would go to see at the different houses would have an meeting in an room where they would sit around and discuss their business. they would talk about raping us and molesting us and doing horrible things to us and they would laugh about it. i remember kneeling down and telling my brother that everything would be allright that somehow we would get out of this mess and he would shake his head in agreement. then when the men were through with the meeting one of them would pick up jonathan  and right before they picked him up he said"nooo". but they picked him up anyway and he fought them as hard as he could but they just laughed and said he was fiesty and took him into another room.  i remember because after they shut the door i heard him screaming and yelling "no no". i felt so sad so very sorry for my brother. then one of the men stood before me and said "come with me". he grabbed me by the arm and yanked me up and said"oh tough guy are ya" then he led me down this hallway to an bed room and he opened the door. i remember the room because the walls were blue in color. he took me into the room and forced me onto the bed. i felt very abnormal like i was odd. i was in my underwear. he took off his belt and i thought that he was going to beat me but he just layed it on the bed beside me. then he dropped down his pants and he left them on the floor and he got on the bed and he forced me on to my hands and knees and he pulled down the back of  my underwear and he humped me and raped me anally.  he said that he would be as gentle as he could with me. he said that he did not want to leave a mess on the bed.

i remember that at one time ed had me and jonathan on the bed. he had told us to take off our clothes and he made us get on the bed. he told me to get on my back and then he forced me to suck on his penis and he began kissing jonathan at the sametime. he told me to stop and i did then he began kissing me on my lips. he made jonathan kiss me also. jonathan slobbered on me as he cried and kissed me or tried to kiss me. ed was forcing us to do some very bad things. he turned me over and got on top of me and sodomized me. after he was thru he cleaned off his penis with an tissue paper. i remember that there was brown stuff all over his penis.

i remember ed forcing me to suck on his penis and as the sperm went down my throat i coughed it back up but he grabbed my throat and forced me to swallow it. i remember that after he got thru with me i began coughing alot like i was trying to cough the sperm up. i remember ed told me to smile when he had taken his penis out of my mouth.i was very scared and afraid of what he would do to me if i did not smile so i smiled. i pretended that everything he did to me was alright and that everything he did to me i pretended it was out of love. he would tell me over and over"its for your own good,other children do this so you should do this".

i remember that i was on the bed with the satin sheets and ed was behind me. i was wearing the panties and he began kissing me on the back of my head . he began to kiss me on my ear my right ear. he said"no no i must get behind your ear now" and he began to kiss my ear and to lick it with his tongue. he licked the back of my right ear. then he turned me around and he forced me to suck on his penis until he ejaculated into my mouth. i remember coughing it up but he just said"shish shish" and he then ran his hands thru my hair. i guess that when your a kid you think that adults who do this kind of evil to you love you. you have no concept of evil because your a kid and you think what they are doing to you is love because they keep telling you that they love you. this forces you to do what you need to to get that love and  attention. but it is not love,it is evil what ed did to me,but i am not evil but what was done to me was evil true evil the worst kind of evil.  ed would tell me that he loved me but now i know he just was saying that to get me to do what he wanted me to. i remember  ed forced his penis into my mouth and i cried. i slobbered all over it hoping he would take it out of me but he just said"suck". when he was thru he told me to lay down on the bed. he then pulled down the panties and he raped me.. i cried a lot. he told me"your evil,your an evil kid you made me do this look at you your evil"he had been holding me down by the back of my neck. that had hurt alot but not as much as being raped by him. i blocked everything out. i remember after ed raped me he rubbed the back of my neck and said"thats funny". he actually thought that what he did to me was funny. he even laughed.
i remember the panties were right under my buttocks and ed just sat there mounted on the top of my buttocks with his penis inside me. he had raped me. i felt reall bad. the worst thing in the world had happened to me. i feel bad as i write this. i feel like i am the worst person in the world and that God himself must be angry at me. i feel like what happened is all my fault but i know that it is not.  i feel like GOD is condemning me for what happened but i know that he is not. what happened was so bad that i blocked it all out of my mind.

i remember one time ed had ejaculated on me and my underwear was all wet from his sperm. i remember crying as he did all of those things to me. i remember going into the bathroom of the shed like house and i was covered in excrement. he had rubbed and smeared it all over me. i remember because it stunk pretty bad.

i remember that when ed and the man in the green plad shirt had put the body in the vehicle i was inside the house.  the two men came back in the house and they put blind folds on us and took us out to the vehicle and we got in and they drove for awhile then they stopped and we all got out . they took the blindfolds off  of us and i watched as they buried the body. we appeared to be in an field somewhere and there was a line of trees across the field. my blindfold had been black. the other kids blindfold had been white. they were both handkerchiefs.

 i remember being on this bed and ed had gotten behind me and was kissing my ear. he pulled down the back of the panties that he forced me to where and he began massaging my buttocks. then he stuck his penis inside me. then he forced me to lay down on my stomach. he raped me as i lay there. i remember the sheets were like satin and so were the pillows.

i remember being on this bed on my hands and knees and ed asked somebody if he could get up under me.  he then got on the bed and stuck his head between my legs and  placed his face on my crouch.i was wearing the panties they had made me put on. there were other men in the room. i beleive one of them was the man in the yellow and green plad shirt.

i remember that ed simerson made me and jonathan get into this bed with him and  he would sexually abuse us.
i remember now that ed had me in bed with him. he sodomized me and it hurt but he acted as he was  in love with me. it sickened me.

i remember being on the bed with the satin sheets and ed got underneath me as i was on my hands and knees and  he put his face in my crouch and began to say things like "ummmmm delicious". i had on the panties he and the other men had made me wear. i think it was cold and drafty in the room. there was an window and you could kind of see out side. there were woods outside. it was an small square window with four squares in it. it was daytime.
i remember that as ed did this to me i was crying. i was scared and unhappy. i remember that eventually ed sodomized me and this hurt alot. they had lights in the room and they were filming what ed was doing to me. i remember ed treating me like i was an girl and he was running his face through my hair sniffing it. he would run his hands through my hair. i must have been about ten years old.

i remember being on the bed with the satin sheets and i had on the panties. ed got between my legs and began sniffing my crouch and then he made me lay down beside him and take the panties off as he said to me"that a girl". i was really confused by all of this and he made me feel as if i was a girl and not a boy. i remember them making me pose on my hands and knees on the bed with the panties on me so that they could take pictures.

i remember that ed simerson made me get under the satin like sheets and he pulled down the panties that he made me wear and  he began acting like i was his girl friend. he began kissing me on my ear and he began rubbing my penis. i remember that i tried to get away from him as he would say things like "this isnt happening is it son". he did something worse than rape me he stole my innocense. i feel awefull inside because he stole took something from me that he had no right to take. i remember crying. i did a lot of crying because i did not like what ed was doing to me.

 i remember being on the bed with the satin sheets. ed and the other man made me put on those panties and they made me get on my hands and knees on the bed. ed simerson got behind me and patted me on the bottom and then he got between my legs and put his face into my crouch. ed would be saying things to me like"deny what happened,you made all of this up,your just one of a kind,your one of the guys and this is what guys do to each other when they love each other".  he would say these things as he kissed me on my left ear. then he would say "now lets have some reall fun'and then he would pull the sheets back and he would force me to get under them. he would pull the panties down and rape me anally. at some point they made me get up on my knees and they took pictures of me with the panties allmost all of the way down."ed would say to me now you know that didnt happen,this isnt happening son,this isnt real you made it all up in your pretty little head". i remember seeing someones penis and it was an adults i think.i think it was eds and he was ejaculating and he made me put my mouth on his penis. this memory is very very clear. i am very very sad. i am so sad in this memory.i want out but it is like i am trapped in that kind of life with no hope and no way out. i remember that as i was on my hands and knees that ed would reach from behind me and stroke my penis thru the underwear. at first it would feel good but then it would hurt.

writing this file is my way of learning to trust myself and my memories and to realize that they did happen and that i was abused no matter what ed did and said.

i remember ed supervising the other boys as we were forced by ed and his friends to sodomize jonathan. they made jonathan lay on this bed and they forced us to put our peniss in his buttocks.
 i remember being forced to pose and ed would sniff my groined. i had on my underwear and ed would back me into an corner or somewhere and he would say"now lets take those off" and he would force me to take off my underwear. there were other boys and girls in the room and they were forced to walk up to me and crowd around me. ed ran his finger on the inside of my underwear and pulled them down and then he forced the children one at a time to suck on my penis. they forced me to stand there as ed said to the children "suck". then ed would pull me down onto the hard wood floor and force the other children to hump me.