Dear Carole Ann,
It is superb that if you now meet some guy from AFF or other matching sites, I do not need to worry about rejection. As you have me as your fall back guy. That sure is very comforting to know. Kidding Ha ha. It does happen. The moment men get maried and especially have a toddler with them, the interest women start showing is tremendous. I think being in a relationship makes you relaxed and you dont act that stupid and desperate and things work out a lot better.
Again, great comfort that I will always have you to fall back on. What a cushion. In the end I do LOVE that you feel that way. It is a pleasure to be of some service to you, Your Highness. And it is easy to understand why that would make you more confident and less timid. Sure it doesn��t matter what happens as you still get to get laid with a stud.
The fact that you don��t have to worry about being rejected you can act more normal more nature and less fickle. I always was and always will be so fine with you flirting. That is why many men let their wives go to see the chippendale because they come home all moist and ready. Stop worrying what you might do. In all likelihood not much is going to happen. And then I can guide and protect you too, as long as you are honest and truthful with me.
Let us not debate the things you did with me on our first date and if you should or shouldnot have done. It happened and both of us came out unscarred, so it must be okay if not superb. You said you were not going to do, which was a mistake. Why not let nature and emotions take their course? In some respect it is true tha I cant trust what you might do but for most part you are pretty reasonable and stable to live with. Rest I dont mind taking chances with life. Had I not taken chances I would not have been where I am. I never regret haging dared. Now how does one interpret this position of yours "I certainly will not take the lead, at least you know that", when we both agreed that with you nothing is certain as is the case with life in general. So we live life day to day.
There is no reason for you to be embarrassed when on the first time chatting with Sam you led him in a direction to have virtual sex. That is what equality is all about. If men do that all the time, why not women. dont punish yourself. If it felt good at the time and you sort of cheated and enjoyed the fantasy nothing wrong with that. No need to feel embarrassed. The more you get over that shame and guilt the better sex you will have even with me. You woule be a honry bitch in heat all the time or in the human context a nypho. What man wont like that.
Yes this date rape theory is complex. The less after thoughts the better. No ono one made you do it but there is such a thing as post coital depression too. That is what makes people feel bad and ugly about sex. They call it embarrassmrent. Very common after the first time teen do it.
On May 9th and I wanted to proceed further than just 3rd base, it is likely that you initially said no that is what I recall. Then I waited and asked again and then when you did not actively oppose my adances, I took the silence as Yes. I think I did nothing wrong and I was a perfect gentlestud if not gentleman. It is necessary for one party to take a little more initiative than the other. And may be we can take turns, now you be the agressor. Sure I worked to get you to change your mind and I cant be faulted for that. The end result was great. I hope.
This everyone doing everyone else every night may be normal but it cant be ok nor safe. too mechanical to insensitive, no fun.
Sure it is tempting to everyone that "maybe I should do that too�� - but like the girl in the other story, they all regret it at some stage.
My browser at the library & ILRC would let me go there but there is shortage of time. I will try. I checked it., fine. nothing special. But if you guide me that will be a good idea. The $$ part is the bad thing.
What I wanted you to do is write me your fantasies, just one man (me) and you type. To "educate me how you would like to be loved.
Yes when I say that you lie to me, I do wonder if you are lying honestly as if your concept of truth is screwed up and without meaning to lie you simply state what is not the case, as was true of the people believing that sun revolved around the earth until that view was corrected.
And I also know you would never lie to me about anything that might happen between me and someone else. You are not that mean to cheat on me. Partly you are stupid and cant keep your mouth shut. It is interesting to know that profile says that you am attached to a hot stud and that your man friend is away for the summer on a sabbatical and that you are a bored house woman. That would certainly make you available without the strings attached and even seem despearate. And in fact to some extent that is even true. I think both of us would be kidding if we dont admit that both of us are at least to some extent desperate to get laid. The starvation of sex is harder when you are used to it on a daily or bid basis.
Great if you find just chatting with them good. We can seriously talk about your being tempted to meet Sam. Despite my view that you should see other men as non sexual friends, and find out what type of men they are in person, the fact of desperation that I referred to above is bit tricky partly given the basic element of instability and high unpredictability with you. There are parts of your mental growth that in my view have not proceeded properly. You need to be supervised and guided. And therefore we can do all that when I am more accessible to you. That does not mean that I have to be in Nanaimo. I mean when the internet access is not this restricted. E.g. if I had access to a blackberry and I had a phone number.
Darling, I too do love you and I miss you very very much - but I have a big assignment to deal with. I have to tackle these crooks that are scattered all over. I am touched, pleased and partly devastated to learn that you miss my holding you and preventing me from falling again and again. I love to cuddle you especially when you are angry and tell me "dont touch me". It is my greatest pleasure to be able to pleasure you with my lips kissing yours and the rest of you which is a handful or mouthfull or hugfull, whatever, It is still beautiful to me even if you disagree and many beauty contest judges disagree. I may be miss my buddie Dori the pooper a bit more than I miss you. I am sure he too misses me at times at least. Let us see how soon we can be together a family again.
Love you.
Your Pradeep