Layout finished (almost) on : November 14, 2002

date:3/31/03
mood:not very tired, since I slept all day...
music: Barouque - Tohshindai

Right now, my ear is so full of crap I feel like it's going to explode any moment. Now that would be cool if it didn't invovle lots of pain and ear snot. @.@ Baroque sounds so far away...I can barely hear the beautiful screaming. -.-

Well, I got a hella lot of sleep today. Which is definately a nice change from school. Whoo!And look what I found on Miaka's dead journal. My ex-favorite past time of the computer:


You are.. UNIQUE! Wow, you are a rare breed. You do
what you want, say what you want, and wear what
you want. Screw labels and subcultures! You may
be considered one of the oddest people in your
school, but you really could care less. What
matters is what you like, and what you like
only. You're a shining star!

The Subculture Label Quiz
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I want to steal you clothes!!

Which gothic lolita model are you? by �J�i�V�~

You're a Toxic Foaming Squirrel.

Which Toxic Squirrel Are You?
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You are SAILOR MOON, also known as SERENA. Serena is the most fun-loving of the group. She is
loyal, innocent, and loving with pure ideals
about the world. She's lazy but will do
anything to help her friends. She's truly a
beautiful soul. If you took this test truthfully, chances are you
are fun, and everyone likes you, and you are a
ray of sunshine. Also, chances are I love you. ;)

Which Sailor Scout Are You?
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what sort of weirdo are you?
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Sai, lets run away to the Laruku concert ,with the curry (I live for that food)! And maybe Hyde might accidently come with us :D because of the hand cuffs connecting him to us....



date:3/27/03
mood:oh shit...
music: Miyavi - Girls Be Ambitous

Oh shit! I'm having a heart attack or seeing things or something -->
**cries** Doe anyone else see that picture of laruku standing together?! They're not split into their damn solo groups. >< And they're having a concert...l'arc-en-ciel! I haven't heard those words in such a long time.It makes me so happy that they are getting back together (even if it is for only 7 days)

I WANT TO GO!!! (excuse me while I go and whore myself off for some tickets ><;;) I must get to L'arc-en-ciel live before it's over!



date:3/08/03
mood:Dir en Greylly tired
music: nothing , because I'm too *tired* to pull up any music

It's Spring Break and I'm not excited at all. I'm going to a hick town for a week with my family tommorow. I can only imagine all the great museums and white trash we'll see (my favorite ><;;). So it kind of halts my attempts of revamping for awhile.
6 hours in the car with my little brother and my parents~ why does that sound so suicidally boring??!! -_- Especially with the hour long side trips they always seem to find on the endlesshighways to places like Lukenbach, Texas. I don't think I will ever understand why anyone would drive forever on a bumpy rode that makes me feel like vomiting to end up in a town with one store, 2 houses and a barn? But since my parents have an uncanny ability of finding places like that, I will always be certain that there is a satan in this world, and he's very good friends with my parents.

Pray for me, I think I'm going to need it where I'm going.



date:3/02/03
mood:happy with my music but not with my hair
music:Everclear - "Everything to Everyone"

I have been working really hard on my new layout for this page. Wow, it finally (almost) got to a version 2.I got off my lazy butt and pulled up some new Hyde pictures. And considering the time that I am on the interent, I think that I'm doing pretty good. It'll be up soon. There'll be more to do here and more color hopefully.Oh yeah, and longer entries since mine are getting progessively shorter everytime I come here. Are you waiting yet?

Come on and do that stupid dance for me.



date:2/19/03
mood:*really* tired and completely brain dead
music:The Ataris - "San Dimas Highschool Football Rules"

Ok! I am going to revamp my blog these next 2 weeks in (which means I am going to finally finish all the stuff I never did on this version, hopefully). It's not going to be a completely different format or anything, but it'll have a new look. Even I get tired of seeing the same picture of Hyde every time I come to work on my site. And I'm hoping to have more time on my hands now that the last 6 weeks is over and I'm ungrounded ><;; stupid pshyco bitch mom

All my entries have been short lately, and very spaced... -.- I need to find more time.



date:2/09/03
mood:happy and comfy ^-^
music: the music from DDR that everyone is playing in the other room

Whoo! I now have two entries in my guestbook (which includes me ! O_o) In case anyone didn't see it , I have a guestbook now and it's at the bottom of the page! (hint hint) **waves at Bailey** Hi Bailey! Thanks for signing my guestbook. Long time no talk, huh? How is Mason? Boring I bet..Like usual...and oh yeah, I miss you! Come back to Midland sometime, because Mason doesn't need you.

And my entry went flat...



date:2/01/03
mood:I woke up at 5:30 and I'm not tired! Should I be worried or not?
music: nothing..yet..ok there we go: Due' le Quartz - "Sel-fish"

Whoo! What a weird week! I'm still grounded (does the even surprise you?) and I think that its only effect on me is that it has caused me to be even more lazy with everything concerning school.Which was my problem in the first place, but oh well...anyways. I was thinking that if I don't randomly pass out on my keyboard ( I still think that it's not normal to wake up at 5 in the morning and not have *some* side effects ><) I would try to get some more done on this page. hehe, but I spent most of my morning taking interent quizzies instead. whoo!!!!


Toshiya-You're mysterious to a bit of an extent.
When it comes time to party, you're up for anything. You like to pick on
the young ones, making it seem as though you are old. You are young
at heart, and enjoy the company of your best friends. Time to pull out
the bass!

Which Dir En Grey Member are you?
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rar! I love that picture of Toshiya minus that doll he's holding **shivers**. It creeps me out. Anyways, last night I got to celebrate the Chinese New Year (kind of) with Wing Yin. It was fun....and actually what we really did was eat some food and then listened to music in her living room (aren't you jealous? Because I know it sounds like so much fun!!!)Ah, I feel bad for making fun of it now, because it *was* fun. And we got to teach her how to skate after dinner (actually that was Noelle. I just sat outside and watched with everyone else who couldn't skate.) ^-^ I met some new people at dinner too, and I think I could say that they were nice. But really they just annoyed me..or maybe that was me being creeped out by yet another preppy white girl who thinks she's black. ><;;

I hope no one reading this is like that, but I don't think it would matter anyways ^-^ hehe. I've been PMSing a lot, whish is either my mom's fault (don't you love blaming stuff on other people? ^^yesh!!) or it's just me. Gomen ni!I'm sure I'll read this later and find out how weird early mornings make me sound.I'm starting to hear birds outside and sunlight is coming through the window, yeesh. How long have I been on? I miss being in my room doing *nothing* and staring at the wall, because what could be more fun than that. God, why didn't I start getting grounded earlier??!!...there was no sarcasm in that -.- for those of you who can't pick it out.
(yay for bitchy entries!)



date:1/20/03
mood:braindead :X rarara
music: Miyavi - "Jinguru Beru"

Well I feel ratarted today. <--I can't even spell retarted right!And I'm eating some macorni (did I spell that right?) that only took 3 minutes to make. Yummy cheap microwave foods, they keep me alive ^^ I just love it when have the cheese powder sticks to my spoon instead of the noodles and I get a mouthful of clumpy powder O.o so sexy...
Last night I went through hell in a movie theatre. Never volunteer for a lock in unless you like helping people! Which I definately don't like to do. I slept on a wooden bench listening to Miyavi (i had to drown the noise out with *something*) And then I had to sit through Spy Kids 2 whih I don't recommend to anyone, and Drumline. I don't have anything to say about that one, but, I didn't like it either. Also there were just too many little kids everywhere and everything was too dirty or too loud to sleep on/in. Plus when I got home at 6 in the morning I had to sit outisde for 40 minutes freezing because I was locked out ><
Don't you just love to waste your time reading about how boring my life is?? I need some Dir en Grey to make me feel better *hugs embryo* yes I love you!!! I think the best thing that happened to me this weekend besides MLK is the nummy tempura I had on Saturday.I think that God is made of Asian food, because it makes everyone want to be a better person. ^-^ Or maybe that was Dir en Grey...

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My entry probably sounded really weird today due to lack of sleep. Gomen ni.



date:1/15/03
mood: drooling over pictures of Toshiya in leather pants and a wet t-shirt O.o yummmmmmmm
music: Miyavi - "POP is Dead"

I haven't been very up to date with my postings lately (probably because I've been grounded from the computer because I got a 72 on my chemistry exam. I think I took away a few years of my mom's life because she freaked out so much about it -.- hehe, but who really cares? I really hate science!)
Anyways, I swear to god there's a Chinese mafia where I live! Yesterday when I went to lunch I saw this big white van (isn't that a liddle suspicious? ^^) filled with asians!!! That's the second time I've seen it too...and then there's the Golden Dragon Chinese cuisine place that always has about 20 cars parked infront of it, but when you walk inside it, it's empty O.o I think they have secret meetings in the kitchens!Plus their food tastes like shit, because the mafia can't cook(I don't think)~it's just a cover.They can kill people though... What else would explain all the cars and the big white van?! **raises hand** I want to be in a Chinese mafia!!!!!!!!!



date:1/03/03 (happy new year!)
mood: bored
music:Ok Go - "Get Over It"

Alrighty. I just finished filling this out because I have nothing to do (I am really durn bored) and decided I'd post it on my blog since i haven't written anything on here forever.

Your Full Name: Megan Lindsay<--(it's really sad, but I'm not sure if I spelled that right. And it's my own middle name -.- hehe) Balden
Birth Name: Megan Lindsay Balden
When: March 28, 1987
Do you like your name?: No. I'd rather have a name that 20 other people in my school don't have already. Like Miho..:p or Yuu
screen name: Angelhaido, Sanyhead and many more i can't remember
Eye color: blue
Hair color: blonde :X
Height: 5'7 i think
Pets: a cat and a dog
Siblings and age: Andrew-20, Robyn-17?, Kyle-9? (i'm not sure about those last 2)
What are you wearing?: My pajama pants and Aaoron Carter shirt ^-^
Color(s): PURPLE!! it's sexzy! pink, red,black, white, blue..as long as it's not green, I'm ok.
McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King (Ronald is gothic!)
What are you listening to right now?: "POP is Dead"-Miyavi
Look at your nails: they're pink
What did your last fortune cookie say?: someone is watching you from afar (creepy...)
Are you good lookin'?: hmm...
Do you feel neglected?:sometimes?
Moving on: yes!
Coke or Dr. Pepper?: DP
Who's talking to you right now?: no one...
Who do you wish was talking to you?: um...someone hot. Hyde?or Garrett :D
Tall or short?: I like beng tall, but if I was short I could wear platforms like all my wonderful visual keis
Thin or thick?: thin is yummy
Black or white?: Black.
Purple or pink?: Purple fucking rocks!
Do you follow the rainbow? I <3 rainbows
Were you used?: i dont think so
Are you better friends with guys or girls? About equal, usually.
What's your favorite food? Chinese and Italain. I *love* curry What's your desktop look like? a picture of a boring desert my dad picked out -.-
Who do you wish you could say you were sorry to?: Lotsa people.
Could your last name be differnet?: yes! I think it would be Takarai (hehe ^^)
Best online friend: Ga-Eun!!
:o)Best real life friend: Noelle. What would I do without my vomit buddy? and Ejhen (sweety!)
Greatest fantasy?: What? It has something to do with hot jrockers?? (what a surprise.)
!School? Art class!

Have You Ever:

Gone out in your pajamas: yes, I get very lazy sometimes. And it's not like the preps don't do it anyways (I dun know why)
Missed school b/c it was raining: uh no.
Set any body part on fire for amusement: not on purpose
Kept a secret from everyone: yeap
Experienced love at first sight: Hyde? hehe^^ no..
Wanted to hook up with a friend: no
Cried during a flick: almost every movie I watch
Had a crush on a teacher: lol, no
Ever thought an animated character was hot? Yes! If you haven't seen anime you don't know how much you're missing out! **Kailey from Peach Girl**
Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the Block tape?: no, I'm probably the only person who has *never* even seen the show
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: no, I don't watch enough tv for that
Been on stage: yeah. But I don't really like it

Favorites====

Color: purple is *so* sexy
Day/Night: Night
Summer/Winter: summer, I hate the cold
Online Smiley: ^-^
music: J-rock and occcasional american rock/punk/ska
Cartoon Character: Gir
People: my friends ^^
Do they like you?: I hope so.
Who have you known the longest of your friends: Bailey. Who's the loudest?: ummm,kiki?
Who's the shyest?: Jacob
Who do you go to for advice: friends
Who do you cry with: myself usually, or good friends

LAST TWO WEEKS, HAVE YOU:

Have you cried: yeah. I was watching movies ^^
Been in the water SO long your hands got those wrinkles on them?: yes. I always take long showers
Cut your hair: Nope.
Worn a skirt: Yes! I got to wear my Kana costume for the hell of it
Met someone new: yeah
Missed someone: Yes!
Hugged someone? yeap ^^ I luv hugs
Fought with your parents: yeah, constantly. I think we talk a different language -.-
Wished upon a star: yeah
Laughed until you cried: yeap!
Played Truth or Dare: No, I suck at the game b/c I can never think of dares. plus those are the things we did when we were in grade school. Now it's all just DDR
Watched a sunrise/sunset: no
Learned something new: how to play DDR!
Spent quality time alone: yeah, it's usually not too boring..
Read a book for fun: god I *love* Kitchen by Banana Yoshimoto
Ate a meal: Um....duh?
Are you lonely: Yeah, occasionally.
Are you happy: usually :D

DO U BELIEVE... >>

In yourself?: most of the time...
Backstreet Boys or NSync? BSB!!!! NSync is gay and came after BSB and don't know how much thy suck and that the only girls that like them are fat white girls :P
When was the last time you showered? This morning.
What color pants do you have on right now? blue one's with witch kitties on them.They're my pajamas
What's the last thing you said online? "yay! on online quizzy just told me Legolas should be my husband!" (hehe. **hugs Legolas**)
What is your computer desk made of? Plastic i think.
What is your number? 4
What was the last thing you ate?: cheese pizza
Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?: A tropical island!
How's the weather right now? kinda cool. I spend most of my time inside tho
What did you do last night?:Ate nummy chinese food, went to visit old freinds I haven't seen in *forever* and watched Clueless
What's the best thing that you find about the opposite sex?: umm I *love * girly boys (usually the asian kind) and i mean girly as in looks, not personality. With pretty long hair and sexy eyes ^^
How are you today?: bored and tired
How do you eat an Oreo?: I put it in my mouth
Any illnesses we should know about: nope. I'm allergic to coconut?I'd never make it on a desert island -.-
Dream car?: a pretty one..I know *nothing* about cars. I love the metro in DC too. Does that count as a car?
Ever won any awards and what for?: 1st place in an art contest
Favorite Movie: LOTR , 10 Things I Hate About you
Favorite CD: that's a hard one. I've been listening to Miyavi's new CD Gagaku a lot lately tho...and my Real CD by L'arc-en-Ciel
What are your deepest fears? Dying of some painful weird disease..or something. Being blind...ummm that kinda stuff
Which single store would you choose to max out your credit card? Tower Records or a gothic and lolita one in Japan!
Fav. Actor?: Hyde's and actor now ^-^ but there's also *Orlando Bloom*, Heath Ledger, Josh Hartnett and Christian Bale
Fav. Actress?: I don't usually pay attentioon to that...i like Julia Styles tho
Do you like to dance?: Yes! what do you think DDR is?
Fast or slow?: Both.
If you could change your name : I would. I don't like mine...it would be something weird that no one else had where i live
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: hell yes! I sleep with Hyde every night ( my stuffed bunny)
What is the stupidest thing you have ever done?: I can't think of anything particular right now but I do stupid things *all* the time. Yesterday I told my friends mom my sister was looking for a girlfreind (on accident >< I meant to say my brother)
What will your first son's name be? something corresponding with Noelle's firt child. Like Tele (vision). hehe ^^ and my son is going to be so fucking cool. He's gonna have pretty purple hair and wear skirts . ( no he's not gonna be a fag :P) I have this all planned out ^^ he's gonna be *so* visual kei
Daughter?: hmmm. I don't have that one planned...yet :X Do you like scary or happy movies better? Happy movies, though scary ones can be quite funny...or scary
On the phone or in person? Person
Lust or Love?: Love.
Do you consider cheerleading a sport?: not at our school
Do you want your friends to write back? yes ^^ but I don't know if they enjoy these as much as I do
Anything else? I don't want to know how many times the word Hyde or Jrocker came up in this..I'm hungry too ^^



date:12/10/02
music:Utada Hikaru - "Simple and Clean"
mood: don't really feel like typing but I have nothing else to do -.-

I am pretty durn tired of school.And really bored with all the reviews we've started for our finals. :P Anyways, I only have 8 more days until it's all over!! (for 2 and a half weeks!) And I also have a few problems that I don't know how to deal with. Now that I *finally* got the new account for my blog up and working I don't really know what to do. I have all these other things planned in my head that I want to get done with it but I don't really know where to start. Also, I'm realllyyy lazy. hehe ^^ too lazy to type anything else. luvs!



date: 11/17/02
music: Due' le quartz - "Higouhou Drug"
mood:bored, waiting to go shopping so I can get some pants that fit me(yay!) and annoyed

So nothing exciting has happened to me this weekend since everyone is either working or gone. But all my friends have managed to find a way to get mad at somebody in some way or another.How fun -.- But I found some fun internet quizzies from my old , unfinished webpage and decided to take some over out of boredness. Yay!!




date: 11/15/02
music:JUDY AND MARY - "Motto"
mood:cold, and my eyes hurt from staring at the computer screen with my contacts -.-;;

Oy. What a day at school today, but atleast it's Friday , right? And thank God we didn't have *another* pep rally this Friday like we have been doing the last 4 weeks. The ones where the teachers always end up getting mad at the sophomore class because we don't have enough school spirit.And why should we after they lost horribly (0 to 49) to the highschool football team they've beat for the past 32 years? Besides that I had a very interesting lunch *yummy* with Andy (Chinese friend) trying to get Ejhen (other cool Chinese friend) to talk in Chinese , which he sadly failed at after about an hour of annoying remarks.What else...? Ever since one of my good guy friends told me he liked me (he's going to go un-named ) I have had a very *bad* week. He kinda ruined the friendship we had, and I feel weird just being around him -.- I hate it, and I don't want to be harsh or anything but I just don't like him at all for that (aka I temporarily hate him).Sorry for sounding like such a bitch. Umm, I'm going to stop complaining about that now so I don't end up like all the other blogger's who whine about their life and only listen to depressing music and all that durn good stuff (not really ^-^)

On to a more universal topic. I just found out Hyde is going to be working with A Chinese artist, whose name I can't remember (he's one of the stars of Moonchild), to produce some new songs. I'm not sure where Gackt fits in there, he might be in on the whole song thing too, but I can't remember that either. This kinda upsets me in 2 ways. I mean, what about L'arc~en~ciel Haido??!! Have you forgotten that you are in that band? Also, Hyde is very talented at what he does (one of the best) and when he starts to mix with this other guy, who has a more R&B poppish style, I just don't like the mainsteamishness of it all. Maybe that's just me though. So if you want to check the progress of how much more Laruku has been doing in it's solo areas, I found Ken's site the other day-->Sons of all Pussys (www.bubble-star.com) Now, I don't know if that name has *anything* to do with the kind of music that he's working on, or if he just though it was funny (I do , hehe. But maybe it has one of those weird engrish meanings I just don't understand) And...well..the song clip on the entering page is very interesting. It almost sounds like Ken was trying to go for a Dir en Grey/ screamy sound, but was drunk when he was recording. Hopefully the whole album won't have that...style @.@. Now I get to tackle with WinMXsome more, which still hasn't given me Pink Spider **cries** Why does America have to have so little J-rock. I need the music to survive ~.~ I think I'd stop breathing without it. I think I'm gonna get some munchies now, yay for food!!!



date:11/14/02
music:Dir En Grey - "Embryo"
mood: tired

wow! This gets to be my first entry into my blog **jumps up and down** I don't really know what to write though, now that I finally have it up. I wasn't quite sure how to set this whole thing up, but it turned out being very Hyde themed and very white -.- Not to mention that I am very HTML retarded, which makes thise whole thing difficult. So happy opening to me!!!! It gives me something to do since these past few days of mine have been mizerable at school. I got about the 20th 70 on a Chemistry quiz (*barf*) today. It's yet another in a series of seriously awful grades for that class. I want to eat all science and rid it from this earth (eat?)! I hate it >< just about as much as I hate WinMX for not finding me Pink Spider *dum WinMX*!!I'm gonna end this now, saying thank you to all those sites I stole the HTML off of for my site. I love you guys, couldn't do it without you!...I did link a lot of stuff back though...**runs away**^^^^^^^

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