Pushed Away CH 18

Nik woke up on the couch in his office and looked around. He had passed out there last night, like he had for the last week. After the party, he and Casey talked about ideas for the company’s merger. Nik went right to work on things and this took up all of his time. He would work until he’d pass out on his couch and as soon as he woke up he would go right back to work. He hadn’t showered and he barely ate all week. Mrs. Landsberry became concerned about him and would bring him food; witch he would sometimes accepted and other times did not. He was finally done with all the work he had to do. It was agreed that Casey would work on the rest. He had worked all night and when he was finally done, he passed out on the couch.

Nik stood up and immediately felt a pain hit his head and neck. He needed to get some good sleep. He only had a few hours of sleep here and there lately and the lack of sleep hit him hard. He groggily found his way upstairs and went into the master bedroom and past out on the bed. He slept for a good ten hours.

A smile crept across Nik’s face when he started to wake. A familiar smell waved over him. “Gia.” He breathed and reached out to the other side of the bed. His eyes fluttered open and he slowly became aware that she was not in bed with him.

**To see you, when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold utopian dream.**

A sinking feeling slowly crept into Nik’s heart and he began to breath very, his chest rising and falling rapidly.

**You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said, I miss you.(?)**

He sat up and looked around franticly for her. Suddenly memories of the party came rushing back to him. The flinch he received when he tried to touch her, the look on her face when he looked at her while they were dancing. When he remembered her standing up leaving he realized what he’d done. “Oh god Gia.” He said frantically.

**I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wastin away.**

He rolled over and buried his face in her pillow, inhaling her scent. Thoughts of her came rushing over him, her skin, her touch, her eyes, her voice, her laugh, her smell. Her smell, it was so strong. His body gave in to the heavy aches in his chest and he released his sobs.

**I know I'll see you again whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care and I miss you.**

“Gia!” He cried out. “Oh god Gia..” his body ached with sorrow. Tears streamed down him face. His heart felt like it was slowly ripping to pieces. “Oh god what have I done?” Nik said threw quick breaths. His mind began to race; he tried to think of where she could be. “Lucky’s!” He exclaimed. Nik jumped up and out of bed and was immediately reminded of how long it had been sense he had showered. He went in took a shower, got dressed and brushed his teeth. He walked out the door with one thing on his mind. He had to go find Gia.

Song credits: Incubus    Title: I miss you.