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| Sunday, September 29, 2002, 9:54pm So its the end of yet another exciting weekend here at WU. Well Friday was very unexciting. Yes, I know that is NOT a word. But seriously... Friday I didn't do much of anything. Saturday was more fun. I went to WIllamette Idol, which was a little disappointing, but the girl who won totally deserved it, so I was happy. Then I went over to SAE (Sigma Alpha Epsilon) with Blake, Taylor, and Nic. I had a few shots and met a bunch of people, including a really nice girl named Sarah from Pi Phi (that's the sorority I want to join). It was a good time. Then we came back to Kaneko and got 2 pizzas and I fell asleep on Blakes bed. Then I went and put pajamas on and fell asleep in Nic's bed. Tee-hee. *grin* Anyways, it was a good night. Today was quiet as Sundays usually are. I woke up late, took a shower, cleaned up a bit, and then went to dinner. There are far too many good looking guys here. I cannot concentrate on school at all! The main guy I'm interested in is Nic. I really like him a lot. But I never really know what he's thinking or how he feels about me. It's odd. He seems to like me most of the time, but other times, I think he just wishes I would leave him alone. And that's not cool at all. There's another guy that I'm sorta falling hard for, and that's Blake. He's a lot like Nic though, so that's probably why. Unfortunately, he seems really uninterested. At one point, I thought he might like me, but then I realized that he was just being nice and that he's nice to everybody. That's a good thing, but I still wish he liked me. *sigh* There's a new guy named Richard who's really nice, but he's kinda shy, so I'm working on getting him out of his shell. Then there's Mike from my World Views class. He reminds me of all my guy friends back home wrapped into one. Actually he's a lot like David. It's wierd. But he's really cool. I guess that's sort of off topic, but whatever. I still think Megdy is really hot and there's a few others that I wouldn't mind getting to know better as well. Hmmm... shall I list them too? I don't know about that. Maybe next journal entry if I'm bold enough. *sigh* I'm kinda getting to that point though where I'm sick of the chase and I just want somebody to hold me. I think its boyfriend time, but I doubt any guy here would be into that idea since we've only been here a month and there are still a ton of people to meet. I totally don't blame them either. I just feel sort of lonely sometimes. And when I get lonely I just want to call Spencer and pick a fight with him, which is probably the least constructive thing I could possibly do, but there it is. Ok this is starting to sound too whiny, One more thing though. I want to make friends with more girls. I think I'm going to work on that. Nona is really busy a lot with stuff and Angie has volleyball. There's this girl in my World Views class named April who I think is pretty cool and so is Paige. Then there's Ashleigh from my French class who lives down the hall, Heather next door, and Jenna on 3rd west. I think all these girls are cool, but I am not really sure how to go about making friends with them. I am such a loser about stuff like that. It's easy to say hi, but starting a real conversation is way harder. Oh well. I think its time for me to start on homework. I've been putting it off all weekend. I gotta start getting my act together if I'm going to keep a 3.0! Yikes! Bubye. Friday, September 27, 2002, 5:57pm Well here I am in Nona's room. It's a good day. Anyways, I should get back to the story. What's funny is that as I try to share what's been going on in my life for the past month or so, I keep getting farther and farther behind as stuff keeps happening. It's out of control! Tee-hee. Actually I think I'll just give up on the detail and start just giving a brief overview. So anyways, Nic and I got really close. Turns out he did like me! And he also just happens to be one of the nicest guys ever. He's so much fun. Anyway, I screwed that up by being me. You know how that goes. But its ok. I've been getting to know lots of guys. It's been good. I found out that like the whoile football team knows about my website and has seen it though, which is a tad bit disconcerting. It's not that I don't want people to know what I write on here because it is on the INternet where anyone in the world can read it., It's just sort of strange that so many people like read it and then talk about it with each other. I'm so used to just having a website and all my friends having websites, that its odd to cause such a commotion. I'm getting ready to go to dinner now though. Tootles! Sunday, September 8, 2002, 3:13pm Ok, so where was I? Oh yes, I was meeting people and hanging out. So I met this guy named Nic, who I thought was pretty cute. We played cards together and I kinda got the vibe that he liked me, but I wasn't sure. So Saturday night at the dance, Nona and I kept trying to get closer to him just to see, but nothing really happened. But finally, his friend Ryan tapped me on the shoulder and told Nona and I to come dance with him and Nic. The dance was almost over and we all wanted to hang out after, so Ryan told Nona and I to meet them in his room after we went to get our stuff. I was so excited! But when we got to Ryan's room, nobody was there. I was pissed. But Nona, Angie, and Nona's roommate, Meridith decided to go to this off-campus party. We filled up a water bottle with Vodka and headed out. The party was really fun cause it was pretty calm. There was loud music and a bunch of people sitting around talking and drinking. I saw Megdy there and he came over and talked to me. There was some major flirting going on and a good amount of alcohol flowing through my bloodstream so I was having a great time. Before Megdy left he told me to come back to his room after the party. People started to take off around 2am, so Meridith (who doesn't drink) drove us back to the dorm. Angie and I went downstairs to Megdy and Eki's room. There was another girl named Jenna chilling in there too. We were all talking and I told them what had happened with Nic, so Megdy was like "Oh let's go find him." So Megdy and I started wandering the halls of Kaneko together. We found Nic's room, but I didn't knock or anything. At that point, I was thinking only about Megdy, and Nic was pushed to the back of my mind. Eventually Megdy and I went back to the elevator and I flirtatiously moved closer to him. Then he kissed me! When we got back down to his floor, we went into the kitchen, turned off the lights and started making out. It felt so good to be touched. He has a really nice body. Anyway, once we had our hands down each others' pants, I started to feel a little uncomfortable. He's a really nice guy, but I'd only known him a few days. I decided I better think about what I was doing, so we stopped and went back in to join the others. I don't regret it at all, but I'm glad I didn't let it go any further. I think I may have made things awkward with him though, cause we haven't talked much since and that sucks. But don't worry... the plot thickens. I'll get to that later though. Mwahahahaha! Friday, September 6, 2002, 5:02pm WELCOME TO COLLEGE LIFE!!! Greetings from Willamette University, Kaneko Hall, Room 340! It's been way too long, since I've been able to really write openly about what's been going on with me. Before I go back into the intrigues of my senior summer, I think I should recount the excitement of my first week at college. I drove down with my family last Wednesday. We stayed overnight in a hotel and got up the next morning to take me (and my ridiculously large amount of stuff) over to Willamette. I walked through campus into Goudy Commons, the main dining hall on campus to find my Opening Days leaders, Chika and Devin. I was surprised to find a really tall guy with big sideburns next to a 5' nothing little Japanese girl. They gave me a hige packet of stuff and welcomed me, then directed me down the line of tables to another lady who gave me my room key and made me sign the typical waiver stating that I understand all the rules and the drug and alcohol policy. hen I went over to get my ID card and yearbook pictures. It was a whirlwind of paperwork until finally, I got to head over to find my room. Wheeling two suitcases behind me up the elevator to the third floor of a black and red building, followed closely by the rest of my family, carting all my other stuff, I nervously opened the door to my room. Angela (Angie) my roommate wasn't in there, but she had already moved in since she plays varsity volleyball. I started to unpack right away. Then she came in and met my family who proceeded to embarass me as usual. At 3 pm, I met up with my Opening Days group which is: Nona, Michael, Paige, Reed, Nick, Evan, Amy, Heidi, April, Ross, Megdy, Sean, Stephanie, Adam, and Jessi. We all had to play the typical, dorky get-to-know-you games. But as soon as the ice was broken, we all got along really well. It was amazing how tight we became. Through all the events, and our first few World Views classes (freshman seminar class on 5th century Athens) we displayed that bond and it just made the transition into college really easy and fun. I also made a new close friend, Nona (which is short for Antonia). We hang out every day now. It's great to have a girl to hang out with and talk to all the time cause I miss my girlfriends back home, especially Cara, Jen, Lisa, Allysa, and all the girls from dance. Now to get into stuff with guys... On the first day, I actually was so impressed with myself because I got a ride back to the dorm with a football player in my group. His name is Megdy and he's super hot. It was cool cause he didn't know anything about me, so I could just be myself and not worry about him judging me by who I was friends with or whatever. Then that night, he came and knocked on my door and brought me downstairs to hang out with Angie (my roommate) and some of the other football players. Everyone was so nice and we all learned each others' names and talked about random stuff for a while. I felt totally accepted right away. My parents left on Friday and that night. That was so freeing to have them leave! Well there is tons more to tell about the last week, but I have to meet some friends for dinner now, so I'll finish this later! You all should EMail me or send me letters. I hate checking an empty mailbox! Also, the invitation to visit is always open. We can party together! Just give me a call. Bubye! Saturday, August 18, 2002, 12:31am Life is pretty good. Summer is great. I love being me now more than ever. I have so much I wish I could share, but there are still 10 days until my silence can be safely broken. Goodbyes will hurt so much now that there are such special people to say goodbye to. Wednesday, August 14, 2002, 11:34pm Well as you can tell, my other journal page was getting kind of full. And I haven't really had time to keep up with an online journal anyway since this summer has been so completely crazy. Man I wish I could tell everyone all the things that have happened, but only I know. For once in my life, I've been keeping secrets. There is not one single person that knows the truth and the whole truth about my life right now. This may seem disconcerting for some, but don't worry. It's for my own personal safety that it has to be this way. Once I get to school, I will be able to start over and my life will be an open book once again. Maybe then I will be able to reveal the juicy details of my senior summer, but we'll see. Just know that I am doing well and that life has rarely been better. I hope everyone will keep in touch with me. It's sad to be leaving childhood behind, but I'm ready for something new and different. Something big. |