Drugs
I keep sniffing, I keep snorting,
I keep rebelling against the good.
I feel the drip, I feel the tears,
I feel the way I think I should.
Random Thought
What are you doing in there? Get out of my head!
I didn't let you in. Did you hear what I said?
Stop pestering me! I want you to go away!
Stop messing with my mind. I can't deal with you today!
PILLS
Your body's floating on air, with these pills, you don't care.
Take 5 and I bet, in 10 minutes you're set, it only lasts a few hours, you'll take what you can get.
Frustrated at home with a mom that you hate,
Your teachers are pissed because everyday you're late.
The guys in your school are begging to mate!
Everybody else seems to be deciding your fate.
Life is getting too hard, too hard to take.
If you're not on the drugs, then why be awake?!
The drugs make you fake they make you shake for God's sake!
But if not for the drugs, something in your mind would snap! It would break!
High Judgement
Don�t fucking judge me
By what I do or what I say.
Why won�t you just let me be?
If you want me to change then go fucking pray.
I�m high as a plane
My body feels great
You drive me insane
You make me afraid.
I just need some love, I found it, it�s there,
But it�s so far away, no one here cares.
I cry every night, try to let the pain out.
When I finally stop crying, I�m in a constant pout.
Just fucking cut my throat.
My soul�s already broke.
So end my life now if you think I�m immoral,
Just rid me of suffering, rid me of sorrow.
Sorry About Last Night
I'm still really sorry, I wish I could reverse the night.
It must have scared you, that awful bloody sight.
I know you think it's morally wrong, it wasn�t wrong it just wasn't right -
to do that in your home, but I did try to fight!
I don't want things to change, a friendship down the drain.
But I'm quitting for everyone, I'm using my brain.
Please don't look at me different, like I've gone insane.
Just keep telling me it'll be okay, and I'll work on getting rid of my pain.
Victim of a Hypocrite
Just like the titanic,
My spirit goes sinking.
He says I make him sick,
And it really gets me thinking.
Am I not worth caring for?
To everyone I�m just a whore.
Everyone tells me to be myself
But when I am, it�s bad for my health?
You may speak with your mind,
But your eyes show your heart
To your own mind you are blind
And good Lord, it�s tearing me apart.
Cry
When she screamed at me for nothing
I withdrew my cry.
When she was disappointed despite my trying
I withdrew my cry.
When everything I believed in was said to be "Wrong!"
When even my thoughts and imagination were "Twisted and wrong!"
I withdrew my cry!
When he acknowledged the truth I so greatly despise
I withdrew my cries.
When he ripped out my heart, broke it, made a part of me die.
I withdrew my cry!
Now, consumed with low self esteem and a hatred for myself
Holding anger and resentment toward the world not loving even myself!
I renounce my cry!
When again everything is to my blame
I'll let out my cry!
When, for everything I do, I'm meant to feel shame,
I'll let out my cry!
When the truth starts to hurt, I'll no longer lie.
When heartbreak is inevitable and there's no point to lie
I'll let out my cry!
And you'll see me cry, yes, you'll "see" me cry.
Don't try to cheer me up, these lakes will not dry.
You'll be around to see that flood in my eyes
spilling over on to my heart.
See that vast ocean of blue sorrow
you've caused me to drowned in.
I hope you get a glimpse
of that good part of me you made die.
And most of all . . . .
I hope you cry.
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All poetry © of Jenna Wisniewski