~*Journal*~
May 10, 2004. 12:15am Ok so for some reason I figured today was a good day to start a journal again. Um yeah so this week has been pretty shitty. Me and Abby were supposed to go to Yakima to look at a puppy with Sherry, but she left without us, and on Saturday me and Abby were supposed to have a yard sale to get sum skrill, but then abbys mom got all cunt on us and said we couldn't have it, and then we were supposed to go see Van Helsing, but the guy that was gonna take us bailed. And then today we were supposed to go to Old Country Buffet, and the guy that was supposed to take us also bailed. The only good thing that happened today is Adam called me. It was kind of confusing though. I dont' know what our status is. He said hes moving to Ohio in a month and told me I'm coming with him. And then he said 'we can get married too, because you only have to be 15' Which got me excited and really confused. I don't know how he really feels about me. I told him that I needed to talk to him about our status when he gets back from Montana, but I don't even know what I'm going to say. Theres so much, and its all so confusing. However me and him end up though I'll be happy. Because at least I got to spend the last year knowing him. Hmm, i guess I'll write more later I'm to blah.
May 11, 2004. 12pm Ok so today was pretty boring. I woke up at 8am when this chic called about my community service. I have to do it at freakin Christ The King. Yip-Dee-Doo. Got off the phone with her and fell asleep. Woke up at like 4. Abby came over, shaved our legs and got in a water fight. lol. umm Started planning our birthday party. My Boo called, but that wasnt very good cuz i just ended up crying when ever we got off the phone. :-( I miss him so much. *sigh* what will i ever do. lol. I'm so damn confused. I've been single for like 2 months almost, I don't know what the hell is going on with me and Adam. I don't think I've changed myself so much for one person. Its gay, I haven't flirted with anyone, kissed anyone, and what not for hella. I can't even find people remotely attractive, but then I see a picture of Adam and I freakin melt. CRAZY SHIT MAN. I'll write more lataz, I need a cigarette.
May 13, 2004. 12:30AM todays my sis' 19th bday, guess she didn't do much. first day of work at my aunts, did yardwork for like a hour and a half, hella hott out, then david took me and abby to subway, then went and got ice cream, it was pretty cool. went to nicoles and abby got drunk, i got to see lil Kevyne and Violet, cuties. Specially Kevyne cuz he looks so much like his sexy daddy :-D ok, so me and adam have gotten in a few arguments lately 1 about how i'm not sure if i want to go back out with him, which i was stupid to say because of course i do, i just don't want him to think that i'll take him back everytime he breaks up with me. and another today because he said he took his nipple ring out because he did it for me and then now that i don't know if i'll take him back he has no use for it. which pissed me off. hmm what else. he hasn't told me he loved me since the other day when i said i wasnt sure. and i never have said bye to him i always say i love you, before we get off the phone, and he just says bye now or goodnight, and i dn't want to say i love you because i can't do it without choking up and crying, so i just hang up. and i'm afraid one of these days hes going to get angry about it. i love him so much :( he said he might be home in like a week or two. i hope we get things cleared up before then, cuz either he comes back and we get back together and be happy, or if he changes his mind and says we'd be better off as friends, i'm off to job corps as soon as fuckin possible.:( i wish adam would walk in right now pick me up and take me sumplace romantic, ask me to marry him, and then move away from all these dumb fuckin ppl, and we can be happy with no fuckin worries. bah i'm outta here
May 18, 04 11:13pm ok i haven't writtin in a while but heres what i've been up to. ok umm me and adam talked about why we aren't going to get back together right when he gets back.. umm lets see, nicole accused us of stealing her purse, a teacher at the hs stole my ciggarettes, hmm lets see.... today was the fashion show, it was ok except out of the 11 people we invited, only my cuz and uncle came, and abbys mom showed up as we ended it. Tomorrow is the orientation at job corps. Yet i don't know if i want to go nemore because my friend mike told me it sucked balls. and i don't know if its worth it nemore but i'm still gonna check it out. the freakin person from jobcorps didn't call back so i don't know if were going tomorrow. hmm lets see here. went to mikes last night and watched old school. i have to start my community service on monday. christ the king. damn. worked at my aunts the other day. hella hott out. been listening to kotton mouth kings for ever. freakin crazy. anyway, i put like a million new pics up so check em out. don't make fun of my hair i fuckin hate it. anyways i'll write later.
